Thursday, April 05, 2012 ❤
5th of April... It is tonight... I am going to Malaysia real soon... It is really been quite long time that I have not go Malaysia... I shall set my next target for my oversea trip too, hope it will be success by next year..
This few days I have been feeling quite lazy as usual... Have not start trying to learn my dance but only today I start to be a little serious on this dance... I know the date that I want to fulfill is going to reach... I know I might upload the video maybe sightly late but will be before the month of May...
Have a good looking at the AKB48 singles song list... Happy to find out that there is dance version of their new DVDs... O my... This is a super good new for me as I got the chance to learn their dance again... Hee hee... Yippe... Anyway, I have ordered their new singles in this morning... And awaiting for May to come...
Going offline now.. See ya~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠5:27 PM
Monday, April 02, 2012 ❤
2nd of April... I am super very sleepy right now, feeling my eyes are just kinda of half open I guess... Woke up quite early in the morning and the weather is super good for sleeping... Want to sleep longer but can't...
Today is not a good day either... Suppose accompanied my father to hospital for appointment but waited the cab for almost more than 15 minutes long... All cabs are either in ON CALL, BUSY or HIRED... And I spotted some drivers are really like can't see customers waving at the cabs... I have waved in front of the cab for quite long and the cab just drive off and looking super straight, never noticing the side of the road...
No choice.. My father has to drive and top up the cash card and it is already 9.25am... Really late for appointment.. Somemore the area of Jurong Town Hall road & AYE expression way is super heavy jam... So I recommend my father not to go and change date... So we change plan... Father drove to temple for pray... I donated some money to temple too... First time donating it...Then back to Jurong Spring CC to buy MacDonald food for breakfast and back home to eat...
Excited.. About 3 more days to Malaysia.. I miss the food badly over there... Hope will not gain much weight..
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠6:40 PM
Wednesday, March 28, 2012 ❤
28th of March... Have been staying at home and really kinda of bored... Thought of today going out for the Watson membership sales but lazy to travel to Jurong Point... Dun really like to shop alone...
Planning for today... Will like to try to practice my new dance if possible... Kinda of feeling sight lazy to move around my house.. OMG~ If this habit still continue, soon I will be gaining weight and get fat so easily... I already kinda of feeling fat... Dunno how to slim down to 48kg again.. Only know eat ice-cream or a packet of fries during lunch then can slim down...
Looking forward to next week... Going to Malaysia with parents... Love it... Thinking what should I going to buy over there...
Looking at my blog, I have no idea what to type... I am losing my inspiration of typing the entry to my blog... Need to read more books and think more ideas when I am free... Hope I dun lose interest on my blog as I have started this blog since secondary school till now and is more than 6 years...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:00 PM
Monday, March 26, 2012 ❤
26th of March... Time files... I have not really able to work... Can't find a job that really suit me, everytime always kena some shit jobs that made me feel so head pain.. Right now, I have been confirming that I might want to go back to retail to work as I know this might be the job that I want after been working in office for a period... Working in office do make me feel lonely and whenever I have problem, I am the only one who is facing the problem and not other people able to help me at the time...
This period has been down for fans of AKB48... I know is hard to accept but it is the fact... The decision is being made and we can't change it anymore... Hope everyone still continue to support them..
About 9 more days, I am going to Malaysia... Finally I can get a short trip to oversea... Singapore is a very boring country and I do wish to explore more countries.. My target oversea trips are Taiwan & Japan for now... Since I have already went to Hong Kong 2 years ago, but I still miss Hong Kong...
Above is just a short and random post before my blog get rusty...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠6:17 PM
Friday, March 16, 2012 ❤
16th of March... It is just about mid of the Month... I guess it is quite fast either too.. It is being quite a tired period for me... Somehow I wish to have more rest too... But I dunno how long will it be... Not long due to some personal reason, I have been kept on going to hospital everyday... Twice a day... Just feeling tired everyday have to go there but now I no longer need to go hospital... Quite happy though...
Anyway, thank for boyfriend who have accompanies me for some days to hospital or else I really feel so lonely in the hospital waiting... I love to slack at coffee bean with boyfriend, though have been feeling cold but hack care, I still continue to drink Ice blended Mocha and sitting under the air-con area... Haha... So freezing but shiok..
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Today was really tiring day for me.. I just dunno why... Really very hard to wake up in the early morning.. Thought of giving up this interview but in the end I went... Like the company but I not sure how the office look like... Anyway, the interview is much more better than the previous two I went... But in end, I have been selected and going to start working on Tuesday... I dunno why I dun feel happy at all... Planning to change my path and wanted to work in retail but in the end, I worked in office... I hate it sometimes I just cannot make my own decision... Kinda of feeling tired that Singapore office jobs are not easy job at all... Have lot of OT but retail do not have much I guess... But no choice, I have to go for it...
Lastly, I have done a new cover and uploaded not long ago... Kinda of happy but still feel that I can have more improvement on the dance steps... Right now slowly learning my new dance cover... Quite looking forward for this dance... But kinda of feeling to give up either due it really look quite complicated... Trying to tell my body everytime "Not to give up" so I can give my viewers some surprises... So I must do it, maybe it might take a longer time to learn because I will be busy working soon... Really hope everything goes well and smooth...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠6:26 PM
Thursday, March 01, 2012 ❤
1st of March.. The very first day of the new month... I am back... For the past few days, I really being sightly feeling down and kinda of thinking some stuffs.. I know it is not good at all... Bad new is my dance group unable to perform... I know I miss this chance.. I wanted to perform live so badly but in the end, being rejected due to our steps are not really that smooth...
But after going through the thinking, I think I will work hard again... I know it is hard to make everyone in the group to listen you when everyone like doing their own things.. I guess I need to retry again...
A new month... I started my job hunting not long... Sent a few emails to some companies... I wonder which companies will answer back... I know I am not the person with the high education but hope the companies do give me a chance to work too.. I only can say nowadays companies are really picky... They will rather choose people who are with diploma graduate and no experience at all in work than the people who are with lot of experience and low education... Kinda of bias I feel that...
Today shall be a great day... Waiting for my package from Japan to arrive, afternoon heading to Queentown for T-shirt making and also accompany my father for high-tea, evening for dance practice, Night maybe dinner with boyfriend if he can reach the place on time... Hee hee.. I enjoying my life without work too... Love it a lot...
Signing out now.. Shall have my lunch now...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:47 AM
Friday, February 24, 2012 ❤
I guess it is time... I planning to close down my blog or either MIA from this blog... I shall have my own offline blog..
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:07 PM
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24th of February.. I dunno why I have a sudden feeling that I want to update my blog.. Somehow I just can't take it anymore... Have been controlling my emotion and also one of the feeling inside me that making me feeling so horrible which I not sure how to say...
I actually dun feel happy at all.. I no longer can't ind anything that really do make me happy.. Somehow feeling that depression came back after a few years back.. Have been trying hard to control but in the end, I fail.. Feel like looking for a doctor for medicine..
I try using dancing to make myself feel happy but I dun think it is a success one... I try to open to everyone talk like nobody else... Behaving like another person but I feeling so horrible and I dun love it at all...
Whenever going out or going back home, I always choose to take bus because I wish to be alone and also I do not like to crowd with other people... When it is the time I am alone, I always do feel comfortable on myself... I feel sight happy and peace just with my music on and nothing to bother about...
I just want to have sometimes to heal myself back... The pain in my brain is somehow on and off from me... It is getting disturbing too... I know my aunty or either my father do have this problem so it is not rare for me to have this head pain too... I shall have rest now... Really feeling super not good... Tears just can't stop flowing out of my eyes...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:05 AM
