Friday, December 17, 2010 ❤
17th of Dec... I putting one of my old photo as the main photo for this entry... Wahaha~ No much photos for this period...
Yesterday back to work... Super busy to the max and also very tired... Thought might fall sick soon... Down with flu... Started my work from 8.30am till 8pm... I only gave myself a 10 minutes lunch break by eating bread only at my seat then continue on my work again... I feel that I am really racing with the time... It is damn tiring...
In the meanwhile., I still have to answer customer calls... Sometimes some customers are damn super disturbing... They should know I today just come back after long leave as I have put auto message to inform them that I am on leave what date to what date... Still continue call my phone and rush me this and that... Cannot give me sometimes to settle down with those stuffs... Argh~
I did not eat something even I am hungry... I did not even drink in work because I just want to finish my stuffs... My lips are dry until dunno look like what... My neck also very sour too... But I continue to work I did not give myself a break...
Hate of waiting cab after work... Yup, I waited fucking more than 30 minutes for the cab... I really feeling damn cold like freezing, plus super hungry and thirsty... A little like going fall sick that time... Reached home around 9 plus... Then can have my damn late dinner... And bad is that my gastric pain is like coming to find me again... Damn sianz... But lucky not that pain...
Hope today will be a better day... And also hope my work can at least about 90% completed like that, so that I will feel better when I am on the trip and no need to worry too much on my that work... Going to sleep now... Sweet dream~
Back to work, and this is the first thing I saw on my desk~ Head pain sia...
This is taking up almost my whole day to make it completed...
Sorting in process...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:10 AM
Thursday, December 16, 2010 ❤
16th of Dec... Damn fast... Going back to work later... Super boring... And I doing OT till 8pm if work cannot finish... I am sure my desk will gonna in a mess... So boring... Forget about thinking it... Think more will make me feel more worry...
Yesterday was a last day for exam... Hahaz... But super bad that the exam paper... What the hell... 20 marks theory question pop out... OMFG~ I also did not read the question... Anyhow write rubbish... Argh... Hope the examiner know what I am writing... Maybe I creating my own stories... LOL~ Aiya... Dun care still got about 2 months later getting the result... Wahaha~
After the exam., quickly leave Expo... And off to Bugis to meet girlfriend... Hahaz... Dinner steamboat... Sweating so much when eating because is kinda of very hot there though there is aircon... Eat till very bloated... And I admitted I gain some weight... Oppz... Did not manage to finish the whole food... So no choice.. Giving up before I vomit the whole food out or my stomach explode... LOL~
After that, walked to Bugis Village to get the milktea from Wo Ai Tai Mei... I get the small cup to go home and drink... Girlfriend got the big cup... LOL~ And unbelievable she drinking on the spot... She so full yet still drink... I was kinda of shock... So continue our walking here and there in the village... Waited till she finish that big cup...
Then slowly walked to take bus 7 back clementi... Girlfriend being a joker keep walking around in bus level 2 just because she is too full after drinking the big cup... LOL~ I keep on nagging at her to sit down... Damn paiseh as there is 2 people at that level too... She only sit when I told her I want to video her... Wahaha~
Really had a great day with girlfriend... Hope to meet her soon again when I am back from Hong Kong... Woohoo~ 4 more days to Hong Kong... Mmm... Hope I can really take lot of photos with my another dearest... Wahaha~
Regarding to the matter that happen not long ago, I perfectly alright once again... Know this hurt is kinda of not deep... Had a great cry that day... Thinking over and over... Yup... Is really my fault that I being careless... So I did not blame him either... So this guy dun need to feel sorry to me... I am the one who really need to feel sorry to this guy... Hope this guy and his girlfriend can last long till the day they marry and till old never leave each other... This is my blessing...
Guess I am still waiting for my MR RIGHT to appear... Hope this time is the right and not just foolishing me around... I am really serious... Dun make me hurt again... I promise I not a hongster like other... I dun love to talk with other guys when I am in relationship... I just want this guy feel my 101% love from me... I really serious and no joking... Hope this guy will appear one day~ And I am still waiting...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:53 AM
Wednesday, December 15, 2010 ❤
What a great hurt that I have made for myself... I hope I can laugh out loud when I am crying... I am silly... Not just silly is super damn silly till to the max... Is a laughter... I have fallen in love with someone who in relationship... I really kinda of shock when I suddenly saw something... What the hell am I doing...??
Why I did not check properly first before chatting more with this guy... I feel super hurt right now... I told him to leave me alone because that will only make me better...
Crying in the middle of the night is not so cool... I feel so fucking asshole stupid... I really dun wan to be the third party either... Since I found out first, I better not making my hurt more deeper...
To this guy,
If you are reading this., I am really very SORRY deep in my heart... I should not have told you that I have feeling for you right in the first place today,,, You should have stop me too... But why did not you stop me?? I sorry... I should be blame... I cannot continue to talk to you anymore... I just scared that my feeling for you will get even deeper... I think we should just continue to be just online friend but not real life friend... I am very sorry~ I did not wan to make you and your girlfriend to quarrel in the future... That why I wish to stop you from meeting you in real life first...
I dunno why I got this feeling of sudden in heaven and fall into deep deep hell... I feeling so horrible right now... No mood to do anything... Crying so painful alone... I caused all this all by myself... I am at fault... I AM FUCKING STUPID~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠12:24 AM
Tuesday, December 14, 2010 ❤
14th of Dec... Tomorrow is the day of my final paper for this year... Argh~ Kinda of nervous... Dunno why... Mmm... I did not really study too hard either... Totally no mood to study anymore... All my thinking was like I wan to work for money that all... LOL~ Hate those feeling though I know study come first then work... Someone help me to make me feel that study is more important than work right now... OMG~
Sianz... I dunno what is right and wrong... Simply scared pushing the blame to people and not knowing the whole story first... But who care about it... I dun think is my fault right now... So I will just fucking hack care... And people please dun drag me down the water... Sometime I feel that you better dun appear again because whenever you appear or get near me.., I am the one who is keep causing the trouble... Fuck you la... Why you wan appear again from me...??
Skip the hell topic... I dun wan to talk about it... Ya... People might be asking about my Facebook statue... Asking me who that guy... All I can say I will keeping this sercet... I not telling anyone... Because I dun even know what he will be thinking about you and not even meet me in real life once... Is just Yi Jian Zhong Qing matter... And I only An Lian him... If in future, really together I only can say I will tell everyone at here in my blog or either my facebook... Now is not the right time yet... So must wait... Aiya... So Luan...
Ok liao.. Nothing to post anyway... Signing off now...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:27 PM
Monday, December 13, 2010 ❤
13th of Dec... Is just another day.. I am gonna stay at home later... LOL~ I am a guai kia... Oppz... Time for serious revision... Enough of slacking and going out I guess so... LOL~ Maybe not... I must really control... Mmm...
So what happen yesterday.. Bad day for me.. Feeling a little sad but force myself to smile on my face... Try my best to forget the past and start to move on... So went out to collect my noob glasses... Hee heez... Is nice and I love it...
Then took bus 335 to Jurong East station... Kinda of long... Then took train to Yishun station... I was early... So walked to North Point first and met my one of new online friend... Made him to meet me earlier... Accompanied me to 3pm at Starbuck slack and drink coffee...
At about 2.55pm., walked back to the train station to meet my first customer... LOL~ Feel so great to see my customer.. Hope she like the clothing...
So then went back to walk walk... Walk here and there... Wait for another his friend to come for lunch... So my plan for KOI disappear... But never mind... I am sure I will drink one day... Maybe Tuesday ba.. Hahaz... I might be going out to meet friend for meal again... Hee heez... This time going to Republic Poly... Excited... I gonna have my meal at W4... I want it so badly... So long never eat there...
I was back home about 5 plus in the evening... I guess I too tired either... Fell asleep in bus that I dun even know but lucky I never miss my stop... LOL~
This is my new glasses... Nice bo?? LOL~ I love the glasses a lot... Wearing it almost everytime.. Hahaz...
Heading off to bed now... Sweet dream readers...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:23 AM
Sunday, December 12, 2010 ❤
12th of Dec... WTF the date... I hate the date... But no choice I have to face it... One last time I crying for him... I am sorry for myself for not being strong enough to pull myself over... I am stupid for waiting that maybe one day he will come back to me... How silly I am...
This is all my fault too... I destroy the relationship all by myself... I should be blamed... I am a very bad girl...
Today raining, just right for what I am feeling now... Is the sky is crying for me too?? Everytime I might be feeling something very sad that hurt my heart, the sky might start raining heavily...
One last time I showing this video on here... One last time I am viewing this video... I promise to everyone I will stop thinking about him and the past... I will start to be strong and look forward...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:04 AM
Saturday, December 11, 2010 ❤
11th of Dec.. A boring Saturday... Dunno why I feeling this... Now finding some nice hip hip english songs.. LOL~ It is very rare for me to listen English song... Hee heez...
Yesterday promise myself to study but in the end, I did not study... LOL~ Argh... Why I always like that wan..?? I already in holiday mood... LOL~ Ya ya... I know 9 days to my Hong Kong trip... Kinda of excited... I still not yet pack my stuffs... If when I small, think I have packed finish my stuffs... Hahaz...
Bad new.. One customer cancelled order from me.. But happy new that I have another customer... Hahaz.. Now waiting for her sms to reply me for meetup... Hope that customers dun play with me... I really being really kind that I will appear in any train station that customer requested to me...
Mmm.. Boring Saturday... Thinking going for a run tomorrow morning since today rain cannot go rain... Very sianz right... LOL~ Ya.. Think weight is getting back to normal... Think is 50kg... Every night before sleep I always will did some leg exercise to make my upper thigh looked silm... I think it does make effect... Because my mother said my thigh not looking like last time that fat... Hee heez... Bit of happy but I wan more silm... LOL~
Think that all for today... Short and sweet post... Nothing happen much today either... Going back to do my random stuffs... Bye readers...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠4:42 PM
Friday, December 10, 2010 ❤
10th of Dec... Back to update... Sianz... Today did not do any revision... I am feel super super lazy... Someone please help me to get rid this laziness.. LOL~ Shall not be lazy later... I wan to study... Argh... LOL~
Woke up in the noon... Damn bad... Suppose to wake up in the morning about at 9am... Dunno why I can sleep till noon without hearing my handphone alarm... OMG... I really sleep like a pig... LOL~ So woke up and feeling sight bored... So recorded a song of my singing... Never feel nervous as I only listen to this song for less than 10 times...
Think my feeling is not enough in the song... But nevermind... I still improving... Hope I can sing better in future... Planning next time recording shall be Selina solo song... Kinda of love that song too that time... Shall record it one day when I am free and no one is at home... Wahaha~
Finally tomorrow meeting one of my customer to give the clothes and collect money from her... She is my first customer... Haiz... Business is kinda of bad... Maybe my clothes aren't that attractive... If anyone interested what I am selling, please add me in Facebook by searching "Green Apple Paradise" and add as your facebook friend for more updates... I hope people can buy more stuffs from me... Hee heez...
I guess that all for today... Shall signing off from here...
Enjoy the my verison... I know is kinda of bad... But comments are welcome... Thank you...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠5:24 PM
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10th of Dec... Damn fast... 10 more days to my Hong Kong trip... Kinda of excited over it.. Currently listening to this song 我想我不會愛你 by 田馥甄... Feeling super emo.. LOL~ Yup.. I deeply in love with this song... Simply it really kinda of describing my feeling this period... If you all understand the lyrics, maybe you will know what I am talking about... I simply learning this song... The front part only because I know how to sing the chorus already... Hee heez...
So what happening yesterday... I really did enjoyed myself... Hahaz... I finding myself have not behaving what I am in the past for this period... I dunno why... Behaving like a person that is kinda of from Mental hospital patient.. Hahaz... Argh I dunno what happen to me... Whatever... LOL~
Woke up in the morning, prepared and make-up.. Went out of house about 10 plus in the morning... Then took bus 99 to my god brother's house to slack... Had a cup of Martell with Soft drink... Nice I love it... Hahaz... Did not really gonna drunk... About like 5% drunk... But after 30 minutes I back to normal... Watched some videos on Youtube using his desktop... Then played cards for a little while...
About 1 plus in the afternoon., took bus to Jurong Point... Had Pepper Lunch for our late breakfast and lunch... Yummy... Then after that, walked to Jurong Safari for K box... Wee~ First time singing with god brother.. Kinda of cool... LOL~ I think I am some sort of crazy kid that just can't stop moving... Maybe ba... Sing a quite a lot of songs today... Feeling super great...
Sang till 6 plus evening... Walked back to Jurong Point... Then took bus back home for dinner leaving god brother alone... Kinda of not really use.. I hate leaving someone behind alone.. Dunno why... But no choice.. Kena nag by my mother... Hate that...
Today not going out... Gonna be a good girl.. Staying at home and study... LOL~ Will stay online for the whole day... Hee heez... Think I gonna fat soon... Keep staying at home and sitting on the same spot without moving around... Hahaz... Going to sleep now... Time check 1.39am.. Sweet dream...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:37 AM
Wednesday, December 08, 2010 ❤
8th of Dec... Finally back to update... Suppose wan to update yesterday but because I sightly too lazy and get back home quite late so gonna update today... Had my first paper... LOL~ Is a average paper... Not too much theory but I kinda of mad... Can I say Section B come out 2 questions almost about OAR..?? OMG.. Damn I only say it look simple but when I go and try to do it.. I do in a mess... Somemore cannot use correction tape., my answer sheet is like so messy... A lot of lines LOL~
Yesterday after exam, train-ed to Tampines Mall meet up with girlfriend... Had dinner together... Japanese Ramen.. LOL.. Then after dinner, shopped a little and I bought fake eyes lashes again... Damn I must say I deeply in love in wearing fake eyes lashes..
Next took train to Bugis.. Shopping time again... Wahaha... Bugis village is like a maze... Walked here and there... Bought a dress though I keep on reminding myself to stop buying clothes... -.-".. Lol~ Nv ren jiu shi ai mei... Can't stop spending money... Then went to KOI to buy drink... Waited for 15 minutes to get my milktea... Then took bus back home...
So what happening today..?? Nothing much slacking at home doing nothing just like giving myself an off day after a paper yesterday... Wahaha... Recorded my singing on 3 S.H.E old song at one shot... LOL~ I crazy... Over S.H.E only... I found myself I almost forgot how to sing S.H.E old songs... OMG... But lucky just listen about 2 times I remember again...
Really hope people can comment on my singing... I wan to know what is my problem on my singing... I wan somemore improvement... LOL~
These are the videos that I recorded..
你太誠實 (Original singer by S.H.E)
河濱公園 (Original singer by S.H.E)
夏天的微笑 (Original singer by S.H.E)
Enjoy my singing.. Hee heez.. I know is not perfect.. Signing off now...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠4:50 PM
Tuesday, December 07, 2010 ❤
7th of Dec... Yay.. Back... So fast is 7th of Dec... Later afternoon I going to Singapore Expo for exam... Argh... And the finish time is kinda of late.. How I wish it can be sightly earlier... Haiz...
Today the main picture I used my webcam picture... Because lazy to transfer my photos to this laptop and also lazy to edit... LOL.. So yesterday dye my hair to Milktea Brown... The result out is not as light brown like what other people have... Just like light darker brown I guess... Yup I love my hair colour... I dun really like to have dark colour hair too... Dunno why...
What I did yesterday... So did some little study... And most of my time spent on staring at laptop... WTF am I doing... I also dunno... I am suppose to concentrate on my revision but my eyes just can't stop staring at the laptop and looking at the photos from other friends' facebook and also waiting for people to chat with me in MSN... LOL~
Damn how am I going to pass my exam like this... Now I going to pray to god... Hope the fate will let me pass just by average mark and I will be high over the moon... Hahaz... Hope is true...
Counting down to Hong Kong trip <3 13 days
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠12:24 AM
Sunday, December 05, 2010 ❤
5th of Dec.. Today is a So so day to me.. Nothing much happen... This morning I received quite a number of people sms when I was sleeping.. LOL~ After each person I sms-ed, I went back to sleep because I dunno why I am really overly tired...
So in the afternoon, went to market to make a pair of glasses... I felt I have a need to wear it because I think I cannot see thing too clear either... LOL~ Making my glasses is simply quite long as those 2 customers that those staffs are servicing, asked too many questions and we have to wait so long... Very sianz wan... Why can't they just cut short their questions..?? They always never wan to put themselves in their shoes that others are waiting too...
After that, went to Watson and bought a bottle of dye solution.. Bought the color of MIlKTEA Brown.. Guess my hair will be lighter brown... LOL~ Looking forward for tomorrow of the result after dye-ing the color... Woohoo~
Had a run with dearest in the evening... LOL~ Gym was so expensive... Still say need to buy a towel or else we cannot enter the gym... So no choice... We went to the nearby space to run which is FOC.. LOL~ Think my body is getting weak... I thought I can run quite long... Just started running like for 10 to 15 minutes, I feel the weakness in my heart and I feel dizzy... And sight head pain... After another few distance walk, I feel like vomitting because I coughing damn hard... Controlling myself not to faint too.. No choice force myself to get back home too... A very worst day for running for me... I hate it...
Tomorrow is gonna another day staying at home... Need to put 100% hard on my revision before my exam on this coming Tuesday... Hope it will be a easy paper... All the best to all people who taking exam on this December too... ^^
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:31 PM
Saturday, December 04, 2010 ❤
4th of Dec... I am back to update blog... Now controlling my anger... Because yesterday night a guy just came to kpo and comment something that made me really angry... I know is really kinda of childish of being angry but I really controlling it right now as I dun wan to fight with small kid...
Please click on the photo to make it bigger for reading the comments...
(Please read it before you judge me... Think if you are in my shoes will you feel angry also)
Anyway, thank for some friends to ask me to cool down... I trying hard too... I even ignore that guy already... He wan to make thing big ahead... I will just hack care... Dun wan to fight with small kid... Because I find is really childish... Whatever... I shall skip this topic... Argh...
Anyway, last Thursday went for the company DD... Kinda of fun... But too bad my company is full of aunties or else I will be high over the night... LOL~ They are not as high as I think... But maybe this is my last compamy DD before I quit this job...
I have posted whatever photos I took in the Thursday night in my facebook.. For viewing the photos, you may view at my Facebook photo album even though you are not added as my friends yet because I did not make it as private...
I had this size of 2 beer.. I admitted I got sight drunk... I drank that much because I still feeling upset about my life... I dunno why... But I feel that getting drunk is the most happinest thing... Forgetting about the hurt for a little while though is not a long time...
Yup.. Exam coming in about 3 days time... I not really fully prepare though I still remember the format of all my studies... Hope the exam is a easy paper and please dun beat around the bushes for the answer... Hahaz... Hope everything will be fine for me too... This post is kinda of short too... Anyway, shall update again soon..
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠3:00 PM
Thursday, December 02, 2010 ❤
1st of Dec~ So faster is December... Haiz... Soon I am going to be one year older again... I simply feel time is not really enough for me...
Tomorrow company Dinner and dance at Sentosa... Mmm... I am wearing heels about 5 inch... But that shoes somehow not really in good condition... Hope it will not make me so ugly... Hahz... I will be wearing whole dress black and a bit of skull heads picture on my dress... I love skull head a lot... Hee heez...
Anyway, I and him are friend again... Glad that we can be friend again though we can't be lover again.. So I respect his decision... I do not wan to force him to be my boyfriend... Just let the fate be... I do not wan anyone to break our friendship... Luckily he is quite understandable... Sms-ed him in the early of the morning explained everything what happening in the first place... Then he replied back andeverything was settled... I dunno why my tears just dropped down from my eyes in 3 second like that when reading his sms... I felt sightly touched too.. Maybe is because I know that he still concern me but just that he do not wan to show it to me... Hope that girl dun come and disturb us again and make us quarrel again... She really kinda of busybody...
Shall skip this topic... Friday maybe going godbrother house to drink again and slack also... Hee heez... Great hangout now for me... Since no place to go... Save money too... Hahaz... Got to sleep soon.. Will updating again on tomorrow... Night guys...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:16 AM
