Tuesday, November 30, 2010 ❤
Hey readers~ I am back... I wonder how many people I know is reading my blog... Seriously I really hope to know too... Hee heez... Today was a MC day to me... I today overslept because I am too overly tired... Not the first time I never heard my alarm from my handphone which is so near to me... My mother woke me up but I said I too tired... So I continued to sleep...
At 8 plus in the morning, I received SMS from my manager.. LOL~ I sms-ed her I not feeling well too... As my chest area pain yesterday too... Then continued back to sleep till in the afternoon about 12pm then wake up... Same usual, swicth on my laptop and surf nets...
At 1 plus, went to see doctor... Then Bla bla bla... Then was transfer to Polyclinic... See another doctor for more clearer result... LOL~ Wasted my time to confirm my pain is what... Yaya... Because it is not heart attack and is just a normal cramp... LOL~ What a good reason for that.. Then why do this cramp keep on happen on me so often... Haiz...
Back home, played Audition... Did not study... Haiz... I wasted my whole day dunno doing what... Night, I ordered Pizzahut online for dinner.. Is my treat... Hee heez... Finally ate my baked rice which I have feel like eating it for more than a week...
These are what I have for dinner~ Hee heez... Dun feel hungry after seeing these photos...
Baked rice...
Tomorrow back to work again... A boring day... Anyway, it maybe my last day of work before my holiday start... Woohoo... And 20 more days to Hong Kong trip with dearest and families... Kinda of getting excited as we going to take lot of photos... Woohoo...
This is my lunch for the period in work... I do eat bread before eating these stuffs... A way of mine of diet plan and saving money plan~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:36 PM
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30th of Nov.. Back lor... And is 1 plus midnight... I going to sleep after I have finish this post... So just finish drinking my one can of beer.. And now I feeling super sleepy and my eyes is like closing at anytime... Hahaz...
My favourite beer that I always drink~
So what happen today..?? As usual work... Argh.. Did not have a peaceful life in work... Haiz... I hate it.. I even work till feel like vomit... Dunno why got this feeling... But great.. A lot of tib-bits are given.. And a little small bag is given by my manager... Because they had gone to Hong Kong...
I cried in work again... I dunno why... Why I saw the comments on Facebook, I cried.. I totally feel so breakdown... The tears just come out like tap water... Yet none of the staffs beside me know I am crying... Haiz... Took tissue paper to clean it off from my face... Do not wish to let people see and ask what happen to me.. Worked till 8pm.. Took cab back home because the cab fare can be claim back..
Mmm... Anyway thank all people for the concern once again.. Sorry to make you all worry and those nagging.. Hahaz... But I am happy that at least he deleted that message on the wall between him and her... Know what I talking too... Though we are not friend... I hope he is reading my blog too even though he can't see my facebook wall...
Anyway, Thank sister for being a victim to let me throw out all my unhappiness to her... Hahaz... But anyway must thank her for listening to me either... I LOVE YA~ You the best listener... Hahaz.. Got to sleep now.. Getting more and more tired.. Sweet dream~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:27 AM
Sunday, November 28, 2010 ❤
I updating my blog once again... I dunno why I have the sudden to blog... Really kinda of disappointed and hurt... I dunno why am I feeling this right now... I am suppose have forget you since I break off with you for 2 weeks plus... BUT WHY I STILL CAN'T FORGET YOU??
I suddenly blog this because the girl comment made me hurt a lot though I am nothing from you... I dunno why the first day when I just broke off with you, she added me.. She seem really concern you a lot... Even ask me what happen and stand at your side help you... What is her, who has a boyfriend, to you??
Even all my friends all stand at my side trying to comfort me and happy for me to leave you as soon as possible... They also said I have made the RIGHT choice to leave you... I simply feel that this girl may have a sight feeling for you or else girl will not bother about you even is your friend... They will not even wan to try to step into the case of between the 2 of us...
This few period is really very important to me... I trying really hard as possible to heal myself.. But why I can't?? Telling everyone Ya I alright, please dun worry about me... But right in my heart, when night come, I keep on peeping on your Facebook profile to see any updates on you... I also do worry about you that you might feel sad because I have dump you.. But in the end, I dun think is the way I am thinking..
I have saw some comments you do still really playing that game when you free... As usual concentrating on that game so much... That hurt me a lot... I thought you might know the reason why I dump you... GAMES is all you concern..?? GAMES can give you good future..?? How about you feel when if one day you without the game??
In past, I keep trying hard to encourage you to study dun give up just for our future... But the answer you give me totally break my heart., and one day by another my love do fate or you... Because you seem doesn't care about future... I know is easy to talk but why dun you show your own action??
Been chat with your friends a while, realised more on your attitude in the past and now... You seem did not change at all... Asking you to study is not threatern you at all or giving you stress, is really for your own good... I also do not love to study but in the end., I still choose to study... I even force myself and blame myself when I not getting a good result and make my future life gonna be a failure...
I even suffer myself by skipping my own lunch and save up more money for our future in the past... But why you still never really feel it??
I know you have your own feeling and thinking... No one will really STOP you from doing anything... Even what I say to you in the past is also a mean of threaten to you either... But I only hope in future you will find a girlfriend who really can understand what your reason of being lazy and able to take care of the family with you.. I myself can't continue the journey with you any longer.. I really kinda of tired and stress after thinking the future with you... All the BEST... Hope after the cry, I will get better~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:12 PM
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28th of Nov... Average day I had.. Hee heez... Kinda of happy and disappointment too... Today early in the morning woke up early at about 7 plus... Faster prepare and make up, rushed to City Hall to meet the him who helping me to take photograph... I am late because dunno why the bus come quite late...
So he is super active person and really straightforward person... Mmm... Quite fun to hang with him... Never feel bored though I am those people who dun talk much... LOL~
Took about 30 plus photos and suddenly hhe received phonecall which made his face turn a bit not right... So no choice cancelled the photoshooting because of that phonecall too... But I am really happy that at least I got about 30 plus over photos and I did not really pay for anything... I am lucky either... Hee heez...
Packed stuffs and walked back to train station... I took train to Jurong East MRT and to the Fairprice there and bought some stuffs... Then took bus back home...
Nothing much thing to happen today... I am going for my revision really soon... Next week is the day of having my First paper... And I hope the information can automatic go into my brain... Hahaz... I will posted some photos from the photoshooting at here... These photos are not editted... More others will be in my Facebook there... Signing off~
These 2 photos below are editted by him~ Thank you for the shoot...
These photos are nice... BAD is I have admitted that I am really FAT~ Gain so much weight yet not easily to silm down~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠3:18 PM
Saturday, November 27, 2010 ❤
27th of Nov... A great day to hangout with dearest... Hee heez... Woke up early in the morning about 7 plus... Was quite late... Then faster prepared everything include make-up... Father drive me to the clinic for injection... Injection sianz... I am the LAST to inject.. Kinda of scared the needle poke into my skin that feeling... Dunno why...
After that, father drive me to dearest's house... Called her... LOL~ She was still sleeping, so went up her house to sit... Then slack a little... Until about 9 plus, took bus 502 to Somerset, Cine.. Bought the movie tickets and off for breakfast first...
Took some photos too.. Hahaz... Did not take that much... Then shopped around at the Orchard area till 12 plus noon... Slowly walked back to Cine... Bought a drink to share... Because I did not drink too much... Watched the movie of HARRY POTTER.. First time watching that movie... Storyline was OK~ Because it is gonna continued... Hahaz... Movie is about 2 hours plus...
After movie, shopped again... Bought a pair of glasses... Wee~ It is to use for my trip or sometimes for other purposes... Hee heez... Walked and shopped till 5 plus evening... Decided to go to my house for dinner... Took train back home... Then chit chat in my house till 8 plus.. Quickly had dinner and off she went home as parents driving back...
Today dressing is sightly Japanese school wearing style... This is my style... Hee heez...
Tomorrow is the day I have been waiting for... A photoshoot asked from a photographer... Kinda of excited... As this is my 3rd time of getting the natural photoshoot... I love to being model for natural shoot.. Dunno why... Hope tomorrow can have fun in shooting... Hee hee... Night guys...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:54 PM
Friday, November 26, 2010 ❤
26th of Nov... I back to blog... Hee heez... Kinda of feeling happy... Dunno why... Yup super ultra looking forward for this weekend... Woohoo.. It is a very meaningful weekend to me.. I guess so... Actually in work, I have typed out a entry for yesterday... But after so much of thinking., I decided not to post... As forgive and forget the matter... The entry that I wan to post is more about the matter of me pissing off...
So this coming Saturday which is TOMORROW, will be going out with dearest... LOL~ Accompany her to watch Harry Potter... I wonder how it will be like as I do not like Harry Potter... So but in the morning, I will going for injection too... As I am going to Hong Kong less than a month, for any health safety, is good to be injected by some medical in the body for protection... I have no choice to do as now Hong Kong is having one diease... Haiz... Damn troublesome...
And this coming Sunday is kinda of sercet to everyone... I will be blogging what is going to be happen on Sunday night time when I am free...
Later have to go working again~ Super boring... And I supposed to plan to sleep early today... But I still dragging on the time and now the time is 1.54am... Damn my target sleeping time today suppose to be 12 plus midnight... Because I am damn tiring today... Haiz... Now then realize I only left with 4 hours to sleep... Ok~ I shall stop and get to bed now... Sweet dream~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:54 AM
Thursday, November 25, 2010 ❤
24th of Nov.. What a tiring day for me... Mmm... Anyway, I may say today is another a little piss off day from work, just because a customer which I dun wish to mention what happened... As I already dun wan to continue to be angry too...
Something happening in my life... I can say I never had a good life ever since I broke off with my ex boyfriend... I dunno what really went wrong... From after surviving a week without a boyfriend by my side, I seem to use to single life and I do really feel more relax which I no need everytime have to go out for dates... I enjoy making new friends too... I love it..
BUT the only things which made my life turn a bit is that some guys know that I am single and think that is a chance to woo me... Hahaz... I will not that dumb to fall into the trap as I feel that is enough for me for the relationship and I need a good rest from that... Guys totally making hurt by themselves but not me... Asking me did I miss him or whatever...
Comeon, you guys should know that I just like broke off with a guy not long and there you all come and ask me this... And you all will know what is the result from me... Ended up, I blow up my anger quarrelling with those guys and one by one get hurt from me or either do not wan to contact me.. Is this what you all wan from me??
Why dun you all just give me a break? I hate relationship right now... And is a good time now for me to try to think what I wan and what type of guys I should go for until I have made up my mind that will not be too late... Haiz... Dunno why some guys are so hunger for relationship?? Or is it friends around you all have a partner accompany them that why you also feel like wan to have one too?? That ain't cool at all... But they did not know what will it feel like when the relationship end... It is totally so hurt and maybe might feel regret of choosing the wrong person for the relationship...
Guys who are reading my blog, please do think what I have say before you really wan to woo someone that you love... Do not make a relationship turn out a regret case... Do consider future planning if you do wan to have a last long relationship with the girl... This is the most important thing to have...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠12:04 AM
Tuesday, November 23, 2010 ❤
23rd of Nov.. Back for blogging... Hee heez... Enjoying Single life as usual... Single life is mean to more FREE time for me... I just started to be in love to be single... Ya, I dun depend on guys... I no longer will easily fall in love with guys so easily... Haha.. Because I finally understand something for future... I learnt a lot of things from all the past relationship... Thank for all the ex-boyfriends who dump me or either I dump them.. The lessons I learnt are really important to me..
Anyway.., Today is just n usual day what I have been doing... Went to work the same timing and back home after work... Did not go anywhere too because I am feeling tiring after work.. Today is the day that I feel the most tiring...
I have never been so deep deep sleep before in bus during the journey to work or back home... I even had dream when I was sleeping though is just a short period... But guess I still waiting for weekend to come so I can have more sleep.. Refilling my energy... Hee heez...
Anyway, exam coming in less than a month... Haiz... I trying my best to remember as much points as possible by recalling what teacher has teach... I really feel so boring about doing those questions in the book as I have do quite a number of time yet I still must look at the answer... Kinda of sick of it...
Woohoo~ For the FIRST time.. 15 viewers in my blog... Never expected that much people reading my blog... Hee heez...
Mmm... Looking forward for next year... Brand new year which I am going to start my online business... Hope girls do love my stuffs as I really have put in effort to find a most suitable supplier and the best quality... Best of luck for my online business... And off I go now to do some research on my supplier and maybe later revision for a while... Peace out~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠9:50 PM
Monday, November 22, 2010 ❤
22nd of Nov... Totally a piss off day... Argh... Thank to him... Suppose is a happy day to me but he spolit my mood and my day...
Yesterday I did quarrelled with him through MSN... I dunno why I can be so mad... And this is my first time that I am super very angry till I really feel like kill him... But I controlled all my bad words or else people will say me I ah lian~
After the online quarrel, I tried not to sms him... But he kept on asking me for forgivness... Told him once hurt being out of his mouth and is hard to be forgive... Told him I will cancel the date with him but in the end, because just dun wan this matter to affect the friendship...
And today afternoon, took halfday leave as nothing much to do, took train from Novena all the way to Hougang... Told him to meet at station.. But in the end, he LATE~ I sms him, I will walked alone to there... Halfway through I felt I lost.. SMS him where to meet then he say about how long he will arrive...
I controlled my temper again.. Calling him as he replied my sms really slow... So I went to the nearest mall to wait for him... Shopped from Basement 1 to Level 4 and repeated every level again till he arrived... I bought some hair thingy... Waited for him about 45min.. But he said that he will be 10min to meet me... Haiz... I hate guys to be late on a date...
So I just control my anger... Continue to go have lunch at Pepper Lunch... The way he ordered just the cashier so confusing... I also feel sight piss... If I am the cashier, I will not service this customer too... So I dun care, continue to have my lunch... I dun even wan to look at his face, because it just make my anger gonna blow up at anytime...
After lunch, I just wan to walk off to continue the next events.. But he just pull me back to the seat... Eee... I dun like guy anyhow touch my hand... I control my temper again... I told him the reason why I dun sit too long after the lunch...
Then we just walked... One very bad thing about him, leaving a girl behind and walked quite fast.. I dun think other guys will treat their friends who are girls like that... So he just put his hand on my shoulder like what boyfriend did to their girlfriend... I made his hand off my shoulder... I told him dun do that to me I not use to it... And this is my FIRST warning to him before my anger blow up...
So walked to Hougang plaza... There he goes again... Pulling my bag and slowing me down... Man... I can't slow down as that was my walking speed... Another thing that my anger gonna blow is that I hate people pull my bag... If my bag suddenly spolit in the middle of the road, all my stuffs will just fly all over the place...
Reached that place into K box... Damn regret of entering that outlet... Totally sux... I hate the TV and everything... In the end, I was the one who been singing... Told him to choose some songs... But he just like never wan to choose... I ask why... He say all chinese and dunno how to choose.. Haiz... He was born chinese yet dunno chinese won't he feel pai seh mah?? So I suddenly cannot take it... I started to give attitude too... Since he the one who wan to continue the plan of the date, so he really must be active in the date too...
Sang about 1 hour... Called for bill from the staffs and finished my cup of drinks... I suddenly really blow up of my anger is that he keep on holding my hand till really pain... He even did not say SORRY when I let go hardly... Because is damn hurting my hand... In end, what I get from him is he keep on asking me can dun be rough to him??
Can anyone who are girls tell me how you all will do or feel if you all are in my shoes..???
So, I left the room... I walked damn fast... I just dun wan to walk with him... I feel like scolding bad words toward him at anytime... So rushed to toilet until he lost me... Then quickly rush to bus interchange to take bus back to Jurong East...
On the bus journey for about 10 min.., keep on quarrelling with him again... I hate his attitude... Because from the way I got from him is like too Over Mummy boy... Like very Chi Bu Qi Ku those people... One more he do have sight stubborn feel... This is what I feel though I admit I also do stubborn but I already control my stubborness and not to anyhow throw temper to people....
Another thing I dun like about him is he really can't made decision... Why am I stating in Facebook that we came from different world is that because I do feel there is a comething like culture difference between us... I do like Japanese, Korean or either Chinese stuffs no matter is songs or others... But he like something Ang Mo stuffs which I find it boring... Mmm... Is good that to have a friend with the same interest... If it is different interest, this will lead the result that happen on me right now...
Coming to the topic of can't making decision is that I suggested to have lunch at Taka Orchard but he said was crowded and he dun like crowded place... So I respect his decision... I said how about Vivo then... He told me again, he not really like town area... Then I asked him where he wan, then he told me somewhere north area... So I suggested a place which is really far from me and nearer to him...
In the end, he said Vivo then... OMG... I thought he is the one who dun like town area... But why he chose Vivo..?? I wanted to choose Orchard is because I wanted so badly to go to the bookshop over there... But in the end, I respect his decision...
But overall, I will no longer be friend with this guy anymore... I do feel that I will quarrel with him again if we continue to be friends... I am not that Ang Mo style people like him... I am proud to be asian~ Hee heez... Signing off... Peace OUT~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:06 PM
Friday, November 19, 2010 ❤
19th of Nov... Great day I had yesterday... A great day to forget my past for a while... So what happen yesterday?? And it goes like this....
Woke up as usual 5 plus in the morning... Bath, makeup... This time makeup put on my fake purple eyes lash... Hee heez... I wonder is there red fake eye lash too.. Feel like buying one if got... It is really nice... Off work and then do the usual things that I always do...
I always love the time of been finish work... It feel great and is time for DATING~ Hahaz... Love it.. Today going out with a new online friend, Tony... Hee heez... Ask him to meet at Toa Payoh.. End up use 30 minutes to find him there... LOL~ Firstly is kinda of feeling piss off but after that I do not feel piss off anymore..
Walked Toa Payoh a while can't decide what to eat... Because nothing much there either... So took train and decided to eat at Orchard area... Ate something that I never ate there before... Is pretty cool... The food is above average nice...
This is what I eat for dinner... Got milk and is baked... LOL~
After dinner, walked a little... I and him dun feel like stranger anyway, because have been chatting through MSN the day before... Kinda of feeling great with able to chat with him always... Then just random sit at a park... And chit chat again... About 9 plus, then went back home... Nothing much happen as usual... But is glad to know one more friend in real life..
This is the FREE silce of cake given by dunno who.. Everyone in the office had a piece... Different people has different flavour... I chosen the CHOCOLATE... Is my favourite flavour...
The drink for my lunch... Did not buy Milo... Bought Milktea instead.. Considering next time gonna buy Milk coffee...
To people who have been concerning me., Look at the cuts on my hands in the photo... It is disappearing soon... No worry to me... I recovering damn fast...
Shall updated again in the night... Think will be sightly longer entry... Today is kinda of summary.. LOL~ Sweet dream people...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠2:04 AM
Wednesday, November 17, 2010 ❤
17th of Nov... Is about 6 days after breaking off with boyfriend... Hurt is only heal a little not much... Is sad that this "Boyfriend" did not bother about me anymore once broke off.. Even a concern also did not wan to give... I really feel that I have chosen the wrong person to be my boyfriend... I hate myself for repeating the mistakes again and again..
2 days ago, I cut my hand with pen knife.. I know is silly to do that... But when I try to find someone to talk with... Everyone was kinda of busy with their things... I was just sitting all alone... Blame myself again and again... All the fault came from me which will result me to become this way.. Without control, I took out the pen knife to cut myself as for punishment and also made myself to wake up... I did not cut that deep... I am sorry that I did that again since about last year...
But now., the cuts are recovering damn fast.. Just that my left hand did not have much strength to carry heavy stuffs... Guess it really affect my left hand... About 1 more week, the cut will be fully recover...
Anyway, I shall thank to all my friends who really bother for me after I uploaded the photos of my cut on hand... Is realy quite touching that at least I know there are really do people care for me... At first, I do not really think much as before I cut, I wonder how many people will kinda of concern me if I am hurt... Can I say I am lucky to have you all guys not letting me behind??
This few days I have been going out with some friends... I enjoyed the time with them... I even try to be active and not to think too much... But whenever I am alone, I do drop my tear without any control... I do need someone who really can come forward to me, putting my head on the person's shoulder and hug me and told me that everything will be fine because you have me by your side... I know this type of suitation will not happen in real life..
I really kinda to start fall in love with Single life... However, I can enjoy the life of being woo by guys sometimes though they have no action... If they have action showing me, I might really feel happy.. Guys who love me, is a MUST to accept who I am... I do not easily change unless there is a reason...
Anyway, I shall look forward to the life that I will be having in future... I will not really bother about the past or even care about it... Thank everyone for the concern... I really LOVE YOU all guys...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:56 AM
Saturday, November 13, 2010 ❤
13th of Nov... Is Saturday... A lonely day... Haiz.. I dunno why my life suddenly turn to hell... I really dunno what happen... In a day, I maybe lost another friend.. Though I know this friend is kinda of in love with me... But I only talk to him regarding in friend topic... I even try to stop him to fall in love with me... But I guess I yesterday sms him a message not to in love with me and till now he did not reply me anything... Guess he has give up on me (Is a good thing) But bad thing is that I lost a friend who I know him for so many years... Like that totally make me feel so super hurt and sad...
I dunno why gods will like to play on me... Why can't I have more friends..?? Why do guys must sms me when is kinda of relationship those type...?? I hate my life totally... I really hope one day I might leave this world so I no need to worry about anything... Why my life is so mess up??
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠5:54 PM
Friday, November 12, 2010 ❤
12th of Nov... Hahaz~ I back to update~ Guess what I am SINGLE~ Single mean a lot of things to me... Reason of breaking I will not tell anyone anymore.. Sick and tired keep repeating the story again and again... Past is past please hack care the reason.. But only people who are cloest to me can know...
To survive in this world, I guess I muct really work hard not in work but also most important is the education... Without education, you will know how badly you will suffer from this world... The tax and other pricing of things keep on rising and rising till I really kinda of get a breathe... Every month, I feel that my pocket or bank is in a BIG hole...
Anyway, what happen today.. Having a great day with my brother and girlfriend... Woke up as usual time... 6 plus.. Getting everything ready and head off to my god brother's house... LOL~ Disturb him at the really early morning hour from his sleep... He let me played his computer while he played his PSP... Great he serve me... Helping me to pour and mix the alcohol and also cheese cake for breakfast.. Hee heez... Great service or I shall say I really proud to have a GREAT god brother instead...
Martin with 7-up... Heehee~
(PS: Martin taste much better than Vodka)
He chatted with me lot of stuffs... Know that he wan to help me but just let the things be natural... I really dun wan to have any quarrel or unhappiness again... If those people got fate with me, I am sure we will talk again in future when time comes...
Anyway, I do also drank vodka first then Martin which is introduce by god brother... I admit I was sightly drunk but I totally know what I am doing.. When I drunk, I will show a really tired face and I will talk kinda of straightforward with thinking... People might think that I am really crazy... But sometimes getting drunk I really can't control...
After about few hours of drinking, I am back to normal... So started to play with god brother's sun glasses... LOL~ Is super expensive... And he willing to lend me to play... Hahaz...
That was the sun glasses that I wearing... Hee heez...
I also wan to buy a pair of sun glasses that is cheap and big lens those type... I think is kinda of beautiful and style... Hahz...
At about 1 plus, walked to Jurong Point for lunch with him... He treated me... Chit chat again... Look at chio bu to see which wan is he interested too... Hahaz...
After lunch, he accompanied me to MRT station and he went off... While I continue my journey to Woodlands RP to meet girlfriend... I reach there quite early... Then stand outside her class wait for her to finish class and everything... Set at her class a few minutes... Then accompanied her down to W1 for a mini checkup...
After that, walked together to MRT station and took train to Jurong East station IMM for a little shopping... I bought something at Face Shop... Hee heez... Spent my money again... Haiz... Without control because some promotion... Damn being attracted...
Then shopped at Daiso... One round me and her bought one item each again... Hahaz... I bought a bottle of drink which I wish to try on it.. After shop till 6 plus in the evening, took bus home... HOME SWEET HOME...
Know what.. Tomorrow is Saturday... Damn boring... So fast will be Sunday then back to work... Soon exam coming... Argh I hate it... Time is passing so damn hell fast... It is damn scary... Soon I will getting old... OMG~ I really can't think of that...
Anyway, I guess when time go by.. I am sure I will able to meet a great guy... Maybe shall let the fate to decide... I only being saddness for a day and I have learn to look forward from today onward... Thank for everyone concern once again... I LOVE YOU ALL~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:46 PM
Sunday, November 07, 2010 ❤
7th of Nov... Back to update for ater so long... Being so lazy from study too... No more interest to study... But I have been forcing myself... When I have study for about 1 hour.., my head always start to have a really bad head pain which make me feel like kill myself... I hate the pain... But I have no way to cure that pain... Haiz...
I also being lazy in work.. Hahaz... No interest too... Hard to find friends either... I have been MIA from work also... Somehow I dun feel any trust in work... Because there are too much of backstabbers in work and I am referring to those aunties... Is good not to share too much of my own personal stuffs to them... Because they might keep on spreading to others when you are not right there...
Example, I told one aunty from my dept that I gonna resign... Next week, I was been asked by other dept of the auntie that is it true that I gonna resign... Wah~ The new spread damn fast... I was really quite surprise... But I was not really unhappy...
Anyway, I do hate the lie from my manager... I super unhappy that I have change my seat... Because the seat is in the corner of the back and far away from my dept... While others can sit together... My manager told me it was only a temporary seat for me... But after so long, I dun seem it was a temporary seat to me... It just like telling me "FASTER resign.. I dun need you in my dept.." Somehow, I did hate a lot the staff that change seat with me.. That staff seem to have some attitude problem... She talked to me as like she is like a senior to me...
When she need help, then she will talked in a nice tune way to me... WTF... *Pui* 2 sided face auntie... Still wear like you are 20 years old plus... Please la.. Face the fact.. You are already 40 years old plus still acted like you are 20 years old plus girl... GROW UP AUNTIE~!!
Looking forward to next year March... Hope I can filfill my wish that I am resigning... I wish to look for a higher pay job and better people to work with... I dun wish to work with aunties anymore... I do have super enough... Hate to work with aunties.. Whenever work with them., I will never have some peace from my ears.., they will always talk so loudly from the start of the work till the end of the day of the work... OMG~
Yesterday, I can say I have a "BAD" dream to me.. But I like it... Though is a short dream.. But it make me feel so sweet... Is some kinda of someone coming back to me for a revenage.. I love that... Some kinda of that when I was small, I accidently injuried a person (The dream did not tell me what sex was that)...
One day, I went back to that house... The house was filled with lot of stairs... That person came back to me for a revenage... I accepted the revenge... I hit my head a lot of times at the wooden stair handle.. However, I did not faint off... I just went sightly dizzy and could not stand up properly... I was happy that there is a guy came forward to help me.. Scold that person off and carried me out of the house... What happen next I also dunno?? Because I have woke up... Hahaz... Little sweet dream..
Ok~ About one more month to my exam... Not really nervous.. Dunno why... I just gonna try my best because depend on my luck as the questions are different from past year... I am going to my revision now... So Signing off now... Peace out~
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