Wednesday, January 30, 2008 ❤
Ooo... 30th of January... Yay... Really happy that what happen to me today... Firstly, I wan to say that HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY to Yu Ting Jie... Hee heezz... Stay PRETTY and cool forever... Love you...
Today Science... Gosh.. It is the subject that I have not study in the past... I pon because I dunno why... Not in the mood to study... Second break pon... Wait for Jing Hong to meet me.. Quite long... Then met her at about 12 plus... Then she brought me to the park there...
At first.., I dun get it strange... Jus feeling normal.. Went to the park met Jing Hong's friend, Jackline, then Ruff and Aidil... Then thought jus chit chattin around... Suddenly, I jus feel something at the bad of the wall...
When I jus like peekin the back of the wall, I saw Youngly and Tim were busyin lightin up the candles of a birthday cake... I was like "HUH!!" Suddenly, they put the cake on the table and lighted up jus one candle.. Sang a birthday song to me... I was still like dreamin... Friends helpin me celebrate my birthday... DAMN BIRTHDAY CAKE SOMEMORE... I never have it in my life before... Gosh...
Lolzz... Love the cake... Although the guys have made a mistake thought that I am still 18 years old... Hee heezz... I am 19 already FRIENDs..>.<
My mind was like "Did you guys make a mistake?? My birthday cake??"... Anyway, I wan to thank these friends really makin me surprise of the birthday cake... They are Tim, Aidil, Ruff, Jing Hong, Youngly and Jackline... Hahazz.. Thank a million... Hee heezz... Ruff did not eat the cake because he had to go back his class to do work... Then after eatin finish the cake., Aidil, Youngly and Tim also had to go back to class for work...
27 DRESSES was quite funny and nice... Storyline of the movie not bad.. Worth to watch it.. After movie at about 5 plus..., went around at the rooftop then down to level 2.. Because I need to do my RJ and others... Set there for about 20min to finish it... Then shop around... Bought a EYELINER at the FACE SHOP...
6.42pm... Rushed back to cinema there... THE HOUSE... GOSH... I love how the movie being show... I love the storyline... Jing Hong was like covering her face with her laptop all the times... Hahazz... She jus listen to the sound... I was really concentrating in watchin the movie... The best is that all the actors and actresses in the show are damn HANDSOME & PRETTY too... Guess that they are new actors and actresses...
An aunty bought some stuffs and received this Pokercard.. That aunty gave us and Jing Hong took it... And I dun really like Jay...
Let organize another movie session again after Chinese New Year... This time shall ask the guys out too.. Yay... Can't wait to go out with my buddies again... Miss you all... And Lastly that I wan to add that thank for makin my day so wonderful today and I am really happy and enjoy the moment with you all... I love you all...
I love her... Lolz... She is my idol... TWINS...
This alien is really damn cute in CJ7... Goin to watch this movie after Chinese New Year...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:59 PM
Tuesday, January 29, 2008 ❤
29th of January... Last week of school... I must hang on... Wee~~ Finally have been waitin for this time since the second week of Sementer 2 of the school... I also find it quite difficult to communicate with this sementer class... Dunno Maybe their attitude are really different from the friends that I have in Sementer 1... Totally different..
Today I think I have woke up the wrong side... Damn My neck is really pain like hell... I cannot rotate my neck easily... ARGH... Very unlucky... Suppose plan not to come to school because of this but promise people for meetin in the break, so I have to force myself to come...
My life I think is gettin smooth.. Because I now have get rid the LOVE feein for my ex.. Now I have no feelin toward her... As I have have through all the past... I have learnt what the mistakes that really happen to us... I will not be so careless to fall in love with this type of people again...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠8:31 AM
Monday, January 28, 2008 ❤
28th of January... Mmm... Yesterday busy workin for the whole day.. Workin goin quite smooth.... Worked Lot 1 in the morning and Juring Point in the afternoon until night... Back to home yet cannot easily slept...
Yesterday morning, went to Lot 1... Thought only worked with my best friend but I was not... Still got one more people who is my ex... She was workin there too... Kept herself busy again... Wrapin the fridge clean... Haiz... Old style... This attitude show that she was quite not happy... Whatever... So jus let her be...
I went in the outlet and she finally stop the cleanin... Then she went off to see doctor... Left me and my friend... Busy chattin about different attitude between Choa Chu Kang and Jurong there while also workin... Hee heezz...
My ex suddenly came back to the outlet and she thought that we will sayin bad thing about her behind her... Yaya... We said we did not... Hahazz... She came back to call the cab.. Then went out again...
Hate yesterday DRIVER... His attitude damn bad... Put all the stuffs on the floor already then walked away... Left me countin the stocks... My friend help to check the cakes... I felt like scoldin bad words to him... HELL... Whatever... Jus got to control my temper...
I put all the pastries and cold slices in and cakes into the fridge... And my friend jus arrangin the stocks nicely and also the CYN stuffs... At about 12 something, ex came back from seein the doctor... Then she started to aim me again... Like tryin to make me angry and sayin about some funny stuffs to me... Whatever...
When reached 2 plus.., Off I went to Jurong Point to work... At Jurong Point quite no free time... Busy servin customers.. Then went to slack for a while by goin to MosBunger at Level 1 to buy a huge cup of drink... Hee heezz...
Finally waited until 10.30pm, 2 of my friends went off first and I waited for my friend for another 5 minute... Talked lot of stuffs about the time of workin in different places.. Then off we went to take bus back home...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠8:25 AM
Friday, January 25, 2008 ❤
Mmm... Today my throat really feel a bit not so well... Dunno why... Sometimes cough like mad... Sometimes cannot speak clear... Haiz... Jus wish that this throat can faster recover that all...
New Year comin soon... Maybe goin to Malaysia with my mother, cousin and her husband... Dun really like to celebrate my Chinese New Year in Singapore... Planning in process now... Maybe shall take more OFF day from work to go Malaysia...
2 more weeks towards my 19th BIRTHDAY... My very 1st wish maybe shall find a my only FOREVER PRINCE... I really hope that he can appear really soon...
Gosh... Today really dunno what to type... My entry is damn rubbish like that... Shall see if there is any interesting event goin on tomorrow... DAMN tomorrow morning need to go to Orchard there.. To give something DISGUSTING to the clinic... It is really important for the COMPANY... Eeee...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠9:54 PM
Thursday, January 24, 2008 ❤
24th of January... Did not go to school and also skip my last UT... Damn... I have been sleepin for 13 hours and finally get back all my energy for my life... Wee... Love it... Mmm... Suppose plan today wan to go school but I have no strength to go to school because I always fall asleep when I am goin to school...
Mother thought that I am sick... Hahazz... I jus lazy... Luckily, today is Enterprise UT... Mmm.. I think I can pass without the UT... I also quite happy with the Faci that gave me the grade.. Because last week I pon at 2nd break... And I did my RJ and everything.. He gave me a B... Yay... His comment to me was INTERESTING RJ...
Today goin to watch as many videos as I can... I have download damn load of videos and also no time to watch in the past... Jus now I watched that Hei Se Hui Mei Mei... Damn love their dancin so much...
Gui Gui dance so SEXY... She really improve a lot... And Ya Tou her clothin I love it... So style... I wish to learn Ya Tou's dance, FREESTYLE... Tang Guo dance Hip hop and Sexy... This was her first time to dance this type of style... JIA YOU Tang Guo...
Finally, I have transferred some photos from my handphone... I took one photo of my injuried finger...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠3:34 PM
Wednesday, January 23, 2008 ❤
23th of January 11.45pm... Friends I really wan to thank you all... I really feel much little better... At least my love problem has been solved... I wan to thank you all for tryin hard in cheerin me up... I shall name them here...
(1)Lee Ling(Meimei)
(2)Jing Hong(My buddy)
(3)Wen Xiang(Online friend)
(4)Mei Yi(Workin friend)
(5)Joy(Secondary school friend)
Did I miss out anyone above..?? If yes, please do tell me... Thank for those friends that I have listed their names for givin me advices and also willin to lend a shoulder or listenin ears when I am really damn DOWN... I love you all...
Now left with 5 problems unsolved... I think my health is really bad... Sensitive skins still cannot get lost... My middle finger injuried hole become more and more bigger... I really dun wan to affect my other health skin... O man... What can I really do to STOP the itchiness.?? Really cannot think of am idea...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:43 PM
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23th of January... I am still feelin DOWN... Shall say is that nobody can really do success in cheerin me up... Now life is gettin TOUGH... I cry easily without control... Feelin that one day I will go CRAZY... I really cannot think that how I will be in future... Sixth sense is like tellin me that I will not live for too long... Maybe I will die before 30...
I think it will be possible... Because sometimes I dunno why suddenly I feelin like faintin... The time when I feel like faintin is when I am busy workin without rest...
Now I am tryin hard to forget her... I think I can make it... Because now I really have lost my love feelin... Whenever I saw the guy that is the style I love, I do not feel any like wan to be know more than friends those kind... I also do not have any feelin toward any guys at all neither the TOMBOYs who are girls too...
I feelin in my life is that I am in the middle of the road and I am seriouly injuried... No one like come forward to help me... They jus walk past me without takin a look back at me... This feelin is really damn bad... I jus dunno why am I born in this way... I jus wish that I can have a BETTER life...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠12:06 AM
Tuesday, January 22, 2008 ❤
22th of January... Time really flyin fast... Goin February soon.. I am totally not in very good mood yesterday... Jus dunno why... Maybe facin too much of problems from many people and places....
First problem is that my love life... I know I am a silly girl... Because although my ex have really rejected my request of patchin back.. But I feelin that I might not forgivin up so easy... As I love her damn much... I know that she is not good to me but jus dunno why I still love her damn much... And now I am tryin damn hard to FORGET about the feelin toward her...
Second problem is that my family problem... I really have difficult to communicate well with them... Everytime have to quarrel over a small matter... And I am damn TIRED to be in the house... And I jus dun wan to see them when I reach home... Therefore, I often treat my home as a hotel...
Third problem is about my school daily grade... I really feel that my english is damn SUX... I feel so outcast when I am in a group... Because my thinkin is damn slow and I also cannot give a really good idea to my team... I jus feel so disappointed to myself... That why I always pon when I am really too quiet toward my team...
Forth is my friendship problem... Dunno must blame myself or not... Because when I never talk to them too long or show some unhappy face to them.., they might not come forward to me to talk to me... I simply dunno why... I show unhappy face jus because I am damn unhappy with my personal things and I really need someone who can able to cheer me up...
Actually., to maintain a friendship with people in Republic poly is damn difficult because they can easily outcast me... As my character is damn WIRED toward others... That why I am damn TIRED to hold on the friendship... I will rather GIVE UP so that there will less problems to face...
Fifth is that work... Work really contribute quite much of stress to my life... Because I have to in charge of the cashier sometimes... I cannot give wrong change money to my customers... I know that some customers are really dishonest... When give extra money, they really dun give back... They jus took the change and walked away... When we call EXCUSE ME quite loud, they walked damn FASTLY as they could... DISHONEST PEOPLE...
Somemore, when really short of staffs... I have to work in weekday too after school... And when holiday come, I have to work 6 days in a week and maybe for special festival, I have to work more than 10 hours... It is really damn TIRING... Somemore, I have to face all different types of bad attitudes of the customers... I have to force myself to smile and say SORRY if I have done wrong thing.. The customers jus scold us right in front of our faces...
Yesterday, I really cannot take my stresses... That why when my godsister called me what happened and tryin to give me advices... I cannot hold back my tears... I cry right in front of my class... This is the SECOND time I have done... I jus cannot accept the fact that the people around me are COLD-BLOODED... Never actually concern my feelin... At least, my buddy set beside me asked me wat happened...
I quickly walked to the toilet alone and wrapped my tears... I told myself that I must be STRONG and must smile to others no matter how stressful or how much problems that I must faced... Actually, I am glad that Kaye asked me why am I sad... At least, I know that someone did concern their friends... Thank KAYE... I dun wan to let people know that I am sad that why I kept shakin my head said NO mean I am alright...
Jus hope that I can faster get rid of these PROBLEMS soon... Still really lookin someone who can really brighten up my life... I really hope that he will appear before my birthday or before Valentime day... IF POSSIBLE...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠12:12 AM
Thursday, January 17, 2008 ❤
17th of January... My ex and I did not patch back... Now my mood is quite disappointed... Actually, I really hope that we can patch back because she really has brightened up my life which all other guys do not really success...
Her answer back to me is that I better find someone who is better and she only know how to make me sad... My mind totally went blank and empty... Felt like cryin like that...
This was my very FIRST time to ask people to be my boyfriend and in the end, it did not success... I really dunno what to do... I thought she will accept and in the end, I was really WRONG...
In future, I think I will try not to bother her anymore if wan me to give up totally... I really need a boyfriend to get rid all the thinkin about her... If now I remain SINGLE, my mind kept thinkin about her... What am I goin to do??
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:49 AM
Wednesday, January 16, 2008 ❤
16th of January... Did not go to school.. Because dun feel like it... So stayed at home to sleep until 11 plus morning and woke up... Now my eyes are like jus woke up like that... A little tired... Dunno why...
Yesterday was a quite horrible day for me... Rain at the Woodland DAMN HEAVY... The rain did changed my mood too.. I became more EMO and brain kept thinkin of unhappiness stuffs... I jus simply feel like cryin...
I walked in the rain... And made myself like jus finish bathin... I am totally wet like hell... And jus like that I went for work... I did not care much about the wet clothes on me...
In the night, finish work.. Reply the testi that one of the friends sent to me... Asked me about my relationship and others... At 1 plus in the midnight, I suddenly sent a message to my ex about requesttin that is there any chance that we can patch back.. She asked me WHY? I replied all the reason and then I fell asleep...
She did not reply back to me... I jus simply tryin my luck.. I jus miss all the happiness that we had in the past... I really hope that she will come back to me... I know it might be impossible but no matter what I will wait for her answer..
Today the whole morning and also half day of afternoon I have been watchin the show of 斗牛要不要 until 第五集 only... Because others still downloading in process... Really touchin and nice... I love the acting of HEBE... She really COOLz...
Her actin made me cry... I cannot manage to control my tear when I was watchin... And I jus let my tears drop off from my eyes like tap water... Hahazz... Because of the song that also sang from S.H.E... They managed to sing the song that how I feel now... I am simply deeply in love with that song... Lolzz... Anyway, hope that S.H.E can continue the style of the songs they sing... JIA YOU..
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠3:53 PM
Tuesday, January 15, 2008 ❤
15th of January... Gosh... 4 days never update blog... Because not lazy is BUSY... Mmm... Yesterday was the day for the BBQ for all Polar outlets... Not so bad... At least have the chance to communicate with other outlets people... Never eat too much BBQ food... Because lazy to go down... I ate MiFen with Curry at level 2 then full... BBQ food I only ate one Satay and Otak... Hahazz...
I spent most of the time watchin TV... And also helped other to carry the heavy drinks... Xiao Sin Kor kor came at about 9 plus... So went to Bus-stop to pick him up as he dunno how to go there... So waited a while for him and walked to the BBQ pit there together... He went off with a little boy up to level 2... I stayed there at the BBQ pit for a while...
Answered a phone call from level 2... Then ran up to Level 2... Hahazz... Xiao Sin Kor kor being bullied by those little kids... Those kids kept taking Xiao Sin Kor kor's handphone... Waited for Xiao Sin Kor kor to eat finish then the 3 youngsters went off first... We went to the nearby pub to drink...
Gosh... They checked our IC... One of my friend cannot drink but can go in... She feelin damn sianz lookin at us drinkin... We ordered alcohol... Drank from 10 plus to 11 plus... I drank 2 glassesand got drunk quite serious... I still know what I am doin is jus that I cannot walked properly... I chatted on the phone for a while with Nick.. And chatted with my friend too... Xiao Sin Kor kor got went out to Smoke for a while...
Then at 11 plus, I got up and went to the toilet... DAMN my head is damn dizzy and I cannot even walk properly... I totally have no strength at all... FORCE myself to go to pee... After pee, we went to back home... Took bus back to Pasir Ris station and tried our luck to see that is there any MRT yet...
Did not get there on time so we took cab home... Me and my friend took one cab and Xiao Sin Kor kor took another cab as he is stayin at the area near Vivo there... So in the cab, chatted with my friend a lot of stuffs... And my ex sms-ed me about the chalet as she plannin to go on today... Got back home, went to bath and sleep... Because no mood to go online as my head is damn PAIN after drinkin and I am DAMN tired too...
Today school again... Planned not to come but in the end came cause of my daily grade... FORCE myself to get up from the bed... Today I will be very very tired... After school.., need to go to Jurong Point to work until 10.30pm..
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠8:18 AM
Friday, January 11, 2008 ❤
11th January.... Feeling SUPER tired.. Dunno why.. I cannot stand it.. Today did not go to school... I slept until 8 plus in the morning... Sms-ed back to Jing Hong because she asked me out... She also did not go to school... Suppose wan to go for movie.. But in the end, went to K box to sing... Asked Youngly, Tim and Aidil... Aidil and Tim are in school and they cannot pon.. As for Youngly, he was sick... O another friend sick... GET WELL SOON FRIEND...
Reached at the City hall at about 11 plus... Walked around Citylink there... Then met Jing Hong... We went to play arcade... Hee heezz FUN!!! I kept playin Para Para.. I got 1st.. Wee... Maybe no one went to play that why I got always got 1st... LOVE to play Para Para now..
At 1 plus, we went to K box... Yup sang a lot a lot of songs... Without stoppin... Got a FREE CUP of K box.. Very nice... It was a Christmas Cup.. LOVE IT...
After K box.., Jing Hong went for her BBQ and I went back home straight... I am damn tired and slept in the bus from Jurong East interchange to my house bus-stop there... Wah... I can sleep without waking up... Today I shall have an early rest or else I will be sleepy again..
Tomorrow goin work in the afternoon... Mmm... Gonna work hard.. Monday goin for Company BBQ... Can't wait for the day to come... I am also goin to meet Xiao Sin Kor kor at the Company BBQ... Wee... Okok stop here now...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠9:05 PM
Wednesday, January 09, 2008 ❤
9th of January... What really happened to me?? People asked me or friends asked me.. I will say nothing happen.. Because I also dunno why I cannot easily smile out quite easily to others.... SORRY people if my face is very not happy to you..
Mmm... Everytime when I walked by myself to school, my brain always feelin empty and always forget what I am doin.. Once time I pon school... On the way to MRT station., my brain was feelin empty and I was like dreamin... Feel like faintin soon... I was totally feelin like break down... I really dunno what I live for... I lost all my goals and happiness...
Today, I sent a carin SMS to my ex... Finally she can reply me... Because I wanted to know why she absent from work for these few days... She replied back that she havin HIGH FEVER.. O god... My mind went bit blank and I was worried about her... I dunno why I suddenly have this feelin was wantin to go to her house to look after and take good care of her... I wanted it badly but I think back again she might still angry with me...
She jus dunno that how much I really care for her... She always think that I never care for her... Haiz.. I jus hope that she dun overwork as it is really damn tirin and bad for health...
I jus simply hope that she can really get well soon and please do take care of herself.. I dun wish to see that my friends are sick and unhappy.. Anyway, she can get well soon... I wan to see her in the COMPANY BBQ on next MONDAY...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠9:25 PM
Tuesday, January 08, 2008 ❤
8th of January.. Today dunno why feelin damn super tired... Went to school as normal but 2nd break pon.. Because I quite not happy with one of my team mates... So I jus let the matter off... I dun wan to make things big...
Pon-ed and took train to Jurong East... Went to library because suddenly wan to read some books... Borrowed 4 books... 3 Chinese and 1 English... Got to improve my ENGLISH... Or else my presentation will damn SUX...
Then last minute got called up to go for work.. Because one people MC... At about 6pm, went Jurong Point to work... But then suddenly.., Lot 1 short staff... Need someone to help... So my area manager wan me to go over there to help..
No choice... Got to go over there to help to work.. Luckily got the chance to work with my two quite close friends... AUNTIES... I love to work with them.. GOOD NEW is that Company is arrangin a BBQ session... But dunno is at where yet but confirm is on 14th and 15th of January... YEA... Lookin forward to it... I goin to buy alcohol to drink... 15th of January plan not to go to school... But still dunno the plan yet....
Okok shall wrote until here... Tomorrow still got school.. Got to have a EARLY REST so that I will not fall asleep in class again... Hahazz... Good night everyone..
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:28 PM
Monday, January 07, 2008 ❤
7th of January... I think my health is gettin bad to worst because sensitive skin come back to me again... My hands, legs, neck and face are damn itchy.. I jus simply wan to tear off my skin or jus die like that... I dun wan to scratch here scratch there... Blood come out from the injuries... PAIN!!
First day of school.. Have the thought of pon-ing school but in the end, I did not because of the grade... I force myself to stay... Haiz... I also feel that someone in the class kept look down on me and some other people who are jus average clever... I know that our IQ are not so CLEVER as you so better dun give us your proud face... Although we dun have good IQ but we do have some TALENT.. Do you have it too??!! Hate people who look down on average clever people... HATE LikE HELL... If you think you are clever, why dun you enter JC instead of POLY...
Yea yea whatever... Tomorrow need to go to school... So boring.. I think there will be no one in the class wan to group with me because I feel so aliens toward them like that.. Jus dunno what the reason why... Haiz.. Feel so LEFT OUT..
I jus wan that in 2008, I wan more happiness and good health... I wan to have a stable boyfriend who is really can stay with me forever and ever... I dun wan play play wan.. Really hope that this person will appear in my life before my birthday or Valentime day...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠9:07 PM
Saturday, January 05, 2008 ❤
5th of January... Watch a show introduced by a friend on the blog... Really a nice show.. My real side have changed before watchin this show.. I am no longer a good girl... I think I am a very bad girl... I can be very BAD as like very flirt or crazy... I hate the way I behave now... People might dunno this that I am a bi-sexual.. Because of I tell everyone about it, my friends will run away from me...
This entry I decided to write about my character... I already think about am I goin to say this a very long time... This had been in my heart damn long when the time I met her... But girls, I hope that you all can dun mistake me because I only love those girls who are really look alike the guys...
I think nowadays my friends who are in W14D knew that I had fell in love with a girl who look like a guy a lot... And my whole classmates had seem her before... As for W25C friends, I am jus scared to tell them... As I think that they might jus like kick me off from them.. In W25C, there is one very best friend knew about my past relationship.. He really got a shocked when he knew that I am that kind of person... And I told him not to tell others...
From his reactions, I can know what other reactions will like that why I plan not to tell them... I only tell on my blog if they really saw that I jus hope that they dun look down on me or anything...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠2:06 AM
Wednesday, January 02, 2008 ❤
2nd of January... Haiz... Bad day for me... Because I cannot take it... I break down by havin heavy flu and cough for last 3 days... I did not care much about it because I think that it will recover.. I think I am wrong.. And I still continue to go to work.. I do not wan to have a rest anymore.. I really hope that maybe I might follow my both grandfathers' paths died because of tiredness from work.. Not enough rest.. I will wonder who will come and bother to care for me if I am not around in the Earth..
Anyway.., Thank to all aunties that worked with me.. They really did care too much for me... When I am not feelin well, they asked me to go back to rest.. Supposed plan to work long hour but instead of the flu makin me more tired.. I have to go back... Sometimes when I picked up the phone and wan to talk to the customers, they really cannot hear my voice... Because I have lost it... I feel so uncomfortable...
I dunno when will I possible to recover soon... School goin to reopen.. Maybe I will continue to go to school but I will not think hard.. As I still cannot concentrate because the main reason is that I still dun have enough sleep... I need to sleep at least 1 day to recover all... Maybe so...
Tomorrow will be another tough day for me... I hope that in my work, everything is goin smooth and ok... Because I will be workin long hour again.. From 10am to 10.30pm... Good luck man...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:30 PM
