Friday, November 30, 2007 ❤
30th of November... Today really no mood for study... Whatever... I force myself to come to school... No choice school is more important now than health.. Because of my poor daily grade... Haiz... I know I could not speak well but I still force myself to try to speak well... Really tiring to me...
Today during 2nd break... I felt of a sudden that I break down... I cannot take in any stress... Because saw that Science Faci is givin me a VERY HEAVY stress and so do the new Enterprise faci... Combined the 2 stresses together, it is DAMN SUPER HEAVY... Straight away, I cried behind my laptop during 2nd break... I quickly MSN Tim that I break down and cry... Only he is the one care about me... Others will jus hack care ba I guess... I am happy that I have such a BEST friend like Tim... Thank for carin me!!!
I cannot control myself and the tears jus went down my face... Like tap water... My eyes and nose are red... I cleaned away all my tears and jus walked out the classroom with my laptop to find Tim as he is the only one who can help me out with the Enterprise... So he did tought me how to explain to points...
After that, I went off to buy my lunch and BACK to classroom... Now waitin for the 3rd meetin to start... If one day I have to compare the both classes of W14D and W25C which is better?? I will STRONGLY choose W14D... Because the friends in W14D will more likely concern me more... Remember one day that I was totally break down and cried right in the class, I went out and my buddies followed out and cheered me up... Actually, I was touched by that... Thank you buddies..!! And always will not feel bored everyday... There are also laughter and jokes everyday too... I MISS YOU ALL W14D FRIENDS...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠2:11 PM
Thursday, November 29, 2007 ❤
Today school was not bad... God.. My meimei came school today... Glad to see her come school today... Hahazz... We went down for break together durin 1st break... Watch One Missed Call and also pon-ed school together.. Hee heezz.. Say byebye at the Woodland MRT station there...
After K box, went to meet Xiao Sin kor kor... Because he worked there... So chatted with him about work for quite a long time... Then Didi disappeared... Took out my handphone planned to SMS him de.. But he left a message that he had left... My face was like "OMG..!! Why never tell me face to face??"... Then I went back home by my own... Haiz...
Now playin in my blog is 123 MU TOU REN sang by Hei Se Hui Mei Mei... This is my singin so please do comment about it... This is recorded today when I was in the K box... More songs will upload that sing by me when I am free... Sorry about those background shoutin... Those shoutin were made by other rooms...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:25 PM
Wednesday, November 28, 2007 ❤
Today presentation was not that bad but make us gonna crazy is that some of the classmates kept shootin questions at us... Jus dunno why all of the sudden they keep askin question... Melvin was like explainnin until like gonna CRAZY... Hahazz... Hope that Faci can give us good grade for our team because we really try damn HARD...
Next time, I cannot pon too much le... Lookin at my own GPA system.., my Semester 2 grades are done badly than the Semester 1... ARGH... Shall Buck up now... No more playful me...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:03 PM
Tuesday, November 27, 2007 ❤
Went off with Melvin and Roy for dinner at the Causeway point... Then walked around in the basement for a while... Because I wan to shop... Train-ed to Jurong East MRT station... Along the way to Jurong East, I dun feel bored at all... Hahazz... Chit chattin with Melvin and Roy... I also felt that there is one ah beng like keep starin at me... He was with his girlfriend... Dunno why when I first stepped into the train he kept starrin at me non-stop... Whatever.. Hack care him... I also keep makin fun of Melvin... Lolzz...
We then went off to Entertainment centre to play arcade... Hahazz... Firstly, we played basketball... Gossh... Roy beat me down... His scold is jus a bit higher than me... Melvin the lousy.. Hahazz... Did not manage to get into 2nd stage...
Then I went off to play Para Para and they played others... Played together for the car racin.. I am sux at that... Always get LAST... Then went over to the Neoprint shop... Took photo with Melvin... Hee heezz... Had a lot of fun in posin some poses... Then we asked Roy to join in... His face in the picture was damn funny... Our neoprint looked a bit ugly as the guys are like FIRST time take neoprint...
About 9pm plus, Melvin and Roy accompany me to wait for my bus to come... Then I board up the bus and they went off to take train to Boon Lay... Hee heezz... Really a FUN and enjoyable day we had today... We shall have another FUN day in future next time... Yay...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:15 PM
Monday, November 26, 2007 ❤
26th of November... Today never go to school... Hate school lot lot now... Got contribute in class equal get a grade C... Never contribute also get C... I hate school now... Whatever... I jus simply dunno I try DAMN hard to contribute but I still kena a C... Are the facilitators for W25C too strict?? I guess so... I think my Semester 1 facilitators are much more better... If I got talk more on the points, I got a B.. Not like Semester 2, talk more a grade C only... HELL sia...
Today skip school... Woke up at 6.25am.. But damn tired.. Went back to sleep again... Then woke up again at 6.45am... Sms-ed Melvin that I never go school... Then back to sleep...
Woke up around 11am plus... Listenin to my music and re-arranged my past workin time... Did until about near evening like 4 plus.. Watched some videos in Youtube too... Borin like hell at home... ARGH...
Then the whole night was playin Audition... Yaya... Sianz... Keep playin FREESTYLE mode... As I am better at that mode... Then played TEAM Mode also... Goin to sleep early today... Hee heezz... Nites~~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:21 PM
Saturday, November 24, 2007 ❤
Saw what I have wore in the photo that is shown above... Yea... CHRISTMAS HAT... Christmas is comin soon... From the start of next week, all POLAR staffs have to put on the Christmas hat... No need to wear that BLACK hat for a few weeks... Actually, I hate to wear that black hat because it can make my hair ugly...
A lot of Christmas new cakes have been introduced to us, the staffs... Wah... There are a lot of DISCOUNTS too... All the staffs looked the MEMO until confused... What 10%? 15%? Then still got the discount from UOB, OCBC, NTUC Linkpoint Card, Standard Charted card, PAssion! card, Polaris card, Bla bla bla... Some cards cannot be used in some of the Christmas cakes some can... Some got 15% discount some only 10% discount... If you all will me, you all also will get confuse too.. Hahazz...
Today workiin was great... The aunties that I worked with really fun... They introduced me to a young guy who help to deliver the stocks to the outlet... I felt that they are tryin to help me to find a boyfriend like that... But I only wan to make more friends so I jus went to that guy... He said his name and his previous school to me.. And so do I.. The guy is like jus actin cool... Hahazz.. Anyway, nice meetin him...
Tomorrow will be workin in the night shift... Mmm... Hope that everything will be goin FINE and smooth... Tomorrow shall be a tirin day... Maybe so...
Random photos that I took jus now with my POLAR Christmas Hat... YEA... I know that I simply look UGLY without that eyeliner... ARGH... I hate the look I have...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:51 PM
Friday, November 23, 2007 ❤
23rd of November... OMG... Damn fast sia... December coming really soon... One more week like that... Today really quite happy... Havin Enterprise today... Not much people came... We only got 4 groups... Almost all group are 4 members only... Today Faci also never come because he is sick... Gosh.. Cannot see him one last time... Wasted... Got to see our new faci, Mr Rama... We still dunno that he will be our new faci for next week... Haiz... Enterprise already changed 2 times faci.. This time is 3rd time...
Today presentation not so bad... Lin Xun left early as he is sick... So left only me, Cavan and Melvin to present... Overall, still okok to our presentation... Hope that we can get B... Hee heezz..
After school, stayed back in school because 7.30pm got to watch a concert at TRCC... So Melvin, his friend, Roy and me were in class playin our own game.. Then saw that FIERCE Sercity guard came.. We faster packed our stuffs and went to library to play... Melvin and Roy put down their stuffs and went for dinner.. I stayed in the room to play AUDITION...
Played until nearly 7.25pm, we went to TRCC... Hahazz... Melvin managed to watch the concert and Roy joined in too... But Roy left early in the intermission time... Melvin and I stayed until the concert ended which was about 10 plus like that... Flashed our Ez-Link card for CE point... Together we trained back home...
Overall, the concert was quite interesting... They used those instruments that are quite recycled like leaves and other... Creative!! I found that their music sounded like those HORROR movie... Hahazz... Anyway, love this type of concert.. Hope that in future, STA people can get more tickets like this type of concert to watch for FREE... Hee heezz..
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:50 PM
Thursday, November 22, 2007 ❤
22th of November... Today school not bad at all... Because havin quite lot of fun... Hahazz... Lesson on CULTURE... No need to do PPT... Jus say out your point for about 2 minutes... During Meetin 2, almost everyone in our class that had came today chat online in MSN together... Some of the guys very bad made our window so LAG by spammin inside the MSN...
In the 2nd Break, some of us went down to FOOD HEAVEN for our lunch... And also set down there to chit chat... Then went back to classroom... Some of them said that wan PON wan but in the end never pon at all... HAIZ..
After school.., stayed in class for a while to do my RJ all things... Then packed my stuffs and down to One Stop centre with Melvin to collect my free concert ticket for tomorrow... Then we went back to W2 and into his friend's class, Roy... Melvin and I were havin fun playin with the certains in the classroom and also the faci's chair which I was sittin on it...
Then we watched the Devil beside You... Laughed quite crazy... Hee heez... At about 6 plus nearly 7pm, we walked to the MRT to take the train back home together because all of us are livin in Jurong... Then I dropped off at Jurong East interchange and both of them took the train to Boon Lay station..
So bad that Melvin may not able to accompany me for tomorrow night concert because he lost contact with the person who is goin to give him the free ticket... Jus simply hope that the person can call him again tomorrow... So that he can accompany me... Hahazz... Melvin does look a bit like my cousin when my cousin was young... That why I treat him as my brother like that...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:02 PM
Wednesday, November 21, 2007 ❤
21st of November... Today there were a lot of things happened in my life... Too much... There is happy and also sad... HAPPY is that finally can meet Yu Ting Jie and Lee Ling Mei mei at my school, Republic Poly... Hee heezz..
Then asked Mun How to meet also.. Went to the classroom where they were... Then chatted with them... Called Seng Huat to meet also... So next we went to other places to talk because dun wan to disturb people doin the project in the room.. We went to the Food Court A there the 2nd storey there to sit and chit chat... Chatted a lot about our past secondary school life and also the present life now of all the people we know in the Secondary school... After that, we went back to our class and and they went back to the room again...
Straight away, I went into my room and slammed the door loudly... I cried damn loud thought that anyone of them will come and cheer me up.. But none of them come... My father scolded me that if I continued cryin like this, he will use the stick to bit me up... FUCK... Why wan to bit me..?? Is there any wrong to CRY..?? Do my father know that it is too CRUEL that if a father use a stick to bit his daughter...?? Unless I am not his daughter then he will bit me up...
This family is already makin me damn DISAPPOINTED... I really hate my family now... This family had already BREAK my heart so badly and I felt so HURT... One day, when I have enough money, I am goin to move out of this house... I wan to have my own house where no one can control me... I can do whatever things that I wan in that house.. Hope that this hope can come true...
Some random pictures of what had happened to me today...
During School time.. Seng Huat took my camera and took all these 3 photos of me and Mun How only... -.-"
The above only photo is I took wan not Seng Huat...
After school, Back to home where bad things happened to me... I locked myself in the room and music from laptop will on damn LOUD...
These are the photos are taken when I was cryin damn badly...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠7:44 PM
Tuesday, November 20, 2007 ❤
20th of November... Mmm.. School was damn BAD... Because yesterday did not really had enough sleep... I slept at 1.40am plus... Then went to school no mood to study but saw my average daily GPA was damn SUX... It is a FAIL... So no choice force myself to stay... ARGH... Why dun my UT grade be higher so that I no need to stay...
I really SORRY for my group that I did not contribute much... As I need a little of sleep... So I took a short nap during 2nd break when everyone was busy doing the PPT... I was so damn sorry... But at least I gave the SWORD example, hope it will be useful for the presentation...
During presentation, I can tell everyone that when I presentin, the speakin was not at me at all... Because when I spoke I dun feel any feelin at all... It seemed that there is another person in my body helpin me to control my voice to let me speak... My soul was not fully in my body... At time, I nearly wan to faint to the floor and slept...
After school, went straight back home... In the MRT, I fell asleep again... I think the people will staring at me sleepin... GOSH... Dunno what nice to see if someone sleepin in a train... FUNNY..??!!
First thing reached home is to switch on my laptop... Hee heezz... Download my STUPID UT client... Jus hope that on Thursday, it does work... No more borrowin the thumbdrive from faci.. Damn PAISEH wan... Everytime need to borrow from them... Haiz...
Secondly, surf some nets and there goes the AUDITION.. Heeheezz... Trained myself... And in the night, I was so GLADED that I have finally got to LEVEL 9... I have played damn a lot of times and also spent a lot of DENS to pass...
Lastly, I am happy that my ex boyfriend did not FORGET me yet... Long time never meet each other... He sent sms to me to concern my work and also my study... Thank for carin me again... Dun ever forget we are still brother and sister... I will always be there for you if you need HELP...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:41 PM
Monday, November 19, 2007 ❤
Ooo.. 19th of November... Damn HAPPY day... Quite Hypo in class and also other places... Hee heezz... Went to school as usual in the morning... Today is MATH.. O man.. It is about chances... Hate sia makin me confused with the number.. But overall, I have a group of great teammates... Now tryin to communicate well with them... Because I dun wan to be left out...
Last minute, my group members said that they wan to PON.. So we did agreed to pon together... So in the 2nd break, Welmen left the class first... Second then me... But dunno other team members got left or not... Hahazz..
Taken in the K box... Hee heezz..
So went K box at Clementi with a new online friend, Steven... Decided by me in the last minute... Yay I love singin... I think my voice has become a little POWER as in I can sing Angela Zhang song without adjustin the keys... Hee heezz... Also recorded one song of my singin... Planned to upload to the web... But I think the internet web there is really sux keep sayin cannot upload... So I shall upload next time to let you all hear and also remember to give me some coments.. Thank..!!
My most favourite drink in the K box.. Coco FREEZE.. Love it...
After that, we went off to Queenway there by cab... He paid the fee.. Walked around there to find shop that can help him to make a printed polo tee... So walked nearly like 1 hour then found a shop that can help him to print... Dinner at the Mac... Finally, can eat... Because at school, I never eat my lunch...
Then went back to the shop to collect his tee... Got his new tee printed... Then went back home... We took Bus 198... He sent me home near my market then I took bus 334 alone to my house bus stop as I lazy to walk back home...
And about 10 something, I am back home... Done my RJ, chated with some of my online friends... And now bloggin while also chattin with Steven through phone... Later goin to sleep le... Tomorrow still got UT test... Anyway, wish all the people good luck in the UT test... Good night and sweet dream...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:50 PM
Sunday, November 18, 2007 ❤
18th of November... Now then I find out that in my life I really feelin lonely most of the time... I have very few best friends... Not many friends are damn close to me... I am sad that when I am down, really no friends to come and give me support... Although there are like 3 or 4 supports, I think rthere is not enough for me.. I wan more supports so that I will not feel so sad...
Guess what today I have been workin for the whole day... I guess more than 12 hours... My handphone was in my pocket hopin that some friends will SMS me.. I am too disappointed that really no one will bother come and SMS me... My handphone had been too QUIET for the whole day... Yup I know I am a unpopular person and also a SUPER WIRED person which people saw me will stay far far away from me... Haiz... Am I too ugly to be your friends?? I also dunno...
What shall I do?? I really TIRED of my life.. Everyday I try to get active so that I can make more friends but I guess I am in the WRONG track... I simply hate myself... Can I jus take of my mask from my face in school?? I guess sure not... Because people might jus get scared by my real person...
In real person, I am a SUPER QUIET girl... Always love to cry when no one come and bother about me when I am really down to hill.. I dun like to talk much because I am jus lazy to talk... Not that I am proud.. If people see me too quiet, please do come forward and talk to me as I need to warm up before gettin active.. I also always need people to start a topic of the conversation so that I can talk more.. I need people to give me happiness...
I think I shall stop here... Continue talkin about me people who read my blog will sure get SIANZ... Tomorrow also still got workin... Good night everyone.. Byebye...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠12:51 AM
Thursday, November 15, 2007 ❤
Above photo is taken on 14 of November in the class when I am alone...
15th of November... Wah... First time quite a long time never update my blog... Quite lazy to blog... Because feelin damn tired after school and also no time to blog during lesson time... In school, always busy with doin the powerpoint at Meetin 2 and 2nd break... Hahazz...
This few days I very guai never pon school... I think I started to like to go to school... I am so HAPPY... Because Science change faci... No more seein the faci talkin to herself... Heard from other faci said that she no more teachin in Republic Poly le... It is better that she never teach...
Today, Culture lesson... Not so bad.. My class quite a lot of people pon... About got 6 or more people pon... Today problem statement was quite easy... It is all about the BEAUTY... From the pictures, people, places, art and other more... My group got combine with other group.. Because that group left with 2 people so they joined us...
Mmm.. Tomorrow will be havin Enterprise... Heez.. Mmm... Maybe changin group... I forget who is my team members... Later shall go and check.. I shall stop here now... Bye bye...
These are the photo that I took today evening in my room... I am a very Zi Lian Person.. >.<...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠7:06 PM
Monday, November 12, 2007 ❤
12th of November... Yesterday was my younger brother's 17th birthday... I bought a Chocolate birthday for him... That cake is really quite expensive... I am willin to pay that much because I wanted to taste the cake... The introduction said that the cake is bitter... But I dun think so... It is somehow of quite sweet... A little familiar to the Brownie cake...
Today back to school again... Boring life... After one week of holiday work, must go back to school to study... No break for me... Now my scheme is fully packed... Monday to Friday is booked by SCHOOL... Every Saturday and Sunday is booked by WORK.. If wan to go out, can only go out in weekday which mean I need to skip school... Hahazz...
Later will be meetin a new online friend after school for dinner... And I also goin to visit my work place there... I goin to give them a surprise... Hee heezz...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠8:41 AM
Friday, November 09, 2007 ❤
9th of November... Last few days did not update my blog because have been busy with my workin... One week holiday is goin to end soon... BACK to school again soon... I am gettin tired... I wan to sleep long long but I cannot... Must wake up in the early morning for WORK...
Yesterday was damn TIRED day to me... Because I worked 12 hours plus and only 1 hour break... I worked more than half a day of 24 hour... I worked long hours because one of the IMM staff supposed to work at Jurong Point last minute called the outlet said that she cannot come because of SICK... EXCUSES... Cannot get use of the Jurong Point outlet then say la... Let me replace her place... Haiz...
Tomorrow workin 3.30pm to 10.30pm... Great can sleep until quite late.. And later I am goin to sleep early to get back all my energy... Hahazz... I have finally successfully transfer to Jurong Point to work... No need to work at Lot 1 and also no needto see the STUPID senior again in LOT 1... Hate him because of his FUCKIN attitude... Can't he jus change the attitude...?? Sms me he is busy when I wan to sms him... Yaya... EXCUSES... Yet had plenty of time in the work makin fun and talkin to aunties... No time to sms FRIEND...
I am quite regret that last time I have an relationship with him... I should not accept his resquest when he had jus broke with his ex girlfriend after 6 months... Because I should know that he will not easily forget the love with his ex girlfriend... I am so STUPID... I know it he still had a little feelin toward her... Last time being together, he kept compare me with his ex girlfriend... OMG... I dun like OK!!!
Whatever... What past is past... I should not sayin this matter again in my blog... Anyway, I jus simply wish that I and him still can be friend and can go out together those type... But I think is quite difficult... Because he keep sayin to me that he is BUSY like hell...
Anyway, this few days I feelin quite moody... I wan to go a place where no one can find me... Because I have been keepin a lot a lot a lot of unhappiness matter and stresses right inside my heart... I often cry when I am alone... I really hardly find a person to talk to... When I am sad and wan to cry, I often look through the contact in my handphone., but really dunno who to talk with and scared to disturb them... So I jus put it in my heart... Can someone simply lend me a hand to help me, a pair of listenin ears to hear my problems or even a shoulder to let me cry?? I think sooner or later I might suffer from depression...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:33 PM
Wednesday, November 07, 2007 ❤
7th of November... Comin to December... Christmas comin soon... Not so lookin to it because on the Christmas Day I am sure that I will be workin... Must work long hour... Maybe...
I think I have think through... I goin not to work in Lot 1 anymore... I wan to transfer to Jurong Point to work.. Because at Jurong Point, the aunties are really kind and also willin to teach all the things about work... I am quite happy to work there... Because not much stress over there...
However, work at Lot 1.., I must depend on myself.. No one will help me... When I am in trouble.., they all might siam to one side if I am not gettin well with them... Really hate there now... The senior over there also have BAD attitude and also always MIA in work... That why people work there will suffer... Sometimes need to work overtime... That why I am damn tired to work there...
Anyway jus hope that I can work in Jurong Point and be happy forever... I dun wan to suffer again... I think that all for today... Tomorrow workin morning and I have to request for transfer from the AREA MANAGER... I am quite nervous... >.<
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠7:39 PM
Monday, November 05, 2007 ❤
5th of November... HAPPY today... Woke up at 1.30pm... Because I slept at 2.30am... Playin Audition until very late... Wee... Love Audition a lot... After woke up, went online to surf nets...
After that, I went to meet my mother after her work to go to Orchard for shoppin... Hee heez... Love Orchard a lot... Went Far East Plaza... Planned to buy shorts but cannot find any suitable shorts for myself.... But I plannin next time I will buy more dresses...
Next went to Taka to buy my mag... Wah... Cawaii cover page is AYUMI again... OMG... Damn nice... I love it so much... Bought Cawaii and the Popteen... Then walked around to see mag in the Japan section... Those books are nice but too bad that I dunno how to read Japan words... Haiz... In future, I wan to take up Japan language lesson...
This is my dinner.... I love their Foods... YUMMY..
Went down to basement to have dinner... Damn hungry because morning and afternoon did not eaten anything... After dinner, went to buy donuts near Plaza Singapura... Bought 1 box... 12 donuts.. Very cheap... $12 only... Wee~!!
These are the donuts I bought... Very nice to eat... Love it~~!!
Next went to Pure Milk shop in the Plaza Singapura... Wah... Love their designs... I think I can be the Pure Milk fanz... Hahazz... The girl that served us is really KIND... She chatted with my mother very long... OMG... She also did look like a Idol... The Ugirl Zhao Yun... Damn same lookin... Even the voice almost the same... I was like OMG... Zhao Yun!! Hahazz... Anyway, I jus bought a white cat T-shirt from the shop then went back home... Because my mother will complain if we still dun went back...
Today really have a GREAT day for my shoppin... Anyway today, I also spent quite a lot of money... I must work hard to earn back all my money... Hee heez... These are the items I bought today...
Tomorrow until Sunday sure very busy... Because I will be workin... Hope that I will not make any mistakes in my work... I dun wan to bring them trouble... HATE to create trouble for them... Good Luck to me... Hee...
Saw those CUTE bears at Taka outside... OMG How I wish I can have ONE too... >.<... I LOVE CUTE BEARS...!!!
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:25 PM
Sunday, November 04, 2007 ❤
These are the photos I took in the night about 1am plus... I took it in the dark... Hee heezz...
The photo above my mother say I look like a CAT... Lolz... I love the comment so much.. How I wish I can be a cat...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:29 PM
Saturday, November 03, 2007 ❤
3rd of November... Jus now in the morning and afternoon workin at Jurong Point...Thought it is a GOOD day for me... But it turned to a BAD day... I not so happy... Aaahh... Well I jus had to bear with it...
Overall of the day, I think I am quite unlucky... Jus feel that... First thing during work, I cut my middle finger... Though it is a small injury, but it is really damn pain... Blood comin out too... But not so much like bleeding...
Secondly.., when I was pushin the trolly with a 2kg cake... I accidently knock into an aunty... Hellz man... I dunno why I knocked into her... My soul was not in my body... I saw her suddenly like stop in front of me... And I cannot stop as I needed to keep away from other people... She said that "OUCH!".. First time soft then second time very loud... I that time got said a lot of "SORRY" to her but she stared back at me... What can I do?? I already say SORRY le still give me a very bu shuang face lor... Some more, other people stared at me... Damn paiseh lor... I think she wan to attract attention like that.. Man that time I was really in a rush., other customer still waitin for me for the cake... If I am very fierce people, I might jus said that "Stare wat stare.. Say Sorry already wat... I am accidently wan..."
I think those are the things that happened today... I dun wish to cut myself again... Also heard from other that I not coming for work because I got a date with my boyfriend (This is my ex boyfriend said that wan)... Well... Why did he wan to say that..?? I always go out with my Godbrothers only... Like that also cannot... And also anyhow say that I GOT BOYFRIEND.. OMG... Did I told you before that I got boyfriend already..?? I think NO!! Please dun anyhow say that I have boyfriend... I already tired of quarrellin with him but he kept created trouble for me... I already never SMS him and yet he spread me something bad matter to others... And made me turned into BAD PERSON... Yayazz... So free DAMN FUCK OFF... He made me hate him so so so MUCH!!!
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:41 PM
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OMG... What kind of weather was it yesterday... Got rainin... Sianz... I got flu and cough again... Aaahh... I am unable to talk well when I am presentin in school... I cannot hear my voice... My voice was like disappearin from my throat again... I DUN WAN!!!
Guess wat... It is already 1 something... And I am still awake... Tomorrow need to help Jurong Point to work... Short of staff again... Workin in the morning shift... Yay... GREAT... Workin time is 9am to 3pm... Short and sweet time... I love it... Hahazz...
Jus now went to play AUDITION... OMG I think I cannot stop playin from it when I am FREE... I kept playin and playin non-stop... Wantin badly to pass the test and get to LEVEL 9... But everytime I try, it always jus a little to pass... Haiz... But when I play to other people, I got pass... Dunno why... Maybe nervous or too proud that I wan to pass like that...
I felt disturbed by my cough and flu... HATE IT... In my msn nick, I put I havin COUGH... It is to see that anyone will come and concern about me... Not showin off... Guess what.. None of my friends come and care for me... So sad... Even my most close buddy also hack care me le... I can hear my heart crackin... I guess I shall be more EMO... Talk to my DOLLS... Xiao Sin Kor kor also like throw me aside... Got girlfriend le dun wan Mei mei le... Haiz... I feel so LONELY... I think heaven really make my life unfair... The god dun wan to give me friends to accompany me... They keep takin my friends away from me... Whatever... Got to go and sleep now... Sweet Dream and night...!!
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠12:19 AM
Thursday, November 01, 2007 ❤
The Group of the day for CUTLURE lesson... Team 2..!!
Ooo... Yea.. Today class is damn FUN... Got the chance to go out of the school... Hee heezz... Got to take photos about the buildings... Because the problem statement tells us to do so... Our team went to Causeway Point there... Walkin around a shoppin centre and takin photos... Findin answers and others...After school., went down to Lot 1 to get my pay slip... Wah.. This time I earned not as much as last time... Last time I usually got 500 plus now only 300 plus due to everyday need to go to school to study... Haiz... But nevermind, got money to spend is good enough...
I found out that this few week I have been slackin horrible... Last time I was not like that... Haiz... I wan to work hard on my daily grade or else I scared I cannot pass then waste my time studyin...
Lastly, I wan to say that I plannin to change my style of wearin... As I am already 18 and must be more mature in my dressin already... I dun wan to be so childish in my wearing... Lolzz...
Glad that to know that Xiao Sin Kor kor has found a new Girlfriend... Congratz man... Hope that Xiao Sin Kor kor can treat Da Sou nice nice and also this couple can last forever and ever... To me.. I also wish that I can find a suitable guy for me as my boyfriend... Good Luck...
Carrie & Me..
Joachim & Cavan
Fasehah & Xiao Tian
I love these 3 photos...
Gettin Ready to go out of the SCHOOL...
| You Are Not Happy Being Single |
 You're just one of those people who does better in a relationship. It's as simple as that. And most people who are honest with themselves feel the exact same way. Try to make the best of your single times. There's no rush to fall in love - even if being single sucks. |
| You Are 44% Emo |
 You're not emo, but you're plenty thoughtful, unique, and even a little angsty. |
| You are Ready to Date Again |
 If you're not out there already, you should be. Your ex is long gone from your heart, and you are ready for another relationship. Any guy you meet gets a clean slate - and no emotional baggage. Congratulations, you've gotten completely over him. Now, on to a better guy :-) It's time for you to start dating! Post your photo and profile on a bunch of personals sites. Before long, you won't have any more lonely Saturday nights. |
| You Should Play the Guitar |
 You're very independent - both in spirit and in the way you learn. You can teach yourself almost anything, even if it makes your fingers bleed. You're not really the type to sit patiently through a music lesson - or do things by the book. It's more your style to master the fundamentals and see where they take you. Highly creative and a bit eclectic, you need a wide range of music to play. You could emerge as a sensitive songwriter... or a manic rock star. Your dominant personality characteristic: being rebellious Your secondary personality characteristic: tenacity |
| You Are an Indifferent Ex |
 You're not one of those girls who thinks about her exes - or even remembers them "Love 'em and Leave 'em" is your motto. And your break ups tend to be a clean break. It's a nice strategy to have, and guys appreciate your total lack of emotional baggage. But just a little reminder: it is okay to remember the good parts of your past, even with exes. |
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠7:04 PM
