Friday, February 24, 2012 ❤
I guess it is time... I planning to close down my blog or either MIA from this blog... I shall have my own offline blog..
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:07 PM
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24th of February.. I dunno why I have a sudden feeling that I want to update my blog.. Somehow I just can't take it anymore... Have been controlling my emotion and also one of the feeling inside me that making me feeling so horrible which I not sure how to say...
I actually dun feel happy at all.. I no longer can't ind anything that really do make me happy.. Somehow feeling that depression came back after a few years back.. Have been trying hard to control but in the end, I fail.. Feel like looking for a doctor for medicine..
I try using dancing to make myself feel happy but I dun think it is a success one... I try to open to everyone talk like nobody else... Behaving like another person but I feeling so horrible and I dun love it at all...
Whenever going out or going back home, I always choose to take bus because I wish to be alone and also I do not like to crowd with other people... When it is the time I am alone, I always do feel comfortable on myself... I feel sight happy and peace just with my music on and nothing to bother about...
I just want to have sometimes to heal myself back... The pain in my brain is somehow on and off from me... It is getting disturbing too... I know my aunty or either my father do have this problem so it is not rare for me to have this head pain too... I shall have rest now... Really feeling super not good... Tears just can't stop flowing out of my eyes...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:05 AM
Thursday, February 16, 2012 ❤
16th of February... Random day as usual... Finally collect my AKB cosplay costumes.. Love it a lot though it is just about 70 to 80% similar but it is goo enough to wear on my own body... Love their clothings so much... But sad that the China web that I keep on buying for the clothing, did not really update more new clothings... Maybe this might be my last time from buying from them if they still do not update any new style to sell...
How my clothing?? Kawaii?? Hee hee...
Today I went to Clementi before collecting my clothings... Went to Watson to buy my 3D mask but in the end, I did not find any 3D masks selling at that store... Damn sianz... Then walk to Fairprice to look for masks but there isn't selling too... So give up and went out of the mall to buy milktea from KOI... Have been kinda of craving for any milktea... Hee...
Another thing is that I actually finish my dance yesterday... Was feeling quite great.. But now planning what song to learn too... Maybe some happy songs like cheer leading style...
Really have to start finding new job... Have been staying at home for about going to 3 weeks I guess... Had enough of rest.. Need more money to save and I want to travel to Taiwan... Have been keep on saying yet can't fulfill with my own cash and actions too... Anyway signing out now...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠8:15 PM
Tuesday, February 14, 2012 ❤
14th of February.. It is Valentime day.. Happy Valentime Day to everyone regardless you are attached or single because today is also can say is friendship day too... Today I am very happy because I feeling lucky for today only.. I guess... Really hope that everyday can be like today so lucky always..
So today I received my latest AKB48 singles... Am really happy to able to receive the single on this Valentime day... I know there is one of the songs from AKB is about Valentime day... It is so cool to have them sing something on that... They arrived around near noon time...
So I just opened it and it keep praying that I will not getting the same random photos again... And so I open and faster find the random photos being hide in the singles... It was placed at the back of the single near DVD... So 1st I saw Aachan.. I am so shock... I feeling like I am dreaming... And faster open my another single and saw Tomomi.. OMFG... Keep asking myself is this really a dream... First time in my life, I kena great photos...
What up for today.. Slacking at home as usual.. Learning my new dance steps... I do feel a little aching and pain from my arms... Maybe I have move my arms too hard... But I am happy that I am still left with few minutes to end the song... It was kinda of fast... I think I only use about a week to finish this dance... Hope I can success learning the dance asap.. This is what I always want to and soon plan to learn maybe AKB songs or other sub unit songs too.. It just get me so excited to finish learning a dance..
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠3:47 PM
Sunday, February 12, 2012 ❤
12th of February... Time fly really fast... My birthday just a few days ago... Did not really celebrate but love to rot at home.. On 8th of February, spent my half of my day outside with boyfriend, afternoon went to town to catch the movie that I love to watch, I Love Hong Kong 2012... It was really great movie and kept on laughing so loud till my tears come out... LOL~ I can laugh so loud because the cinema is just we 2 and one more unknown office guy only, total 3 people watching the movie.. So shiok to the max...
After the movie, went to the Kino bookstore to find some books... Walked around the bookstore and look look... Bought a English storybook and also a Chinese storybook to read... Super happy with these 2 books... Suppose plan to buy Steve Jobs that book because there is a 20% discount but I did not buy due the the words that they used in the book are quite chim to me... Wish I can buy that book and read it one day...
On my actual birthday (9th of February), learning my dance as usual for the last few seconds of the song for the whole afternoon and it was a success one as I done with the song just that afternoon... Over happiness too.. Completed a song that I wish to record...
So in the evening, boyfriend came with Pizzahut... Wee~ Pizza treat from boyfriend... I know he love me a lot.. It was really kinda of a lot to us... But Thank boyfriend for the Pizza... Love it a lot... Boyfriend stayed till only at 8pm at my home and went back home...
What so happening on Saturday yesterday.?? Actually I had a great day... Had my actual recording of my dance... Went to our usual practice place at 10am but lot of those bangala doing work.. Not use to dance when they were kept on walking around... So give up on dance first and set at a place and rest while also waiting for other members to come...
Yesterday we did not really have much recording, was more on recording and having fun like crazy... I like this... Did my actual solo recording during the practice and also soon the guys doing some crazy actions and other things...
After practice, had Pepper Lunch as lunch with boyfriend and 2 other SDG members due to I want to use my coupons away... Try the Curry Chicken Pepper rice.. It was really quite great... Love it... Then after lunch, chit chat a little before going back home... Boyfriend came my house as usual to edit the video we recorded... It did took quite sometimes to edit just to match with the actions from the video...
Boyfriend went back home at 8 plus in the night as usual.. Requested boyfriend to re-edit my video due to the song not match my action and edited till 2 plus in the morning then correct...
Today was a little boring day.. Woke up with body a little aching and started to learn a new dance in afternoon and now giving myself a rest and updating my blog... Kinda of feeling useless from the chorus of the dance because I cant catch the beat... Being repeating that part again and again but I still kinda of confuse with the beat... Sometimes I do feel like giving up and in end, I think I still want to finish this dance so I can feel the feeling of the success... Hope I can do it...
Here is the video of my solo dance... Hope you guys will love it..
Going back to my dance practice now... All the best to me... Hee hee~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠4:17 PM
Monday, February 06, 2012 ❤
6th of February.. 3 more days and I am turning 23.. But I still feel like I am still 20 to 22 this age... My heart still remain this heart... But somehow my way of thinking have stepped into another world that make me feel so mature and even somehow I am not easily lost my temper and I will do try my best to control my anger... Anyway, I will like to thank for the drama that happen to me not long, let me see through the evil of what human beings are like, I have successfully without scolding any bad words even if I am angry...
Really feeling this period a little weak.. Having the nose block plus running nose and also sore throat making me dun feel like doing anything at all...
I am really jobless too... Have been resting at home and recharge my energy... Meanwhile also being trying to reflect things from my mind and changed myself too... I love to be alone at home with my Japanese songs on... It is just making me feel so much better...
I guess is time for me to catch up my Chinese novels real soon... Have been putting in the cupboard been some years because I am lazy to read up, spider webs appearing soon... LOL~
Look like I have nothing much to update again... All I can say I am really happy of what I have right now... With all my new friendship, I do treasure them.. And also love my boyfriend who always being love, care & concern on me...
Do check out my short version of my new dance.. Hee~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠3:27 PM
