Tuesday, June 29, 2010 ❤
29th of June... What a great day without work... Hahaz... Because I am on MC... Hee heez... Mmm.. Yesterday I on gastric pain for the whole day... I really kinda of uncomfortable... So today I woke up late so give up on going work and decided to meet boyfriend...
Out of my house at about 6.50am... Walked in the rain and reached bus-stop about 7 plus in the morning... Was not in good mood... Dunno why always not in mood in the morning... Took bus 187 to Bukit Batok... Lost my direction, slowly walked to the Bukit Batok Polyclinic... Set there for about more than 15 minutes for boyfriend and his friend...
Boyfriend and I looking for doctors at Level 1 and his friend at Level 2... Then waited for about 30 minutes about there... My turn first before boyfriend... Doctor commented on my gastric is that nothing serious about it... And it is weak in digestion... Sianz... I know it... Always like that.. That why cause the wind in my gastric too...
After doctor, took bus 157 to Bukit Timah coffee shop for breakfast... Seldom seem that one of the road that went to Bukit Timah was really jam... Stay in the bus for more than almost 30 minutes... Played with boyfriend things... Then dropped off from bus and walked to there but in the end was closed for spring cleaning so walked to Bukit Timah Plaza...
After that, his friend disappear and boyfriend and me took bus 184 to his house... Walked to his place for about 10 minutes... Slacked at boyfriend house... Because there is no place we can go... Slept at boyfriend's bed from 2 plus in the afternoon till 5 plus... LOL~ I super very tired... And boyfriend just set beside the bed playing with his laptop... Boyfriend still say me I very tired until like that...
Dunno why I very tired till can sleep damn long... Haiz... I getting older and older and also weaker too... Get tired so easily too..
Anyway, I love to slack at any places only with boyfriend beside me... Hee heez... I also miss the time when we stay in the hotel just for a night... Is really damn cool... Like a mini trip for us... Hahaz... Planning for next month our group outing with friends too... Shall be going to pub to play and ton at outside for a night... I miss this type of life either... I know I can't because I do have a strict mother who kinda of dun allow me this and that... That the boring thing I always feel... Haiz...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠9:20 PM
Tuesday, June 22, 2010 ❤
22th of Jun... I feeling useless and helpless in work... Feeling this every single day now and then... I really starting not to go to work any longer after since my long holiday end and I shift my seat to the back... I lost all interest... I simply wish to resign and get a better job... This job I getting sick each day... I dunno why I simply feel this so sudden... I have been trying to escape from work too...
Can anyone assist me what to do?? Ever since I move to the back, I know I will be leaving soon... I slowly become being leftout... No one will love to talk to me... I know I am a weird person... But I am born to be like this, an alien character... No one will like to hang around with me either... I have been experience this since young till now... It is not kinda of surprise...
Haiz... Hope tomorrow will be a Better day...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:57 PM
Monday, June 21, 2010 ❤
21th of Jun... Really Moody today... Totally feeling no strength... My legs having cramp after running yesterday... I have problem in walking down the stairs... Totally like cannot bend at all... Haiz... Need to be in this condition for about a few days so it will recover...
Anyway, I running again this coming Saturday... Hee heez... I know I need to exercise more in order not to get fatter and fatter... Because working in office, is easy to get fat than thinner...
Back to the main topic that I wan to say, regarding my Post in Facebook, everyone might wonder who is that SHE? I have to say that SHE is a female and is in aunty age... I dun wish to further explain... Just kinda of dun like the way she talk to me... I know I am young but is doesn't seem that is good to be like you are older and I must listen to you like this... I dun like this.. If you will in my shoes, how will you feel either..??
Another thing that from my post which give me a bad experience before, is my PREVIOUS workplace... I do have a very good buddy in work as well as like a couple... One time because I talked bad thing regarding on other staff to my this "buddy", in the end, the other staff know that I talked about her...
This "Buddy" said not she say wan and the staff very clever like whatever I say she will know... Hahaz... Kinda of joke... This "buddy" and that staff actually are very good friend also... They always talk on the phone very LONG LONG in the night like couple talking to each other... How can my matter can't be spread by this "BUDDY"??
I being stupid and trust her that she will not say out my case but in the end, this staff keep scolding me and one day gang up with another staff who is BIG size yet coward, shooting at me, scolding at me so loud in the work like wan to let the whole world know that I like to talk people bad things... I did not let out a single word as I dun wish to create trouble and I know I can't even had help from that workplace...
I called this "Buddy" to say everything out... Begging and crying for help... In the end, her reply was "Sorry I cannot do anything... I must not be bias to anyone..." Fuck sia... Is this called "BUDDY"?? When she need in help, I help her... I even help her to do bad things... I silly that I trust her so easily... I know I stupid either... I never always aware that danger around me that always make me so hurt till I had some kinda of mental problem...
After resigning from that work, I do have mental problem as in dunno who to believe in and scared of being backstab too... I even start cursing people easily in my brain... I just cannot stop thinking and relax my brain... Argh~
But after a few months, I started not to think about the past... Letting go of everything and have a new relationship and even drink beer or alcohol to freeze myself from thinking back... Or feel saddness...
This is why I will post the entry on my Facebook... I know I have been hiding things since I am as a child... I become so alien in the crowd... Just feel that no one wan to make friend with me either... I know I am coward in the past... But now I trying to change myself not to keep anything in heart... Try to share with my boyfriend or friends who are my girlfriends that do bother care about me...
I LOVE THEM~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:17 PM
Sunday, June 20, 2010 ❤
20th of Jun... Great day... Sight tired day either... Woke up at 7 plus in the morning and about 8am got off from bed... Bathed and getting ready to boyfriend's house... First time going for a run after graduated from my Secondary School... Wore my brother's Primary school national day shirt and my Secondary school short... Took bus 187 to boyfriend's house...
Bus was filled with lot of people... Damn I hate the crowd in the bus... Simply a turn off for me... Super boring... Drop off before heading to expressway... And went up to boyfriend's house... Slack till about 10 plus or 11 about there, went down for the run...
I getting so old because after run not long distance, I get little tired of running... Like not enough energy and my heart become weak like something putting on weight in the heart... Kinda of disturbing... But no choice I only can walk and jog together... Haiz... Super useless... Hee heez...
Ran about till 12 plus in the afternoon then went to his house to rest... Then down to the coffeeshop to buy lunch and also bought a drink... Then back to his house... Bath and ate my lunch while watching the Channel 8... Slack at boyfriend's house till 4 plus... Boyfriend sent me to bus-stop and I took bus back home alone... Keep falling asleep in bus too... But managed to get down from the bus on time...
Tomorrow is going to be a boring day again... I hate working at far place... Regret choosing to work at so far... Haiz... Shall plan to leave this job soon... I think I cannot take it anymore for the long journey... Keep on falling asleep in bus and no energy for work... Yet getting so LOW pay... Sianz... Yet come early also will never get pay too... Boring...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠9:06 PM
Friday, June 18, 2010 ❤
18th of Jun... Friday... Never go to work but suppose in planning to work for half day... Too lazy go work... Thought of getting an MC but in end, is No pay leave... Hee heez.. Woke up in the morning about 6 plus... Was really late for work, so did not go work in the end.. Rang boyfriend to wake up and told him I going to his house...
Took bus 187 all the way to Bukit Panjang and up to his house... Ate my breakfast that I always bring to work and slept on boyfriend's bed... As I am really tired... That time I was down with nose blocking too and sight flu... Cough is still ok.. Not that serious as yesterday... Slept till afternoon and was lazy to wake up to see a doctor... No one realise I was in his room sleeping.. Hee heez...
Woke up at about 2pm like that... Get ready to go to CCK Lot 1 for a movie... Took cab there as I scared that the movie might be in selling fast... Reached there about 2.45pm... Straight went up to the cinema... Faster bought the tickets as saw the flow is keep going on in the Q... Managed to get 2 tickets at the back seats of the side...
After that, went down one level to Food Junction for late lunch plus early dinner... After that, shopped a while... Walked around the shopping mall... Bought a thing that hang the handphone around my neck from Mini Toons and next to Fairprice bought a bottle of Green Tea for movie... Then up to cinema for the time to start for the movie...
The level 5 was filled up with lot of people... Crowded... Waited for about 15min... Then went into the cinema... The cinema was quite packed... There are a lot of kids too... And one of the kid at my back seat is damn noisy too much curious... Keep asking what happen this and that and WHY to his/her parents till the parent quite getting mad and ask the kid to keep quiet and dun ask... Hahaz... This is a good way to keep them quiet...
Anyway the movie is nice... Interesting storyline and is a success product too... I like the story either... Worth to watch... Hope there is more of this type of movie from Jackie Chan... Hee heez... Anyway, I like Jackie Chan act as pretend to be dumb but is really clever in anything of this type character... He is belong to this type of character... Joke must be present in the movie...
After movie., went to Sasa... Having Great Singapore Sale... Bought an eye liner at 20% discount... And then boyfriend sent me back home...
Tomorrow will be another interesting day... Having my outdoor shoot... I still thinking of what to wear... Seriously I dunno which style suit me the best... I feel like wearing sight hip hop and also my punk wear... Hahaz... But jus scared that the make-up artist dun think I suit that type and help me change to another style...
Hope tomorrow everything go well and also Sunday.. Going an early jog with boyfriend at Bukit Panjang... Super looking forward to that too... Got to go now... Sweet dream..
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:52 PM
Saturday, June 12, 2010 ❤
12th of Jun... Glad... Finally that boyfriend and me had walked that long... 6 months already... Happy 6th Month Anniversary... Hee heez... In the midnight about 12 plus today., I totally forget that today was 12th of June and I keep on thinking that today is 11th of June instead.. Because I was busily editting the photos of us that we went to zoo yesterday... Hahaz..
Had a zoo trip with boyfriend yesterday because need to celebrate myself that I finally had finished my exam and also an advance celebration of our monthly anniversary too... Had a great and fun day though we did not take any tram at all in the zoo.. Great exercise walking around the zoo till our legs get tired... Walked about 4 hours plus to finish touring the whole entire zoo...
We took a lot of photos of the animals and boyfriend simply using his latest Iphone to take photos too... Hahaz... But overall, Boyfriend did not take too much photos but however, my handphone contained full of the zoo trip photos... About 100 over pieces of photos... That was really a lot...
So I will likely Summarize what happening in the zoo trip.. Anyway photos are available in my Facebook not here... Because too much photos...
- Met boyfriend at CCK station at 10 plus in the morning
- Went to NTUC Fairprice for our tib-bits, because I had the voucher that I need to use..
- Took bus 927 from CCK to Zoo...
- Arrived Zoo about nearly 11am
- Walked to KFC for our lunch plus breakfast
- Bought the admission tickets for 2 without the tram ($36)
- Off into the Zoo
- Started off the left bottom of the zoo...
- Walked about sometime, heard there some voices nearby, quickly walked to that place and watch the animals show...
- Watched till going end, we started our second part of our trip again...
- Till get sight tired, set down at the Elephant place, ate our snack while watching the movement of the elephants...
- Took lot of photos either... Video boyfriend too... Hahaz... Kinda of fun...
- Continued our trip again...
- Felt that there is sight rain, faster walked to the nearby park which is the Kids world... Stop there for a while and also watched those ponys and goats... Damn cute..
- About 3 plus.., Finally finished our trip and took bus 927 back to CCK...
- Boyfriend supposed wan to watch his movie but the tickets are sold out, so no choice...
- Back to Level 1, Bought my eyes lashes glue for future uses..
- To level 4 for early dinner... Ate Korea BBQ Chicken rice while boyfriend ate the Salmon Pepper Lunch...
- Then Boyfriend sent me back home by cab...
Shall be planning more trip to other tourists places... That will be more exciting and memorable trip for couple... Hee heez... With lots of photos that are unforgettable...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:17 PM
Sunday, June 06, 2010 ❤
6th of June... Tomorrow is the day I waiting for... Exams!! Starting from tomorrow... And soon my LONG LONG holiday is coming to end and there back to work again... Damn boring... Haiz... How I wish the long holiday can take longer... Hahaz... There go a busy week again... Because have to catch up my work... Double boring... Tomorrow will be having my exam at SIM... Hope I will not lost my way...
Yesterday went for my modelling shooting for the portfolio thing for client to choose for the project... HAving quite fun and changed a lot of clothes... Is super cool... The make-up artist actually trim my eye brown bit silm... Look neater...
It take about 3 hours plus to finish my indoor studio shooting... They also recommend me for the outdoor shooting so that the client can have more choices to choose that the models are suitable for their projects... So my outdoor shooting will be next 2 weeks later in the afternoon... Wee~ I prefer outdoor shooting than indoor because is more natural...
Met boyfriend after the shoot... And to Plaza Singapura for lunch... Did not feeling great either because having gastric pain... Then walked to Taka to buy my favourite magazines... Boyfriend paid for it.. Thank boyfriend... Then walked walked a while... And walked to the nearest bus-stop... Supposed wan to take bus 502 but end up bus 111... Because waiting time is too LONG... Boyfriend sent me home... LOVED~
Anyway, 6 more days to our 6th month Anniversary... Breaking my record of having the LONGEST relationship... Never thought that we can walk that far... But am very happy to have him by my side when I feel sad, angry or happy... I will LOVE YOU forever... Thank for taking in my temper and my attitude... Never ever quarral with me and always cheer me up... Be my listening ears and giving me courages to do anything...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠3:40 PM
