Monday, June 30, 2008 ❤
30th of June.. Last day of June.. Worked in the morning shift until 2.30pm... Quite busy and managed to pass the time faster... Finish work at 2.30pm.. Went to Level 4 to get changed to outside clothes... And waited for BOYFRIEND for break to have lunch and dinner together...
Met BOYFRIEND at 3 plus... Ate food from a restruant.. After that, sent BOYFRIEND to Level 1.. Then off to Jurong East station there to meet Eric.. Trained to Plaza Singapura there to find his friends... Wonder around there for about 30 minutes.. And off to Vivo City for the movie...
Reached Vivo City at about 5.40pm and waited for Mabel... Then I went to buy the ticket at 5.55pm shown... After that, went in to the cinema... The cinema was filled with lot of people...
The POSTER!!
We watched the movie named "10 Promises to my dog"... This movie is damn good... SUPER TOUCHIN... I fail to control my tear and I did cried in some part of the movie... I also find that the dog in the movie was SUPER cute and clever... I love the dog...Think that many of the people who watch that movie did cried... Some even cried until like hell... But a few of the people are jus RUDE.. Still can almost fell asleep in the movie and also YAWN loudly in the movie... That is very disturbing...
When they will YOUNG..,
GROWN UP!!
The main character of the DOG, Sock..
Eric's friend came to find us after work.. Then we went back home together.. Took bus no. 166 first to Clementi... I slept all the way while other busily chattin... I was damn tired.. 3 weeks no OFF days...
Then we took bus no.99 back home... On the way, we chatted damn loud... Hahazz... Really fun chattin with them... Makin fun of Eric's talking too... Hee heezz... And reached Jurong, one by one got down from the bus and back home...
Yup.. Really miss my BOYFRIEND... I realy hope I can have more time with her to watch movie together... But we can't... Because of not enough people workin... BOYFRIEND had to extend and extend in the work... Made me so sianz... And also heart pain to hear her some complainin..
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:55 PM
Sunday, June 29, 2008 ❤
29th of June... Really a few days did not blog.. Yesterday I wan to blog something but in the end, I did not... Because I am too tired from work.. 2 weeks already yet no OFF day... Next week is another week of no OFF day for me.. Because really not enough people to work...
I have not seem BOYFRIEND for a week... I miss her badly... I love her more than myself... BOYFRIEND this few days MC that why did not come for work.. And I have to extend and took over her shift... Feelin quite unwell soon... But I know I will not that easy to get sick.. Jus dunno why... I have been coughin damn badly during work for sometimes..
This few week in work I think I have shown a lot of bad attitude to some customers... Because I am too tired... And one day need to repeat to the customers for hundred time of using the NEW UOB card.. Some customers dun even understand what I have said after I explained to them... Haiz.. PEOPLE please kindly read the condition and terms before askin us to service you all.. Dun always make yourselves damn PAISEH right in front of us...
I cannot take it one of the thing was that when I was servicing one customer and another customer shout at me to service her... MAN I only can service one customer at a time.. That customer seem cannot wait... I said PLEASE WAIT yet she still shout at me "EXCUSE ME!!".. I cannot take it and I gave her a angry face and ignore her...
Yesterday (28th of June), I almost quarrelled with a customer during work... He think that he got that AMERICA EXPRESS credit card then can show off... WTF... Still say that he wan to use that credit card... At first, I explained nicely to him yet he talked back so rude.. Why he cannot use that credit card because our outlet dun have that function... Somemore, he said that he bought a cake from us and can use.. EXCUSE ME MAN!! When we allow that credit card...??
In the end still ask for DISCOUNT... Can't he understand LISENSE CHARACTER cake have no discount... Somemore said that Raffles Place outlet gave him discount... They are noob never follow instrustions.. If we gave every customers discount, the office will check on us... DUMD la that customer... Different outlet got different style... UNDERSTOOD!!!
Jus hope that today later at work will be a better day for me... And I dun wish to show my any bad temper to any of the customers... NIGHT!!
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠12:48 AM
Wednesday, June 25, 2008 ❤
25th of June... Really soon goin to get my pay... Hahazz... Mmm.. I am happy with my life but I noe I might lost something in my life which is FRIENDs... Some friends might hardly hold on to it.. But some who understand me the most they will definely stay by my side and support me... I will not forget my two godsisters.. They have been stay by my side since Primary and Secondary school till now... They do support me whatever I done... I love them lot.. I jus feel a little bad that I do not have the time to ask them out.. Because I have been busy workin..
I can say that I have not have my OFF day from work yet... I have been busily workin for 2 weeks... Hope that Office did not check on me.. Hee heezz... When I wan to OFF, Jurong Point outlet sure will ask me to work... That why they always took away my OFF day...
Another day had past that I did not see BOYFRIEND... She now sleepin at her home... I do miss her damn much... Supposed asked her to come my house because I wan to hug her to sleep.. But she was tired and dun wan to come... So I let her..
BOYFRIEND I MISS HER.. I LOVE HER FOREVER TOO... I really dun wan to be separate from her... I wan to be with her till the time end...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:43 AM
Tuesday, June 24, 2008 ❤
24th of June already... 1st day already past that I cannot see BOYFRIEND... 23rd of day was a quite unlucky day... Because I had late for work... Haiz... I woke up at 2.21pm.. Then rushed to bath and asked my father to send me to work by car... No choice... Was awake by BOYFRIEND's SMS then bath, next ate in the car during the journey to work... Lolzz.. Late for 5 minute...
Anyway, thank for that SMS that BOYFRIEND sms-ed me... If not, I might continue to sleep till dunno what time... Work was ok.. But damn sad that not much people in the shoppin centre... So got lot of time slack at 7 plus till closing...
After that, after work, went home alone and kept Sms to BOYFRIEND... I am glad that now BOYFRIEND then realise me that I love her a lot a lot... I hope she can slowly understand my heart... I LOVE HER...
Now listening to a fake ANGELA song... That song really nice but too bad is not Angela sang... But the person who made the song upload the song online and said the song was belonged to Angela and it was her new album... But Angela's company had announed to the media that Angela did not have any new single album and it is illegal that the person had been doing this.. Because that person had edited one MV from Angela's album and come up with a new MV... The mouth of Angela really fix to the voice of the song...
Evidence...
Song name was "蒲公英"...
At first, I heard the voice was like Angela but when She sang to the high note in the chorus., it was not so nice like Angela... I wonder if Angela will really sang this song will be be nicer and more touching... Anyway, I found that this song lyric is really meaningful..
Back to my topic.. Today will be another day of not goin to see BOYFRIEND... I really miss BOYFRIEND a lot... Ok Got to go sleep now.. Later workin at Lot 1 at 3pm till closing.. Hahazz... Good night people..!!
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:03 AM
Sunday, June 22, 2008 ❤
22nd of June... Really had a long time never blog.. Actually have been busily workin... Ha I am a money minded person now... Jus think that Must earn as much money as I can and Girls no need to study too much because in the end still become a housewife always stay at home... Waste money to study...
Yesterday night really had a great time with BOYFRIEND.. BOYFRIEND came my house at about 12 plus in the midnight... I was so excited to see her come to my house.. She asked me to transferred the songs that she wanted to her handphone... And also helped her sister too..
At about 1am plus, both of us off to bed... With BOYFRIEND beside me on the bed, I really cannot sleep at all... I looked at her.. And kept on kissin on her every part of her face and body... We did something that we should not be done at my this age... And slept a little..
At 6 plus in the morning, I was being awake by BOYFRIEND's handphone alarm clock.. And I had been stay awake from that time till 9 plus... I watched BOYFRIEND's sleepin for really long... BOYFRIEND's sleepin look looked really like a little child.. Really cute...
Had a small breakfast at my house then BOYFRIEND sent me off to Choa Chu Kang for work... And BOYFRIEND went back home... I love BOYFRIEND really much.. No matter how angry or whatever, I will try not to quarrel with her... She is really the FIRST person in my life that make me realise waht is TRUE LOVE... Without any hardships in between us, we will not be able to maintain together...
Next few days (about 5 days), I will not be meetin BOYFRIEND or workin with her... I will miss her really badly... Saddness... Haiz... I MISS BOYFRIEND... I wan to be her wife forever and ever... LOVE :)...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:26 PM
Wednesday, June 18, 2008 ❤
18th of June... I have not been updated for some days because this few days really happen quite lot of things that I really cannot jus one person handle by myself... And I dun wish to say out at here...
I have been cryin outside, in the MRT, bus stations, or other places, alone... Nobody willin to comfort me... I thought my BOYFRIEND will be understandin and will come forward to comfort me but in the end, not at all... She jus busily workin with her own work... Do not wish to talk too much...
Every night, I cried alone in my heart... And I started drank a bottle of alcohol almost every night... But I think I did wrong... My skin sensitive seem came back to me... I hardly stop scratchin my hands and legs... It really look pissed me off by lookin the scars at my body... I hate myself... I become more and more ugly... I dun love myself either...
No one really LOVE me... Push me around, bully me or even make fun of me... I can say I am use to it since young... I know that I am the person who might uneasily accepted by people... I really really disappointed by myself...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:57 PM
Sunday, June 15, 2008 ❤
15th of June... Today is Father's Day... Yesterday was jus EVE... Morning went to Jurong Point to work... As usual work was okok only... Jus a little busy.. Because every customer last minute came to buy cakes for fathers...
In the afternoon 3 plus.., went straight to Lot 1... Went into the outlet to help BOYFRIEND.. Jus because feel that the outlet really quite a little busy... Many customers dun really wait for their turns to order... That the reason will cause other customers unhappy... We as the sale assistance cannot do anything to it...
Sales was not that bad... Really had a lot of fun workin with BOYFRIEND aand other staff... After work, went to Jurong East Entertainment with BOYFRIEND to have meal at McDonald.. Because the whole day we did not really eat much...
Ate till 11 plus.. BOYFRIEND sent me home.. When reached my house, it was nearly 12am.. I was jus a little worried that BOYFRIEND cannot get up easily because she workin from 8am to 10.30pm later... However, I still can wake up.. Because I work 9am to 10.30pm only...
I asked BOYFRIEND to come my house to rest but she said dun wan so no choice and I also cannot force her to come my house... Think that BOYFRIEND maybe still in the NIGHT RIDER bus on the way back home... Damn LONG... I also did worried about her... Because she still a GIRL after all... Quite dangerous for her to be outside late in the night alone...
BOYFRIEND I LOVE HER... I love to give her a kiss when we will sayin GOODBYE to each other... I will miss her when I never see her jus a day...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:19 AM
Friday, June 13, 2008 ❤
Today is 13th of June... Yesterday was 12th of June, it was the day which I am fully of emtional... Sad, Angry, happy all combined together... In the morning, I worked with BOYFRIEND.. BOYFRIEND late a little and I worked alone for that time... Yaya... Someone made me to being scolded by one of the staff in the kitchen... Because the day before, the bitch aunty went to answer the call and said the cake arrived.. The kitchen staff told her to keep the cake for the next day for the customer... And yet the bitch said OKOK.. And never told other staffs to take note of it... Somemore is in the morning which the other staffs including me worked in the night also never inform...
WTF she wan... The next day which is 12th of June... I checked the cake... The cake had not arrive... I called the Kitchen to check... The kitchen staff called back and said that the cake had sent to us and had informed us something... I asked him what time he call and ask him who the staff who answer... He dunno so I jus said I will check.. So I called BOYFRIEND and told her eveything...
I did called back the kitchen again.. This time I kena scoldin from the kitchen... He said that he will not make the cake again... I was like HOW AM I GOIN TO GIVE THE CUSTOMER THE CAKE without the cake in the outlet... BOYFRIEND called I cried while talkin to her...
This is not the 1st time that the BITCH keepin some important information from me... 1st time I still can forgive but this time I WILL NOT AT ALL... HEY BITCH if you tryin to make me into trouble., YA BABY COME ON... I am not afraid of you at all... YOU WAN TO BE A FUCKIN SPY in the outlet, I AM VERY THE WELCOME YOU BITCH!!
Worked till afternoon... The malay staffs aim-ing the BITCH... Lolzz... Is so cool... Keep forcing her to admit that she was the SPY in the outlet... Whatever.. I left and dun wan to stay there longer because dun wan to see that BITCH face so much... VERY DAMN ANGRY AND MAD at her... Causing our outlet for so many problems...
Went to level 3 to wait for BOYFRIEND for lunch... Ate lunch together with BOYFRIEND at food junction... And then accompany BOYFRIEND to see the laptop for a while...
After that, I went back home... Waited till 6 plus in the evening.., went down to Lot 1 again to wait for BOYFRIEND to finish work... BOYFRIEND extended again...
Finish work at about 7 plus... Then went to Orchard together... Went to HMV first to get the shirt changed that I last time bought for her... No more XL... So L for her... She said a little tight... No choice... She said is ok for her..
Next we went to Cathay for a movie... Watched that MISSING movie at 9.20pm... Together we can say that that movie is not a HORROR movie at all... The ENDING was SUPER LAME... The way that the director shoot the movie is SUPER CONFUSING... PRESENT PAST and back to PRESENT again... But dun care about the movie, as long as I have more long with my BOYFRIEND.. I am happy with it... Hahazz...
After movie, went home straight... Because my FUCKIN mother now control me very strict again which I hate it.... I miss BOYFRIEND... I really hope that I can stay by her side 24 hours everyday...
Sianz... Later have to worked at Jurong Point... Suppose to work at Lot 1 wan but was forced to work at Jurong Point... No choice I am being forced by the AREA MANAGER... They did not really asked me for permission... I am NOT HAPPY with the way that Area manager did... FUCK... Now my BOYFRIEND had to work until like hell because of the AREA MANAGER... Haiz...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:32 PM
Tuesday, June 10, 2008 ❤
What have I done during my OFF day..??
Mmm.. Woke up about noon time because BOYFRIEND sms-ed me... Chatted about handphone... Suddenly asked me... I asked WHY and is it wan to get the same phone with me... She answered back "MAYBE"... Wee~~ So glad we are gettin the same phone...
YUP... BOYFRIEND lated for work again... BAD GIRL... Always late... Got up from bed and off to laptop to check my mails and also jus wondering around my blog and friendster...
After that, do whatever that I did daily and off to my room again to start to on my DVD in my laptop... Time for some singin... Really never sing a song for so so LONG.. About a few months... I missed singing so so much.. Recorded two songs of my singin... Think that is time to practise more on my singing... Now my singing like very SUX...
After that, Off to PC game... Roller Coast 3... Not use to the game yet after playin quite sometime... Played till about evening time...
Really happy... Because jus now not long ago chatted with BOYFRIEND through phone call... Wee~~ Chatted for about goin 50 minutes... I love BOYFRIEND so so much..
Lookin really forward for our 3 days 2 nights tour in Singapore... We will be stayin in the hotel... And from the 18th to 20th of July... 18th I might not able to accompany BOYFRIEND much time... For 19th, I able to take OFF.. Will be goin to Jurong Bird Park then to East Coast Park for cycling... Wee~~ So much of fun like that... I am sure that BOYFRIEND will enjoy the days with me... Plannin to buy an expensive birthday present for her to surprise her... HEE HEEzz...
These are the song of my singing that I recorded in the afternoon..
(1)说你爱我
(2)Goodbye My Love
Please do leave comments about my singing at my TAGBOARD... Bad comments I accept as well... THANK!!
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠9:06 PM
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10th of June... Feelin quite happy this few days.. No more saddness... I love my life now without STUDY... I might be plannin to take private if can...
Yesterday midnight kept sms-ing with BOYFRIEND... Chatted about our future... BOYFRIEND always asked me this question "DO WE HAVE FUTURE?" My answer is always "YES!!" to her because as long as my love for her does not change at all, we will have future... Although we cannot live together, BOYFRIEND will be my LAO GONG forever and ever...
I miss BOYFRIEND so much because I cannot see BOYFRIEND for 2 days, which is today and yesterday... I miss her so much... I cannot always go out with her because we need to save money and also we do not have much time to go out together as we need to work...
Now listening to "FOREVER LOVE" by Wang Li Hong... I deeply fall in love with this song because that is the first song that BOYFRIEND gave me... That is the message that BOYFRIEND wan to tell me when we first day get together which was last year somewhere in mid-June...
We did break in endin of September... We patched back 3 times... And got back together real long in March this year and had been together for 3 months... We did quarrelled a lot... Maybe quarrel is our only communication to know more about each other... But I did enjoyed quarrelled with her... Jus dunno why... Maybe that can made her to put more forcus on me... Hahazz...
BOYFRIEND.. I promise to be with HER FOREVER... I will not break her heart to love other people again... BOYFRIEND is the only one and last I love... I LOVE HER 1314... PROMISED!!!
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠12:11 AM
Monday, June 09, 2008 ❤
9th of June.. Yesterday was BOYFRIEND and me 3rd Month Annviersary... Time for us being together since quite slow... I did felt this way... We finally managed to be together for 3 months.. In between of this 3 months, we really did quarrelled a lot... But in the end, we did said sorry to each other about our own bad temper...
As usual, we did managed to be happily again yesterday after had a quarrel on the 7th of June... I know I always make BOYFRIEND angry that because I really do care for her...
BOYFRIEND I only do LOVE HER one person.. I jus wish I can be with her forever... I really dun care how my parents say about me anymore... I also dun care how outside people look at us... With BOYFRIEND around with me is my greatest happiness...
BOYFRIEND always ask me when she can sleep with me... I always feel so confuse because I wish to sleep with her but I really dunno when can sleep with her.. All I can say I dunno when... In my own target future is I wan to move out of my family by the age of 20 plus because I wan to have my own life.. I wan to be independent... That is what I wan!!!
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:17 AM
Friday, June 06, 2008 ❤
6th of June... Finished work early.. I this few days no mood at all... BOYFRIEND broke all my promises... But I think my promises is not important to her, so I jus hack care...
BOYFRIEND supposed promise me to meet me for movie today but last minute she need to accompany her mother to go out, so I jus let it be... Because mother more important... Another thing is that BOYFRIEND wan to come my house tonight but in end, she not comin... I will not angry about this because BOYFRIEND need some rest or else tomorrow cannot wake up for work...
I am now being left alone, which I hate the most... I tried to control my emotion... But in the end, I can't.. I cried alone in my room... I found myself that no one really wish to care for me... I did GIVE UP everything including my future... Because I have no more supports from other people...
FRIENDs..?? I really hardly say one... I found myself I have NO FRIENDs at all who is damn close to me.. Everything that make me sad I jus keep inside my heart... That why I am no longer the STRONG person who I used to be in the past... Now I even hate myself that I have been talkin lesser and lesser to other people...
I really hope that I can have friends who are willin to accompany me when I am sad or happy... I wish that they can accompany me whenever I wan to go... I really need FRIENDs to care for me...
Now I realise that there is no one really can bring me any happiness... I can even scold myself CHEE BYE or any words that is very rough... Because people dun care for me what for I care for myself... I am the most STUPIDEST girl in the world...
I jus wish that I can leave the world quietly.. I dun even wish that people will cry for me... It is not worth to cry for a girl who always create trouble to people around her... This shall be the BEST solution....
THIS WORLD IS TOO CRUEL TO ME..!!!
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠3:37 PM
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6th of June... Haiz... So boring... Time check now is 1.05am.. Say real I quite tired but I cannot get into sleep... I am a strange person... I wan to sleep but I cannot get into my dream... Whatever...
Yesterday worked without BOYFRIEND... BOYFRIEND no work can happily rest at home... Dunno what she being doin at home... She can never SMS me for the whole day.. I think BOYFRIEND dun miss me at all... Sad...
But never mind is ok to me... As long as I love her... I will be happy... I jus dunno why I jus can't stop LOVING her...
Yesterday business in work was damn bad... Now got a lot of people in Lot 1 but nobody wan to buy our products... So boring the whole day... Have a little chit chat with other staffs...
In the night, there are some leftover pastries... So I decided to gave the NEW YORK NEW YORK restuarant there... The person gave me FREE MI FEN... Lolzz... I was so surprised... Anyway, I am quite full so I requested to him that I wan to take away...
Still got another week to go... The person who is one of the boss there will be not at Lot 1 anymore... Maybe at Jurong Point which is openin soon... Heard from them... No more FREE food from them... Hahazz...
Now I started to miss my BOYFRIEND... Wonder what she doin now... Haiz... I LOVE HER SO MUCH!! Lookin forward to later in the afternoon after work.. I will be go to her house to look for her...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:04 AM
Wednesday, June 04, 2008 ❤
4th of June.. Today is my OFF day... Yesterday work in the afternoon was ok... Went to the new restuarant named "NEW YORK NEW YORK" to eat lunch.. Ordered the Chicken chop and BOYFRIEND ordered the Fish and Chip... The person who wore like office style and looked like one of the boss came and treat us one free dish to ask for comment...
OMG... THANK man... That person is really good... Actually, we do know him because he kept comin over to our place here to ask about the business... We did not manage to finish the dish that he gave us, so we asked for take away... And give other staffs to try..
In the evenin, during work, quarrel with BOYFRIEND... Because of small thing.., she said she wan to break... In the work.., the other staff help me and said some very common sense things to her... But in the end, BOYFRIEND said that me and other staff ganged up and bully her... WTH.. I did not...
After work.., we walked our own... Cried on the way back home... I never notice people did notice me that I cried... Dropped my tear in the MRT while also quarrel with BOYFRIEND through SMS...
Back home.. BOYFRIEND said then said dun wan to break with me anymore... Now I really dunno what she thinkin about... Is She really do love me a lot or jus take me for granted..?? I hope to know this answer from her as soon as possible... Because I dun wan a PLAY PLAY relationship... I wan a LAST FOREVER relationship...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠12:15 AM
Tuesday, June 03, 2008 ❤
3rd of June.. Damn fast.. Is already the 3rd day in June.. I dunno I am a lucky person or god wan me to change..?? I do not wan to be a 2-timer person... Anyway, I will jus follow my heart not to change the one that I love the most...
Thank for Kang Shen's concern when I am down at that time... I can tell you that you may feel disgust about me and BOYFRIEND relationship... And I do hope that you can give up on me... I know that you are the nice person and I think that other girls might love you...
I admit that I have some feelin on you in the past but now I only have the feelin with you is friend... I think I cannot really give up on my BOYFRIEND... She is the one who I need the most... We might not be able to live like a normal family and she might unable to give me a name... But as long as I can be with her and stay by her side when she needed me the most, I will be very happy.. I dun need a name from her..
Yesterday work without BOYFRIEND.. MISSED BOYFRIEND really badly in work... BOYFRIEND also did not sms me.. Whatever she wan to do I will not object... As long as she is hapy with, I will be happy... I dun wan to quarrel with her anymore in future... I PROMISE TO LOVE HER TILL THE TIME OF THE WORLD END...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:49 AM
Monday, June 02, 2008 ❤
1st of June... Yesterday really had a little time with BOYFRIEND... Work was ok... But business was really really bad.. Had a lot of time end up chattin with other staffs and never really notice customers callin us... Hahazz..
After work.., BOYFRIEND did not send me home because her mother asked her to go back home early... No choice... I really miss BOYFRIEND badly... Hugged her when there is nobody and also kept kissin her at her cheek there...
I know that some people, who are male, keep lookin at us with some strange feelin... But I really hate people using that strange feeliin to look at us... It is really not wrong to fall in love with a girl... Somehow now I feel a disgustin to fall in love with a guy... And guys who really hate to see girl and girl relationship Please simply dun give any bad comments about us... KEEP YOUR COMMENTS TO yourself...
BOYFRIEND today OFF so I do not have a chance to see her... BOYFRIEND has to rest for today because last week did not OFF at all... BOYFRIEND I do love her a lot... Words really cannot be prove but Actions can prove that I do LOVE HER damn lot until I cannot live without her...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:42 PM
