Tuesday, September 04, 2007 ❤
Long time never come and update... This few days from 1st of September to 4th of September really happened too much too much of things in my whole life... First thing is my work because customer wan to meet the boss, 2nd is my relationship because of my mother (Dear wan me to be good girl and wan to break with me), 3rd is my family problem because I did everything what I wan my mother will scold me very fiercely... What I done are jus WRONG things to her... ENOUGH..!!
I really dun wan to break with my dear jus because of my mother... Everytime my mother dun wan me keep goin out... But I wan to go out because I wan to see my dear... Now between both of us, my mother keeps blockin our way... My mother keeps talk bad things about my dear... I really hate my mother... I already a bit hate my mother and now she wan me to hate her more... Everytime really dun have a PEACE at home... Everytime when I am at home must quarel with my mother without fail... I really TIRED already... ENOUGH of the quarrel... That why I dun like to stay at home...
People kept sayin that I really dun look like my parents... From since Primary school until now.., I have been thinkin and supectin that am I their child...?? Why the way they treat me is the different as my brothers...?? They treat my brothers so good encourage them what they wan to do... As for me..., give me a lot of comments and look down on me... Let me lost confidence in the things that I wan to do... Why do they wan to do this to me???
Now I havin a COLD war with dear... Dear kept quarrelled with me also... He also sometimes ignore me.... I really scared that he will not care about me anymore... I jus dun wan to break with him... I jus wan him to stay by my side FOREVER... What can I do to STOP all the quarrel with him?? I really dunno already...
I think I have walked to a place where the problems become HORRIBLE... I wan someone who can lead me to a place where there is more peace... I think I cannot take the stresses anymore... And I cannot manage the problems well enough... I cannot be STRONG again to face the problems.... I know that NOBODY is wellin to help me... Because I only have a few friends... Mayb less than 10 who are to be trusted... When I am in trouble, some friends might jus get away from me... Not willing to help me... I really wan to know what are friends FOR???
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:15 PM
