Friday, October 05, 2007 ❤
I dunno is it a good day or a bad day for me...?? I really got confuse... I am totally crazy throughout the day... Mayb so... In the school, I quite active... Talkin also quite loud... I also dunno what really happen to me... On the way in the MRT, I was not like that... I listenin to the MP3, kept very very quiet and show a sad face like wan to cry like that...
The TV artists also very difficult to find people... Because they are surrounded by the crowd of people... I also dunno how they can find... Heard from other friends that they did not find people... Only people informed them that there got pretty girl or handsome boys, then they will go over to the place to find them... Haiz... It is damn UNFAIR... Some more.., the huntin time is damn SHORT... 3 hours only...
Special Guests of the day is Mi Lu Bing...
After school..., went to see how is it... So it was damn crowded... And really no space to walk out of the school... Haiz... Then managed to see all the competitiors... OMG... The guys only one handsome who is M2... He is the tallest guy... His smile quite cute... Others are simply actin cool... Not handsome at all... Girls.. Jus normal lookin... I think that still got other prettier than them jus simply shy to get onto the stage..So I did not stay back to watch... Damn borin... Went back home alone and with my MP3 on... This is such a BORIN life... Got back home and the next thing is get into my room...
At night was the most worst part of my life... I was eatin dinner, yet my brother still can say SHIT right in front of me... He also describe how the shit look like... OMG... I said to him to STOP that... But he never listen continue with the SHIT... I was damn piss off and I started cryin a little.. I turned my volume quite loud... Then my father complained so noisy how to watch TV... Then I was more angry... I started to cry more... I stayed there for about 5 min... My parent saw me cryin right in front of their face and never ask me what happen...
The next thing.., I carried my laptop and took all my things into my room... I cried more worst ever... My parents still sittin there and pretend that nothin happenin... I know it... I was jus a transparent to them... I am not their daughter... I am jus a person who come and rent the room only... I am totally disappointed about the way they treated me... I cannot feel any love and care from them already... I dun like them... I hope that one day I can jus move out of this cruel family..
In future, I will try not to step out of my room again... When I got home, I jus went into my room and lock myself up... BETTER RIGHT... Anyway, I feelin that there really only a few people concern about me.. I wan to thank them... Specially, Xiao Sin Kor concern about me the most... When I am really sad like hell, I will sms him and he did replied me as fast as possible... And also willin to accompany me, cheerin me up... Thank a lot... I will not forget you as my brother..
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠9:07 PM
