Wednesday, July 02, 2008 ❤
2nd of July.. Yesterday dunno why quarrelled with BOYFRIEND.. In work, people thought that BOYFRIEND bully me... And the main thing, I also cannot say anything that between the both of us... Actually, BOYFRIEND did not bully me at all.. Jus that I dun wish to BOYFRIEND worked until so tired.. That why almost all the washing job I did...
I can said that I am super jealous because BOYFRIEND touched other people oftenly and also talked to them the most... Yet for me, I did not... In work, I always kept quiet and do my things... Because I am serious in work and I dun wish to talk much... BOYFRIEND thought I was angry with her... I am not... She wan to have fun in work jus go ahead... I jus wan to concentrate in work and work hard for money...
After work.., BOYFRIEND really tired and I can see that... She dun even think that I really care for her and see her like that make me heart pain... I really dun wish her work until so tired... She even lazy to talk to me.. I try to hold her hand she also refuse... I felt a bit of hurt when she did this to me...
That time, I was thought that I jus wan to let go of you... But I did not let this idea fulfill because I noe that if I let go of her.. My heart will be Super hurt... I may not have the strength to continue my life... Because of her, I have put my aim to earn as much money as I can, so that in future she will not suffer with me... I wan to give her the BEST thing in her life... I noe that she had been suffering since young... She do not have a very good childhood memory...
This time, I will be more understanding.. And I will not date her out in any of her off days because the off days are mearnt for her to rest... No more date between us.. I jus wan her to be happy.. No need SMS to me either because everytime she will be very tired to sms me.. And I dun wish to force her to do that..
As long as she still wish to be with me I am happy... I dun wan to ask for more... I hope that she can understand that my heart only belong to her.. And I was borned to the world jus because of her...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠12:21 PM
