Thursday, August 21, 2008 ❤
21th of August... Really feelin horrible... Yesterday had a BIG BIG quarrel with BOYFRIEND.. I think BOYFRIEND really not that gentleman at all... She jus simply not as understandin at all... Being a man is a failure... She even let me cry in the MRT...
Is that the way that a guy let a girl cry in the MRT and ignore her like this..?? If the guy say yes, Simply that guy is too selfish... A good guy will let let his girlfriend to drop a tear for him...
After I cried, I throw back the ring that she gave in into her pocket.. And I left the train and she even never chase me back.. She walked the other way and took her train back home... I was thought that she will chase me but it seem that I was wrong...
After that, she sms-ed me in a fierce way said that I forced her to say break with me... WTF... Where got I force her... In the past, she really did changed a lot... Not even really care much about me... When I sms her, she really did not reply me at all... However, she is willing to spend her time to chit chat more with other people than me...
I always request to her that can spend a little more time with me to watch a movie or have a dinner with me... She will always tell me she is too tired and wan to go home to rest early... After that, I kept shown her bad temper jus that I wan her little attention from her...
And I was wrong, she kept sayin to me STOP BEING SO STUBBORN and be more UNDERSTANDIN... And there she stop sms me "ILU" or either "IMU" anymore or other smses... No more sms from her... I was keep on wondering that am I your GIRLFRIEND..
The way she SMS me always included PLEASE and not adding the word that what couple say to each other... That make me feel like I am her best friend not girlfriend anymore...
When back home, I have cried at least for 2 hours... Sittin right in front of my laptop... Tellin the whole matter to my god Kor kor... Then he said back that maybe BOYFRIEND had no more feelin with me... That make me even more sad and more heart-broken...
After that cry, I no longer a happy person... I am a DEATH person... Now I have try to put on my mask to be happy with people... I dunno I can put on that mask until when...
People please tell me should I continue to be with her..?? I am damn confuse... I jus dunno why I jus can't easily break with her... Her mind was simply still unmature... Everything seem is my fault... Nothing she did wrong... I jus really hope that she can really give me back the love feelin that she gave me in the past and let me know that she can protect me FOREVER...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:54 PM
