Friday, August 22, 2008 ❤
22th of August... I am becomin a death person with no more feelin at first... I even try not to cry before my work... But in the end, I did cried a little on my way to work.. I so heart-broken when BOYFRIEND treat me the cold way which I dun love it at all...
During work.., I can't stop myself from taking the penknife and cut myself a few lines... At first, the injuries did not have any blood... Then after a few minutes, it starts to bleed a little.. Not so much... However, I dun feel any pain.. Because the pain from my hand is not as pain as from my heart...
Not long when I cut myself...
After that, the injuries is like red red... Now a bit itchy and a little pain... I jus wish that I can make more cuts on my hand to make it equal pain as my heart...
After work.., the cut on hand become not so red but a little itchy and not so pain... I really hope that the cut can more deeper if really can cure the pain in my heart...
BOYFRIEND even stop me after I cut myself... That was too late.. People who might know my BOYFRIEND can please keep the sercet because I dun really wish that both of us get into trouble... We jus wan a peaceful life in our job...
After work.., as usual took train together... In the train, I jus ask BOYFRIEND what actually she wan... I wan to let her to choose... I dun wan her to be regret...
In the end, I tried to make her to say out all her unhappiness in her job... I think I am success a little... Because when I am able to know more about BOYFRIEND unhappiness stuff, at least I am able to know how I can help her...
BOYFRIEND, I wish that she could know that the cut on my hands is not really pain as the pain in my heart... If I wan it to be equal, I might cut more deeper or more lines on my hands... This cut is jus a small case to me...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:23 PM
