Saturday, August 02, 2008 ❤
2nd of August... I have not been bloggin because I am horribly no mood at all.. I am not happy at all... I am TIRED with my life... Now I am jus like waitin for my time for the god or hell to take me away from this cruel world..
I have been cryin in my heart yet nobody notice me... Everyday work non-stop like no life... I found myself I dun like anything at all... I lost my interest in singin and many else... I feel that I no longer like to watch TV.. Even is my last time favourite idol show... I no longer love their singin or their actin...
I am cryin right now... I jus hope that I really can have really good friend to care for me... And always be ready whenever I need that person to complain about my life...
I have no more FUTURE... I always ask myself what my future and can I jus live like that... I have no more future... I even dunno what is my future...
I even no longer like to eat... Whenever I am hungry, I dun feel like eatin anything... I dunno why this happening to me... I am so so so strange...
In LOVE, BOYFRIEND had not being SMS-ing quite a number of days because she got her problems... And I asked her more she jus dun wan to say to me... I am somehow wish to know more and I wan to help her...
Money seem not important to me anymore... I dun really care about money anymore... Even though I have some money yet I dunno what to buy... Can money make me happy..?? I dun even know...
I wish to know that if one day I leave the world very early, will there people do really care to cry for me..?? Or even care to bother me... I seem I am a trouble creator... I am not worth to live longer at this world..
I really hope that BOYFRIEND now can give me a hug to cheer me up right now... Even though the people in the world dun care about me, BOYFRIEND cannot dun care for me... I am really very DISAPPOINTED about myself... I HATE MYSELF~~!!!
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:08 PM
