Sunday, August 31, 2008 ❤
31th of August.. I am so disappointed about myself... I am a FAILURE to be BOYFRIEND's girlfriend... I felt like cryin... But I can't when I am outside...
I try to find people to sms but none of them reply... I am too sad and keep in my heart... I cut my hand in front BOYFRIEND.. BOYFRIEND did not notice... Until like more than 3 hours, she then ask what happen to my hand..
I did not say anything... And she jus hack care me... She never show any worry about it... I dunno what she really think about when I cut my hand... I might wan to gain attention to hurt myself from BOYFRIEND.. Yup I AM STUPID..
But this cut is jus a small case... I really dun mind... Because I love blood... I think I no longer a normal human being...
I wish that everything can turn back in the past... I really hope that I can have a simple and loving relationship... She told me that she is really tired... And she dunno what to do to make me happy... I told her what normal couple do and she should know.. I dun think that she get it... Because all along she is like wan what things she will get it without fail...
I only can tell her that my heart is all along with her... And STOP always getting sick and without telling me... It does make me worry without any sms from BOYFRIEND... I jus wish that she can sms me more and never ignore me... I really scared to think of our future...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠12:57 AM
