Monday, October 27, 2008 ❤
28th of October... Jus past 12am... I am seriously break down... I dunno who I am... REALLY... My head is feeling damn dizzy after had a HEAVY cryin from Lot 1 till home continously... I dun care about the people around me anymore... Because the tears from my eyes jus come out like the tap water...
I am now standin in the middle of two love roads... Hope I can decide an answer really soon... But I really kinda of scared to make the answer...
Thank for Eric Didi for givin me advices and listening to my personal real life stories... Heard about other people relationship... And did make me realise something important in LOVE... Didi make me understand that If you are eating with your BOYFRIEND or GIRLFRIEND.., no matter how bad is the food is, the food will turn out very nice to be eaten...
I am tired of workin... And this problem only involve me and BOYFRIEND... And I dun wan anyone from work to be involve with... If BOYFRIEND wan involve anyone from work, I am really not scared to say out our own relationship in work... Because it is my RIGHT to say as I am her GIRLFRIEND...
I was so surprised after work because BOYFRIEND did not care much about me... Because after work, she jus left me alone there... I felt like "WTF??!! Is this how a GOOD BOYFRIEND treat a Girlfriend..."
I really admire that in this world, all the BOYFRIENDs do pick up their GIRLFRIENDs from work and try to send them back if they are FREE... This is what BOYFRIEND's job... And also keep their GIRLFRIENDs safe in the dark night...
Everyday I have to wait for BOYFRIEND's SMSes.. Wait till my heart sink deeply in the sea... Lookin forward for BOYFRIEND date me out since 3 months ago... But in the end, no date from her... Make me feel so sad and thinkin that do BOYFRIEND still like to spend her time with me... Keep thinkin this make me went almost CRAZY... And I do feel stress that make me think that am I a PERFECT wife for her...
I scared I cannot really manage the stress anymore... I really kinda of dunno what to do... Whenever people see me sad sad or emo face, they will always ask me what happen... And I really cannot say out because of LOVE... I cry out automatic... People will feel that I AM MAD... I try to contol my emotion but FAIL in the end...
WHAT SHOULD I DO??
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:59 PM
