Thursday, October 09, 2008 ❤
9th of October... Yesterday was 8th of October... And also Baby's and my 7th month anniversary... Guess what... Nothing surprise at all... I did sent a SMS at 12am yesterday to wish BOYFRIEND our 7th month anniversary... Then went to sleep..
BOYFRIEND did not reply or wish me at all... She everytime like that... Only the 4th month anniversary did wished me ONCE... Others dun care much le... I wonder what really happen to her..
I told her if she does love me then she must wear the ring... And she wore the ring but in the end, always never SMS me... I am feelin quite sad... I wonder where I have done wrong...
Yup I admit that I always JEALOUS... Because everytime other females sms her she will reply quite quickly but as for me, she ignored... She is not the one that I love the most in the past... In the past, she always SMS me without fail.. Told me everything... And also told me to MISS HER...
I everyday type my love life story at here jus because that wish that one day she can see this and understand how I feel for her everyday.. I have been sendin a lot of sms per day about how my love for her... Jus to wish that she could reply me "I LOVE YOU" that all... Because these 3 words really do mean a lot to me...
It is already 3 MONTHS that she did not tell me that she love me... I feel so like I force her to love me... I really kinda of dunno what to do... Friends have been tellin me that I have already give my best to love her as much as i can but she dun care... And one more thing I dun wish to hear is that from my friends is "What worth for me to continue to love her?"... When I heard this, I blurt into tears...
It is really tough for me to love her... Because our relationship must hide in the dark and dun let anyone know.. Always cannot get too near to each other when we are at work.. When people say about my BOYFRIEND with which girls, I must try not to be ANGRY or JEALOUS at all.. We cannot hug, kiss, hold hand or others together like a couple does when we are in the same attire...
I have been tryin hard enough to keep this relationship keep goin... I try to listen what BOYFRIEND wan and need and never disobey... Never ever show my bad temper to my BOYFRIEND but only BOYFRIEND can show... This is my rules to myself...
Why do I have this head pain quite often..?? The main reason is very simple because everyday have to worry about BOYFRIEND about her health... And also worry that BOYFRIEND might sick and tired to LOVE me...
On the 7th of October, I felt quite happy because I told my BOYFRIEND I havin gastric pain during work.. After work, BOYFRIEND bought something for me to eat... That really do make me high over the moon... And BOYFRIEND also did sent me back home by cab...
During the journey, we really did a lot of stuffs to talk about... I am glad that I do have a little time to spend with BOYFRIEND... The time was like went back to the past that we had ever...
I guess I do need some times to know what BOYFRIEND's heart is thinkin right now.. I do also need to know how much she still LOVE me.. I always wish that my BOYFRIEND can be the ONLY And LAST LOVE for me... I hope that she understand what I have been thinkin and know that what every SMS that I sent to her everyday... I LOVE HER more than I LOVE MYSELF...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:22 AM
