Always be BEHIND you (BABY) and supporting you in whatever you did...
25th of October... I decided to delete the last entry... Because I think I am too much... Maybe jus mood swing and wish that people can have a little more attention on me... I have been transparent to people most of the time... I dunno why this happen to me...
I dun wish to think back anymore or look back the pictures that I had in the past... They do make me so heart-broken... I decided to be more open... I wan a brighter future...
Today is the worst day of all... Woke up quite strange... I slept early yesterday about 1am yet I woke up at 9 plus in the morning... And still very very tired... Even I wash my face already I still feel like sleepin and no mood at all to do anything... Dun even wish to talk a single thing right from my mouth...
A part right below my stomach feelin not damn well and I am feelin cold yet other people feel hot as for the weather today... I am a STRANGE person... And guess what my period came find me today... Haiz... Very sianz...
I think I have become a very very weak person... Because last time, I do not have any pain from my body before when my period come but when I start to step out to work, the pain start to come to me... I hate the pain... Everytime now I do need the pandol to control my pain... Without the pandol, I am unable to things smoothly or feel like movin around...
Anyway, I am SORRY to those people who I have treated for today... I am damn SORRY to show my bad temper... Because I really cannot control my pain... Specially my BOYFRIEND... Although I have been bent down to let my stomach there to feel better yet BOYFRIEND only told me to see doctor THAT ALL...
I thought that BOYFRIEND will try to concern me more but in the end none... I was WRONG... Jus that I am thinkin too much...
Anyway, BOYFRIEND I do hope that you can spend a little more time on me... I know I am selfish.. But I never resquest much jus once a week that all... Because spend time with my partner is really important more than other things...
BABY I feel so sorry that I sometime scold you for your bad points or some reasons... Do you know after scoldin you my heart feel so bad and gulity?? I scold you because I wan you to improve.. I dun wan you jus livin in a world with no surprise at all... I wan you to be outstandin... I dun wan you to be so dark...
BABY I LOVE YOU!!
Counting down to our 8th month Anniversary ❤ 14 days
