Back to blog... I am not feelin well from yesterday till today... Because I have eaten dirty food... It happened after I have eaten the POLAR chicken pie jus one piece... And went back home, I got dierrea... Till now not recover yet... Although I never often go to toilet, but the problem is that my stomach not in very good condition... It makes me feel uncomfortable...
Today met BOYFRIEND in work... I tried to control my pain in my stomach during work... BOYFRIEND did not show any action concern about me... She busily SMS-ing to people... This is how my BOYFRIEND always treat me...
I jus feel that BOYFRIEND is gettin worst... Treat me so coldly since 3 months... Rejectin my date 3 months... Never say the THREE Special words for 15 days.. Never kiss me or hug me for 3 months plus... Never give me a little surprise for 3 months plus... Never read my blog at least 2 to 3 days...
Last time, I remember deeply that when she bought the laptop, she will wan to always appear online to chat with me using MSN messager... And in the end, she never appear online for 3 days and if she appear online.., she jus never reply me a single message... At first when she got her laptop, she did chatted with me continuously for about 3 days like that... Then slowly no more...
I wish to let her know that why I am always havin a black face... BECAUSE I am angry with her... And this angry is JEALOUS... Why do she always makin me Jealous...?? Can't she dun always sweet talk about R21 matter to other people who are females...?? I feel so ashamed to talk about that topic... Is really sensitive to me... But since my BOYFRIEND love to talk about that topic, so I jus followed...
Talkin to other females about this topic do give me a VERY BAD IMPRESSION about that person... Is a little LOW CLASS... People should have respect between each other... Sayin their private things like makin love to other is a bit disrespect to other people... I hope BOYFRIEND read this PLEASE dun get angry... This is jus from my view...
BOYFRIEND now seem very dislike to SMS me some sweet messages like what couple usually send... She said that I am immature.. I admit I am JEALOUS that she kept on SMS-ing to her DEAREST sister... Because now in her heart, her sister is the most important than other her GIRLFRIEND... I dunno why...
I am stupid to think of that is once I went to her house to do the laptop settin up.. Then her sister and her sent me down to BUS-STOP.. Her sister keep on standin in between us and hold my BOYFRIEND's hand damn tightly like tellin me that "SHE IS MINE.. DUN EVER THINK TO SNATCH HER AWAY FROM ME.."
Then BOYFRIEND suddenly did something disrespect me... I hit her automatic quite hard... I did not do for purpose... In the end, I kena beaten by her sister said WHAT I BULLY HER... O man... She should get the fact right before hittin the people... BOYFRIEND saw it jus got shocked and ignore me the pain at my hand...
At the sudden, I felt a SUDDEN THUNDER flash into my heart... It so damn fuckin painful... I felt like cryin... But I cried in my heart... Both of them do look more like couple... I feel so like LIGHT BULB... I told my BOYFRIEND that I am jealous about her sister everytime... But BOYFRIEND told me what for to jealous... I am jus thinkin too much...
Saw something when I was so boring doin some blogs hoppin... Went into 洪诗's blog from 我爱黑涩会... I find this really meaningful toward LOVE...
In english, She said that if you love someone, you will dun care about everything around you and wan to be with her...
If you dun love her, you will try to find a lot of excuses to avoid her... But in the end, still will say something that nice to her and make her happy... But in the heart, the answer is very clearly stated... The answer is NO MORE LOVE FEELIN toward her...
Last time, I often dump my ex BOYFRIENDs easily and now I finally got my punishment... I realise that NEVER EVER TAKE LOVE FOR GRANTED... Yup I admit there is a small period that I flirt a bit... That is from the time I graduated from Secondary till the time I met this BOYFRIEND who I am havin now... Then I realise that what is TRUE LOVE... And I stop to flirt... I decided to fully concentrated on her and try not to let her suffer...
I quit school and fully concentrate on work 3/4 of the reason BECAUSE OF HER... I wan to let her have good life and I dun wan to let her suffer... I wan her to have a HAPPY life with me... I forgive up all my target too..
BABY I hope that you can understand... Please dun make me always jealous with you... I do hope that you can at least spend a little time with me when you are FREE... I miss the time in the past... I did had a VERY BEST MEMORIES with you in the past... I LOVE U LOT LOT 1314... Please dun ignore me... I miss YOU...
