Thursday, October 09, 2008 ❤
Back to update after a long event outside... Jus now went to Sentosa to attend my cousin's wedding... And because of this I had to change my OFF day from Wednesday to today... Yet about 2 people in the outlet were quite unhappy with me of changin my OFF day... I have no choice... And I have reminded them one month ago that I need to take off on 9th Of October... I dun really know what they wan...
People wedding we cannot change the date for them and they should know this... I have been talkin nicely to my BOYFRIEND that I need to OFF because my cousin wedding, and also need to give face for my cousin...
Can't they jus understand my reason..?? I treat them good and help them when they are in need but in the end what I gain back was jus HATE ME!! If they really do wan to be so mean like this to me, WHATEVER to me... I will not care and be bother them in FUTURE anymore...
Today I change my hairstyle... I feel so a little refresh... I feel like startin another life style... I also feel so unhappy... Because I keep sendin SMSes to BOYFRIEND and what she replied me in anger tone was 'CAN YOU STOP SMS ME.." What the hell she treatin me now??
Scheme is all she plan by herself then still wan to put fault at other people... I do hope that I dun wan to speak any bad things about her at here... She jus not as simple person as I think... In the past, she really did quite lot of negative things.. She did borrowed something from me and never return to me again... Because I know her stage now so I jus FORGET it and no need to return me...
Am I too OVER SOFT-HEARTED to her..?? I dun really know at all... I also dunno do she still love me as much like last time..?? Or she has fall in love with other girls...?? I jus hate to see her always SWEET TALK with other girls... And also keep tellin other girls that she has no Girlfriend during work...
I am really feelin damn TIRED... I feel that I wan to GIVE UP... I hate the way now she treatin me... Sometimes so care and love for me and sometimes so cold to me... I really dunno how much she still love me... If I ask her do you love me, she will replied "Since you dun believe me, we better break.." She always told me this... And in the end, I told back her that "Always say break mean you never really love me seriously..." Then she keep quiet and never replied anything at all...
I felt so heart-broken... Should I jus continue this relationship?? I really wish that this relationship can be FOREVER... But it seem that I was WRONG.. I jus hope that she can know what her mistake... If she does really love me lot, she always hold me tight and never always let me feel so unhappy or jealous with her... I have been givin her lot of chances.. More than 5 chances...
But overall, I do scared to lose her... I dunno why... Why does she suddenly become part of my life so importantly and without her one day, I might feel that this world is ENDED for me only?? I do have this type of feelin... What should I do NEXT!!???
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:59 PM
