Thursday, October 30, 2008 ❤
Today the whole day I am at home... Really nothing to do like hell... So surprisingly I woke up so early dunno why.. Maybe I cannot sleep well because of my nose blockin... I really cannot take it... Today feel like SICK...
My nose block become running nose... Argh... Then sore throat a bit better but sometime it jus get really disturbing... In the afternoon, I felt so cold like I wan to down with fever but in the end, NO FEVER...
Evening time..., Dierrea came back again... I hate it... I went into the toilet for 2 times only... Luckily now better... I really dunno what really had happen to me this few days...?? I am SICK yet nobody care... EVEN my parents... If like that, I really hope that I can die through this few days... THAT MUCH MORE BETTER...
I am missin my BOYFRIEND... Wondering what she doin right now... Yet I am jealous... You all know what.. I thought is her sister keep sms-ing to her... BUT I THINK I WAS WRONG... Is her friend... NOT JUS FRIEND... IS REALLY BEST OF THE BEST FRIEND... Same surname... That why I am quite mad that I cannot get so fuckin close to my BOYFRIEND...
I feel that in between us this BEST FRIEND had become the wall between the 2 of us... I wan to get closer but she BLOCK me... I am so FUCKIN sad... BOYFRIEND keep on replyin her sms yet IGNORE mine... In her heart, where do I stand..?? I know is never ever No.1...
I do need my BOYFRIEND to care about me this few days really badly... Because I am not feelin well... I need her care I need her message to tell me to RECOVER soon... I feel so TIRED... I really have no more strength to fight anymore... Now is only if BOYFRIEND can turn back and come to me to hold my hand to continue the journey with me..
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:04 PM
