Monday, November 17, 2008 ❤
17th of November... I have a few days not update my blog... Because my mind had been thinkin a lot a lot of things... I really dunno what is RIGHT and what is WRONG... Should I trust all the things that happen around me..?? I dun even have my own decision anymore... I LOST MY STAND...
Today quite HAPPY with BOYFRIEND... I do hope that everyday can be like TODAY... Eat Lunch together and go home together... So happy...I have been holding BOYFRIEND's hand after work to home and never let go... Because if I let go, I scared that I will lost her... I really dun wish to go home... Really dun wan because when I got home.., BOYFRIEND will not SMS me at all... That make me MISS HER so so much...
Am I really think too much..?? Is it BOYFRIEND does always LOVE ME that much..?? This few days I do find that one of her friends really getting stranger and stranger each day.. Last few days, this friend suddenly came down to buy food from us and now almost everyday... After the day when she started to talk to BOYFRIEND happily... Laugh and slap BOYFRIEND's hand there I start to find it more STRANGE...
I watch one of the show... The host said that if the girls might have little feelin toward that guys, the girls might laugh and try to like touch that person any part of their bodies...
Thinkin over and over again... And the next day after the day which action happen, I stood at the place where it is quite near to the lift at the MRT station after work... So surprisingly, I saw BOYFRIEND's friend jus finish work... She went into the MRT cable which when she arrive she could jus take the lift down... But she never stay at the cable...
However, she walked to the cable where I am... I was busily SMS-ing a SMS to BOYFRIEND... I did not even notice that she walked past me... I jus feel that she SUPER SHOW OFF... Because when she walk past me, she dun even stop in front of me and say "HI" to me...
Why do I find she very show off..?? Many days before., she bought something from me.. She jus like dun dare to face me at all... I gave her discount but she jus paid the money without discount, took her things and went off so FAST so FAST...
I know BOYFRIEND jus treat her as FRIEND... And also even tell me that she got BOYFRIEND already.. But I jus scared that she might snatch my BOYFRIEND away from me... I told BOYFRIEND that she might fall in love with her...
Why do I say that?? Because BOYFRIEND last time told me that once time when she call one place, her friend pick up the call... Actually, BOYFRIEND wan to find a another friend who workin at the same place as this friend... Heard BOYFRIEND said she dun miss her and this FRIEND can angry for a few months... FROM GIRLs' view, this prove that this friend might have feelin toward BOYFRIEND that why when BOYFRIEND said she dun miss her, she can angry for a few months...
Even me this Girlfriend, sometime will show attitude to BOYFRIEND but when stubborn finish, I will try to say SORRY to BOYFRIEND.. Jus dunno why can't control my stubborness...
Another thing is dunno is it really TRUE that BOYFRIEND's friend do have a BOYFRIEND... Because if got BOYFRIEND, BOYFRIEND sure show up to send GIRLFRIEND home or either meet up for meal... But I find it super strange is that Everytime I saw her went back home, she always alone and never even talk on the phone... So strange...
I know I talkin this topic at here may make BOYFRIEND think that I am thinkin too much but this is only from my own view... I jus simply feel that this is my VERY FIRST time have a lot of jealousy in a relationship... In the past, though my ex does a bit flirt but they won't forget to make me happy and also show other girls that I am their girlfriends... BOYFRIEND SORRY to compare you again...
Maybe I am jus thinkin too much... I jus wish that BOYFRIEND do make me feel LOVE by her always everyday or often SMS me when FREE only... If you can do it to me, I will not stop you to SWEET talk with other girls anymore... But sometime when sweet talk please know the LIMIT... The limit is that dun ever talk about R21 stuffs right in front of me with other females... I do HATE this a lot...
BOYFRIEND I miss you and I love you lot... I PROMISE I will try my best to give you my BEST to you...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:42 PM
