Saturday, November 22, 2008 ❤
22th of November... Did not see BOYFRIEND or either receive any SMS from her... How I wish that I can know what she is doing when she never work... As long as BOYFRIEND tell me that what she doing, further more I will not disturb her...
But if she never tell me anything else, my brain will tell me that she is jus hiding a lot of stuffs from me... I jus hate my brain keep thinkin this stuffs non-stop... ARGH...
Yesterday night (21th of November), I sms-ed her a number of messages.... She ignored it.. And at about 11 plus, she sms-ed a message which I think like stranger method sms to me.. Couple will not even sms a "PLEASE" in their sms... It is too much FORMAL...
I never had a guy sms me like this before... Even my friends also never include a "PLEASE" before... She is the FIRST person to me... That mean is she is not really close to me at all to my feeling... I sayin this at here is that BOYFRIEND please dun ever use the "PLEASE" word in the SMS...
In the last, I am tired to fight back... In the end, I never reply because I cried... BOYFRIEND you will never feel strange that I never message back... Last time, I will try to fight back my right... I will quarrel with you... But now I no longer... I am tired already...
And now, I also find that my friends are leaving me... LOTs of friends... Not jus one only... I dun wish to mention their names... If friends really wan to leave me, I will let them be... Because I am tired to hold them back...
One more things I jus find that my body is getting weaker and weaker... My right leg is getting bad to worst... Because 2 parts of my legs are damn itchy like hell... And now it is getting like worst stage... I scared that if in future, my right leg will CHOP OFF... My injuried parts got water come out... I hate those water come out... I jus wish that there is something that I can tie on my injuries so when it is itchy, I will not easily stretch on it like last time when I was in primary school...
I wish that I can STOP that itchness on my legs and recover soon.... I hate those itchness... ARGH..
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠12:46 AM
