Sunday, November 23, 2008 ❤
23th of November... I really missing my BOYFRIEND right now... Sian... I dunno what happen to me... In the past, I dun miss my BOYFRIEND until like this before... This is my FIRST time experience this type of feeling... I really hate to miss BOYFRIEND everytime... Yet in the end, I dun even know my BOYFRIEND does missing me...
When I am missing BOYFRIEND really badly like hell, I will cry automatic no matter where I am... I really dun even care about what other think about me anymore... I lost control of my tears... Argh..
I simply wish that I can have a simple love with no jealousy and no hurt at all... I dun wan to have a SPECIAL LOVE anymore... Special love made me crazy all the time... And in the end, cause me EMO a lot... I hate it...
I hope that BOYFRIEND can always seldom sweet talk... I can see BOYFRIEND had changed a lot in her attitude... And I am very happy that she changed... But I jus hate myself.. Why I can't change my STUPID JEALOUSY attitude..??? Argh...
I wish that this devil in my body, who is controllin my brain, can stop making me think too much about BOYFRIEND... Everytime cause me BAD DREAM too in the night when I was sleeping... All the bad dreams are always all about BOYFRIEND has been betraying once again and again... And everytime I am the THIRD PARTY... I hate to spolit other people relationship...
BABY I do really hope that after you recover, you can spend a little more time on me... Because I have been waiting for you patiently... Everyday waiting for your SMS to concern me or love me.. Or even date me out since a few months ago..
One day, you never SMS me or talk to me, I will feel so uncomfortable, lonely, sad, empty and UNLOVED... Argh.. Sianz...
I do miss the time when you willing to take OFF and sepnd some nights with me... That time was my MOST HAPPINESS moment in my whole entire of my life... I really hope that I can turn back the time... We do look so formal when we were at the NIGHT SAFARI... Hahaz... And you keep complaining that you are very HOT almost all the time...
BABY I do hope that during my this coming BIRTHDAY, you will willing to spend your night with me again... I do MISS YOU so so much... I LOVE YOU lot too... PLEASE GIVE ME a chance to spend the night with you on my coming BIRTHDAY and this is my 20th birthday wish... Hope you wll help me to fulfill it...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠9:36 PM
