Wednesday, November 05, 2008 ❤
5th of November... I am BORED... Now waiting for BOYFRIEND to entertain me... But I know she won't... Sianz... I do hope that she can always SMS me to keep me happy... I miss her damn much... Miss her huggin lot lot... The whole afternoon I only SMS her about 3 messages but none replied back...
Jus now have the feeling of playin some online game so went to Viwawa... The game that I have played LAST YEAR and stop playin for quite a number of months, and now play again... Feelin sianz if I am playin with Strangers... If with friends will be damn FUN... Dunno why...
Played NEOPETS for a while... Yup... A small kid game... Lolz... But it is to make me learn something from NEOPETS... Can learn how to make business... And be creative... Design your own shop to attract people to buy things from your shop...
What happened yesterday?? Mmm... I suppose wan to buy a cup of Yogurt from my new friend... But in the end, he said that he gave his share to me... So good... He said he treat me... I feel so bad when I got a FREE drink from him... Next time should treat him back... Or else like always take things for granted really feel that quite RUDE...
After work back home, we chatted in MSN messager about how life... Chatted a lot... Also chatted about how our Secondary school life... Lolz... At a sudden, we did felt that Secondary school is the BEST in all our life... Hahazz... Because that part of the life did made us learn to grow up a lot... Most of people in Singapore also think this way...
Today suppose plan to go out... But in the end.., NO... So sad... Because my godbrother got to settle the pay that he had owe people for a few months ago... Date BOYFRIEND out but in the end, she said she need to rest at home after work.. So no choice, the whole day have to rest home...
Haiz... At the sudden, I do really MISS my life a lot... Last time, I can always go out easily when I am FREE... But now.., NO at all... Even I am FREE, I also cannot find a FRIENDs to accompany me to go out or to catch a movie... I do miss my past life... I hate to have the life now... Is really FUCKIN stress and tired... Sianz...
People always said that I am EMO person... Hahazz.. I admitted... Because I always do have the habit of watchin movie alone or even go out shoppin alone... Actually, when I was alone, I do feel so LONELY like hell... I even can't find a friend to talk with.. When I have a problems, I do always keep it in my heart... I dun wan to tell BOYFRIEND also because I scared she will feel stress... I dunno is this right or wrong...
At here, I really have to say out... I do feel a lot of stresses and hurts... From last year till now... Because BOYFRIEND rather tell all her problems and everything to her BEST friend, who really bu shuang me a lot... And I am always left unknown... In the end, I always being said that I am not caring at all...
I dunno I am should be in fault... Many people have been asking me that why am I torturing myself and always being so foolish to make myself always get hurt... In the end, they added the same sentence is that as long as I am HAPPY, they will always support me... I am so glad that I have friends like you all... Thank for always keep me accompany when I am DOWN and givin me advices... I LOVE U ALL friends...
BABY I have to tell you that Not I flirt always... I myself also need FRIENDs like you... Jus that I dunno why my friends mostly are males.. Yet only a few of females... I find it difficult to communicate with females than males.. I find that communciate with males at least I know what the males are thinkin toward the females most of the time...
BABY I feel so lonely without your SMSes everyday... I miss the OLD time with you... I remember that everytime you will send me a SMS to keep me happy every single day... I am also feel so happy when a male come and make friend with me, and you started to mad at me... This shown that you care and love for me a lot and YOU are JEALOUS.. But I do hope that you can show me more LOVE... I know that you are tired but at least when you FREE, date me out like once a week... This won't take you a lot of time... Once a week is enough for me... I dun dare to request for anything else...
I hope that my comin birthday you will give me a surprise or celebrate with me... As it is my 20th BIRTHDAY... I hope that I can celebrate with my LOVED one... I am always lookin forward that one day I can celebrate with my BOY..
BABY I LOVE U... Not lie-ing to you.. Is comin out from my TRUTH HEART...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠5:33 PM
