Friday, November 28, 2008 ❤
Have been waiting BOYFRIEND's reply or some little chat since afternoon.. But in the end, BOYFRIEND ignore all of my messages and refuse to chat with me... Why do she change to another person..??
People around me keep telling me something that make me feel that I am the one who is thinking too much... But do people understand that when BOYFRIEND right in front of me show me her TRUE person to me??
I feel super hurt by the way she treat me... No word can really describe the hurt... So painful... Everytime I sms to her how much I feel toward her and also did tell her the bad point of her... But in the end, she did not bother to reply back... She jus open the messages then ignore it straight away...
I even can feel about how she feel after she receive the SMS-es... I even can sense how people feel because that is my power in my body... Sometime I even can tell the future... But the pictures that about future often appear during in my dream... But it is quite unclear.. And everytime I have to guess...
BOYFRIEND if you do LOVE me, PLEASE sms me more often... I REALLY BEG YOU... Now in my life, I do need a BOYFRIEND to give me happiness and move on my life by giving me support and courage... But BOYFRIEND you are still not the one who is willing to give me all this...
I remember the very first time you keep SMS-ing me... I was crying really badly... That was about 2 years ago... Because I felt stresses in my life and I am unwilling to continue my life... And you are the one who keep SMS-ing me giving me advices and keep telling me that I must look at a bright side... You even keep accompany me almost the whole night... I am also happy that you even try to avoid your friends and went to one side to chat with me instead... That was my best memories that I first met you...
When we first started relationship, you even tried to wake up early to send me to school... I know that you have tried your BEST to rush to my house and send me to school.. I know that time I was quite not mature... I even not so happy that you arrive late at my house... I know I should not be unhappy... I should be touched by what you have done to me....
Thank you BABY what you have done in the past... I do feel happy that I have you by my side... I even feel so happy that whenever you saw me, I can see the tiredness from you... You even force yourself that not to lie your head on my shoulder although you are tired... I feel so heart pain when I saw you fell asleep when we were on a date...
If time can really turn back.., I beg god can turn back to the time when I first met her and I will try to change the history unlike the time like now... IF I DO HAVE THE CHANCE... Now I only can say that BABY please recover soon from your sickness... Or else you will feel more uncomfortable after you do laser-ing... And now you also must try your best to make your body not so weak...
BABY I LOVE YOU... But please do LOVE me more... My heart never ever change... And I will try my BEST to wait for you...
These are some randoms photos are I have done in the afternoon... Audition games and my little eating after finish work at home...
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