Tuesday, December 23, 2008 ❤
23th of December... Yesterday was the FIRST day to work at Jurong Point.. It was so call not so BUSY day yet I can tired like hell.. From the morning till night... Jus kinda of busy with the things.. I did a lot of things in work... Yet I found that I have not enough time to drink some water or go for a Toilet...
I have been realising that some aunties always LOVE to chit chat and never do work... But however, I feel bad to hate them as they treated me so good... Always buy me food when they saw me hungry or whatever... That why I always never hate them... And I jus dun wan them to be tired.. So I do all the washing trays and carry heavy stuffs..
Yesterday BOYFRIEND did came down to Jurong Point to collect her cake... Jus dunno why I do feel jealous... Maybe because people who are jus friend with her can get a present from her but as a GIRLFRIEND of her will not get a present from her at all or either a SURPRISE from her...
Thinking in my mind and heart., the BEST and UNFORGETTABLE present is the 3 GOLDEN WORDs coming right from her mouth at the RIGHT time... Mmm... I will not think that BOYFRIEND really can do it because she do not belong to that person anymore... But last time she was belonged once...
I jus feel that Be her girlfriend must understand her everything, and be more understanding not always show stubborness or bad temper to her... When she need someone to anger on, GIRLFRIEND should be the punch bag to let her release her anger on... Must always behave like an adult... More mature on own thinking so that can help BOYFRIEND when she got trouble...
And I am tring hard to be ONE.. I wan to be her perfect wife.. I working hard on it... But jus that whenever she scolded me, I jus feel like crying... I dun have any strength to fight back with her... And also when I saw her, I dunno why do my heart beat jump so fast..?? And when I am nervous, my hands keep shaking like Earthquake.. Like no strength.. Why do I still have this feeling on her..?? Why is not her to have this feeling..?
Haiz... Later working damn LONG Hours again at Jurong Point... Anyway, jus hope that dun be so BUSY... I hate to be busy... Because I am lazy to do things... But I force myself to do... It is damn TIRING.. Sianz sia...
Saddness.. Dunno what happen to me... On the 22th of December, I have a cut on my RIGHT hand TOP part.. And guess what I have another cut on my LEFT index finger jus YESTERDAY... 1 day 1 cut... Dunno later will I accidently cut myself again?? It is really pain and a small cut had caused to pain...
Lastly.., BOYFRIEND I LOVE YOU~~ Hope that you will miss me in this few days without seeing me...
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