26th of December.. It is already past Christmas... I am really quite happy about my day... Though without BOYFRIEND accompany me by my side... Without me by her side, she als do not feel anything or what wan... As long as she got friends around her, she will happy like the world has ended...
During Christmas, I did received some presents... Wee~~ First time got Christmas present... This is a return... As I bought them a Log cake for the aunties to eat... They bought a box of chocolates and a doll, Mickey Mouse's Girlfriend... Lolz.. Really must thank them a lot.. This few days they did treated me a lot of things...
Later returning to my own original workplace... And I really kinda of dun feel like goin to work at all... Jus dunno why... I jus had this feeling...
I also not so look forward to see BOYFRIEND at all... Because BOYFRIEND changed a lot a lot... Not like the one in the past that I love a lot a lot... The way she talk to me and other people are TOTALLY different... The way she talk to other people are really FLIRTING.. Making me feel so DISGUSTED... Sorry for saying bad things at here... As this is my BLOG...
I no longer love to hear BOYFRIEND sweet talk to me... Because BOYFRIEND's sweet talk often being heard so oftenly when she talked to other people... So othing special to me anymore... I no longer look forward for BOYFRIEND saying those 3 Golden words to me anymore...
I now only miss the old BOYFRIEND badly... I know that the old BOYFRIEND will not be back again to come and love me... My brain and heart keep thinking again and again that when will the old BOYFRIEND will come back again...
Now I no longer understand what BOYFRIEND's thinking and feeling... Everything she is being hiding from me... She even dun bother about my worry for her... I do really feel regret that why gods wan me to meet her in my life?? That time I should jus follow my friend reject this damn TIRING work... So that I will not able to have a chance to meet her...Anyway, what happen already happen... I jus hope that everything will become smooth... I do really look forward about BOYFRIEND and my 10th month anniversary, my 20th birthday and also my FIRST Valentime day... I hope that BOYFRIEND can do her part as a guy to give me as a girlfriend a SURPRISE... I really very very tired and stress to continue to contribute the LOVE by my ownself only...
Lastly.., BABY HUBBY I still LOVE you a lot a lot... Hope that you can change back to the one that I love the most in the past..
