2nd of December... Stay at home for the whole day again... Since woke up keep watching 不良笑花 till now... Really nice, funny, touching... I really feel touch that those guys can fight for their TRUE love for the girl... Really so admire... But I know in real life it can be impossible...

I also being thinking about BOYFRIEND... Worrying BOYFRIEND... But she is like do not bother about my worry... Finding excuses again... Why does she wan to keep behaving this way?? I trying hard to change... But I think quite impossible.. What past is past... My cheerful and happy always character has been GONE forever when the time that BOYFRIEND hurt me last year...

I remember that time I cried a few months non-stop almost everyday... I dunno she does care or not... That is the time that how I change to a person more COLD and easily being dislike to other people...

Now I realise that since a few months when she stop dating me out... She only SMS me when she need my help only... I now really confuse about the love that she has for me... If she dun need my help, I might be jus a nobody to her in my heart... I try to understand her and try to LOVE her even more but she dun really give me a chance...

I wonder am I jus a replacement for her to talk when she really bored and nobody wish to talk with her...?? I remember last time when the time nobody trust her, Only me by her side, keep supporting her and make her feel that she is RIGHT.. Yet even her closet friend last time not so like her as they quarrelled...

But now, I become more and more cold to BOYFRIEND... I really dunno is this a good thing or a bad thing... I do hope that BOYFRIEND can really do LOVE me more... I do hope that she can be like those boys in the EARTH love their girls like that...

I do feel tired everytime have to worry about BOYFRIEND everything and yet keep SMS her and BOYFRIEND did not reply me anything to tell me that she is OK...

BABY I hope that you can read my blog everyday and know how I feel everyday... I hope that you also can know that if anyone in the world look down on you, dun ever feel scared or unhappy because I am always there for you to LOVE you and also to support you to continue to walk the whole journey... I am also willing to spend my life with you...