Wednesday, December 03, 2008 ❤
ARGH... I missing BOYFRIEND right now.. And also damn WORRY about her... Why dun she ever wan to send me a SMS to let me dun be so worry...?? Why do she wan to be like that to me...??
I feel so disturbing to her nowaday... Keep sending sms to her and yet she never reply a single one... My handphone bill also did increase... Sianz...
Why do she wan to treat me this way..?? If other people she will not treat them like this... WHY OH WHY!!?? FUCK sia... Sianz... MILLION SIANz... And tiring... -.-" What the FUCK... Lolz... Haiz...
What am I doing...?? I also dunno... Haiz... Now still waiting for a chance that BOYFRIEND will sms me... I think is jus 0.000001% only... Because I am not the important GIRLFRIEND to her anymore... I think I have to stop myself and stop lie-ing to myself that she still like last time love me very very much... IF continue like this I think I will got into MENTAL HOSITPAL one day in future... Is really true... Last time I almost gone CRAZY because of her...
I think I do need time to think that if this relationship can be really FOREVER.., I really dun wan keep hurting myself... People are RIGHT.. What for if you love a BOY SO hard yet in the end, that BOY really dun care or love you that much.. What WORTH for me to LOVE that BOY MORE...??
People also complain to me that I should give other BOYs, that do LOVE me, a chance to be with me so that I will not be always HURT... I already reject some guys in the past ago... And I do feel so bad... And now I no longer their friends... I lost them as friends... I am sad...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:45 PM
