Saturday, January 17, 2009 ❤
17th of January... Nothing special happen as usual... Dunno why always feel that LACK OF SLEEP everyday... I really very sianz everyday have to wake up... I wish that I can have a LONG LONG sleep... I have told my mother that on the Chinese New Year first 2 days I will not goin anywhere... I will be staying at home to rest... I dun mind collecting money from other people... I really NEED MORE REST...
I really missing BOYFRIEND right now... Yet BOYFRIEND really dun feel it at all... I do need her badly but she is not by my side... At the sudden, I feel so much USELESS... Sometime people say something that really hurt my heart, yet I jus dun wan to show that I am hurt and forcing myself to smile and laugh with them together... I am really tired...
I not seeing BOYFRIEND often like other normal couples... Jus feeling that though I have a BOYFRIEND, but I still feel I AM SINGLE.. I wonder when BOYFRIEND can make me feel that I am really in relationship... Every her SMS I am always looking forward...
This time round I tell myself not to be stubborn anymore... Told myself must believe myself that BOYFRIEND still love me that much... But yet I dunno BOYFRIEND really love me that much... I am deeply hurt by BOYFRIEND's some actions...
Now I must only be STRONG on my own... No one can really help me or come forward to care for me... I AM ALL ALONE..!!
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:51 PM
