Tuesday, January 20, 2009 ❤
Another useless day... I dunno what actually happen to me... I feel so BREAK DOWN... I cry so oftenly... Yet none of the people really come forward to care for me... INCLUDING BOYFRIEND...
I SMS-ed her saying that I need her... Yet there is no reply from her... Why did she treat me so coldly...?? Is it she is tired of LOVING me..?? Why everytime other friends got problems they can call her yet I can't?? Everytime I always dun wan to call her because I dun wan BOYFRIEND too worry about me...
In work.., I seriously treated them as friends but now I am WRONG... They jus treat me as those naughty playful kids, who dun really dunno anything at all... Thought that I am talking rubbish to them... I simply being hurt by those people... I feel so regret that why do I treat them so nicely yet they jus treat me like a kid... And the worst is that some of them take advantages of me... All those stuffs that need a lot of energy to do leave it to me...
I am tired of everything... I need some pills that can cool me down... I do need something that can really make me calm and relax... I feel like smoking... But I scared of that smoke really strong...
I am all alone in this TOUGH journey right now with no one supporting me... I AM TIRED!!
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠2:46 PM
