Sunday, January 18, 2009 ❤
Is another day again... Thought that I can sleep longer, but in the end, I wake up early... Because feel so disturb by a thing inside my heart and brain... This thing keep asking me lot of question till I cannot sleep properly...
But this thing really ask a really good question to me.. And make me keep thinking over and over again...
This thing has been asking me about my relationship... It ask me that do my BOYFRIEND really LOVE me that much.. If she does, then why do she always dun really spend some time on me instead with other people... Why I always try to SMS her to chat but she never reply..?? Why she only answer other people call?? Why do other people like to act cute in front of BOYFRIEND and yet BOYFRIEND dun really feel disgust?? Why do BOYFRIEND seem dun worry and dun bother when I am hurt or being bully by other people...?? Is she really LOVE me a lot or she jus wan to take advantage of me..??
I really dun wan to answer all this question... Because whenever I answer, my heart hurt so badly.. BOYFRIEND really sometimes care a lot about me but not very often.. She also LOVE me but she never always express herself much that she love me... I often feel so DISGUSTED when other people act cute in front of BOYFRIEND and also being so JEALOUS...
If I truely LOVE a person, when other guys act cute in front of me, I will always say something that HURT them or jus ignore their actness... That why other guys always say me DUN ACT COOL... Lolzz... Simply jus feel that other guys act cute feel so GAY... However, if BOYFRIEND act cute, I will feel that BOYFRIEND is so CUTE...
I am really confuse and also feel so stress... Another also feel so WORRY that BOYFRIEND dun really LOVE me that much like in the past... Because all her messages to me is "Dun think so much" or others... But the MAIN thing that only she can send me is that "Dun think so much.. I still LOVE you..." Something like this will make me think that BOYFRIEND love me a lot... And her heart only belong to me... The magic word is "I LOVE YOU".. That is the POINT that really dun make me think too much...
Anyway, I do hope that she can understand my thinking... Because she is the FIRST person I put in a lot of LOVE... And I have give up a lot of thing jus to concentrate to LOVE her and try to give her happiness... Other past BOYFRIENDs dun get it from me ONLY HER... Hope that she can be serious with me... I LOVE YOU BABY HUBBY...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠12:14 PM
