Saturday, February 21, 2009 ❤
21th of February... Really in no mood at all.. My heart bleeding badly... And I told myself not to cry anymore.. Morning I kept SMS to her till her inbox blast... Because I wan to keep this relationship LONG and I dun wan BOYFRIEND keep hiding things from me..
I made her angry because I said some harsh words to her as I am really jealous like hell... BOYFRIEND did not care I jealous or not... BOYFRIEND now changed a lot till I really dunno... BOYFRIEND love to tell her problem to her only one BEST FRIEND... She also love to keep cover her best friend in work when her best friend got problem... However, as for me, she really did not fully help me... I wonder what I am to her.??
Maybe jus a SIMPLE of the 3 words "I LOVE U" from her can solve all these problem... I will not always being jealous... Why can't BOYFRIEND understand my heart..?? I jus wan her LOVE... But yet she really keep cannot give me fully..
I asked her to spend a little time on me... She say not free, busy or either she need rest but yet she does have time for others... If she dun love me, she can jus tell me and I will jus let go... But why do she still wan to let me suffer like this..??
Maybe the history might appearing again... She also stead with one of her ex till one year break... I really scared that this will happening to both of us again... In the past, I told her if she feel tired about that person, please let go... This will make herself better.. I dun understand myself why I can easily fall for her...
I really give up on my studies to continue to work as hard as I can for her to spend my money... And dun wan to let her suffer... I wan her to have a better life with me... This is all my thinking from the past when I wan to quit school that period...
I really in LOST right now... I jus wish that gods can help us and dun make us continue to be like that so cold toward each other... I really put in lot of money, love and efforts on her... I hope that she can be the LAST...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:51 AM
