Wednesday, February 04, 2009 ❤
4th of February...BOYFRIEND hurt my heart so badly ever... This is the FIRST time in my life I ever experience of all my steads... None of my steads scold me right in front of their friends... Because they dun even dare to make me feel cry and they see me cry they will feel heart pain or will come forward try to hug me to cheer me up...
BOYFRIEND will not do that to me... I know it... Because to her, girlfriend really jus not too important to her... Only friends and family... I know that family are important.. But friends are important than girlfriend... In my life and to other people in the world.., they can say that GIRLFRIEND are most important than FRIENDs... Because Girlfriend is goin to be own future partners... Not jus play around...
Even if they are really busy, they try to arrange a little time jus to accompany their girlfriends... If they really cannot make it, they even will try to tell their girlfriends first...
I did my BEST to be understanding to BOYFRIEND but do ever BOYFRIEND also be understanding a bit?? Why do she scold me in front of her friend...?? It make me feel that she jus gang up with her to bully me... And I feel that BOYFRIEND dun help me so much.. How will it she feel if one day I scold her right in front of her friend..?? I had once experience and I dun wish to happen again... It feel so much BETRAY... And it happen once before in my SECONDARY life...
Haiz... Many people keep telling me that I have think too much... But it does... I mean if BOYFRIEND keep dun tell me about her things often, I will feel that BOYFRIEND dun really LOVE me a lot and feel so regret to be with me... And start to suspect she flirting around and dunno which sentence that she speaks to me to trust or not.. I so much confuse... I dun wish that I wan to think too much...
I am always the ONE who being left unknown from her... I am her GIRLFRIEND yet I dunno much things about her... I am not the most important person who can help her when she need help... I am not the one who she relies on everytime... All these things deeply make me feel that I am jus a USELESS girlfriend to her...
I really dunno how to do... I am really feel so stress... Because she dun share her things to me... Even make me always feel hurt... I wonder when she can be more understanding and more gentleman to GIRLFRIEND... Last time she is not like this... I wonder why she CHANGED!!
This entry I jus wan to speak out what I have been feeling this period not saying BOYFRIEND bad things... I am not in anger now yet my feeling is SAD... I wish that BOYFRIEND can say that "I LOVE U" to me again... But I think it is impossible for her to say that to me...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠9:31 PM
