Thursday, February 05, 2009 ❤
5th of February.. Haiz... I wonder what happen... This time I and BOYFRIEND quarrelled again... Is not a small is quite BIG... I jus dunno why BOYFRIEND now changed last week is not like that wan... But YESTERDAY she changed...
I had jus recovered from those sore throat and flu but yet quarrelled with BOYFRIEND and cried with anger.. All my sore throat and flu are BACK... And now flu gone but sore throat not fully recover... Sometimes I eve have enough voice to talk...
I jus dunno why when BOYFRIEND's friend is with us, BOYFRIEND's attitude can change so FAST and keep making me get mad and jealous... Yet BOYFRIEND dun really know that I am jealous and keep asking me that why my face so BLACK...
I AM SO FUCKING JEALOUS... Because BOYFRIEND always treat me as transparent when her friend is with her... When BOYFRIEND talking happily to me, I notice that her friend's face SUPER NOT HAPPY and so BLACK... I have a strong sixth sense that she really trying to break us up... And that time I once MC she super BU SHUANG...
HELLOz EXCUSE ME... I am really unfit to work this is the 2nd time in work I took MC... Not I always take MC... That time MC I even dun have a VOICE to talk... Yet really BU SHUANG me take MC...
Now I keep disturbing BOYFRIEND trying to see that she will reply or not... I guess she really side her friend than me... Haiz... She dun really LOVE her girlfriend that much.. And I should know it earlier... Is this LOVE can be continue..?? I really hope can and now I trying hard to hang on but yet BOYFRIEND does not show any hardwork in this relationship... Feeling like wan to let go and really dun care much about this relationship...
I am NOW SO JEALOUS yet no mood to eat anything at all.. Jus now dinner jus ate half of the pear fruit and that all... I did not eat because of BOYFRIEND... Worry about that she might be tired of loving me...
I really dunno what to do so that she dun keep ignoring me... I know it she always listen to her friend only.. I really feel so useless and outcasted... BOYFRIEND CAN YOU PLEASE REPLY ME..?? I NEED YOU!!
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:17 AM
