Thursday, March 19, 2009 ❤
19th of March... It is really being a period that I never update this blog... Feeling that I might wan to have a hand write diary better... Because I dun feel like typing at here... Dunno why... This period trying to shift all my concentration on my interest which is watching HORROR movies from the past till now...
I watched a lot a lot... And I have been looking a series of LESBIAN HORROR movies from Korea... This series I think I knew that it can't be on sale in Singapore... I bought one of the part of Malaysia... But it is not fully on Lesbian is more on te History of the GIRL's school only... Had been finding HIGH and LOW all shops that sell DVDs & VCDs... But none of them got them on selling... How sad...
Anyway, this few weeks dunno what wrong with BOYFRIEND... She already started to treat me coldly... Even she talk the most is with her friends... And for me, she jus never talk to me more... Jus a few sentence that all... And no more jokes from her that can make me laugh... I feel more like a stranger to her...
Trying to ask for a short date also a very difficult chance for me... No more dates between us... So sad... I miss all the past that we had... I MISS THEM SO MUCH... She now only go out with her family... I trying to be more understanding... After she rejected my dates., I try to control my hurt and dun really wan to disturb her... I know is really hard for girls who have boyfriend yet boyfriend rejected their dates often will easily feel so sad like hell... Haiz...
I really hope that she can spend a little time for me... And this is my wish as from a GIRLFRIEND... I really never blame her anything that she did not say "I LOVE YOU" anymore..
My heart is in mess... I really dunno what to do so that BOYFRIEND can like treat me in the past... I really confuse... I really hope that someone who have the magicto make my BOYFRIEND be back like last time...
My tooth now in pain... And it had pain for a period... I think is time for me to look for a dental... DAMN.. About 3 years like that never go for a dental... And now I got to go for it.. Sianz.. That is a result of not brushing my teeth before bed for sometimes... I know I am lazy.. I ADMITTED...
LIFE IS SO MUCH DARKNESS, SADDNESS, HURT, LONELINESS..........
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:16 PM
