Friday, March 20, 2009 ❤
Back to blog again... There is too much of things appearing in my brain till I feel so uncomfortable.. I do need some rest but in the end, it jus can't stop... I do hope that this time I have made the RIGHT choice... But jus that now I still cannot forget her because when looking at her face remind me a lot of the happiness that we had in the past...
Everyone was right.. Lesbian can't be LAST LONG... Because in this country, the major people will not accept LESBIANs to be exist.. Is time for me to wake up to find a real man that who do can give lot of love and care to his girlfriend... And also will not easily left out his girlfriend though he is with a group of friends...
I still remember what godbrother had said to me in the past... There is still plenty of guys in the world that do treasure the LOVE a lot.. They will not easily hurt girlfriend... Even girlfriend throw her temper, boyfriend will let way to let his girlfriend happy... Butchs always flirt around..
I remember my godsister said to me that relationship should be HAPPY... If boyfriend keep giving hurt to girlfriend, it is not worth for each other to be together...
I feel regret that why I meet her in the past... Why I choose her to be my stead?? Why I always being so sft-hearted to her...?? Why should I believe her so easily when she is still making use of me...?? Why I wan to tell her my everything in the past..?? Why I wan to let her step into my life and hurt me??
I feel so much stupid.. In the end, I hurting myself all along... She did not really love that much after about a few months when first quarrel appear in our relationship... More quarrels appear more colder she treated me.. And she started to hide everything from me and be more closer to her friend till can side her and backstab me...
I think is time for me to rest and get my heart being heal...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:53 PM
