Wednesday, June 03, 2009 ❤
3th of June... Finally being back to blog... Getting no more interest in doing bloggin.. Jus dunno what to update and life seem happen the same again and again... So fucking boring...
I am no longer like teenagers how all my other friends behaved as one... I am more on old people type already because I easily get tired sometimes... I dun even have time to go out and shopping... I also even dun have a night life even how I wish to have one... Because I do enjoy going out to have a drink in the night for some chit chat session... But I dun have a chance...
Everyday wake up then go work... Or off day jus stay at home and online for the whole day and never go out...
I really kinda of scared of goin to future.. Because I dun dare to have a life at all... And jus waiting for the time to end only... And those money that I have earned from work doesn't seem important to me any longer... Even I dun interested in the latest handphone or anything else... I am such a BORING person..
Anyway, I have been spending my days really quite quiet... Because I dun talk to people using my mouth... And even my boy also dun call me everyday or sms me to talk to me anymore... Because she is tired and need more rest so that why she hack care me... And I dun really wish to bother about how much she care for me any longer... Because the more I care the deeper hurt I will get...
Therefore, I jus wish to have a happy life everyday by living in my own world... And really dun wan to know what is happening around me... Because I hate to know it too... I already get so much of hurt and unhappiness in the past when I over care about the surrounding too much... Hope my time is ending really soon... Because I do find that I sometime do have difficult time in breathing.... Jus dunno why but being look for the doctor in the past, yet result is nothing wrong jus that muscle pain...
Tomorrow is aniother boring day of working.... Really hope that I can faster resign from this present job and get a new job to start a new life...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:16 PM
