Friday, August 07, 2009 ❤
7th of August... Time really past so fast... And it is already August... I really never notice about the month... And I should thank the god that decided our fate... Because I really have a really good boyfriend in my life now.. I am really happy..
I am sorry to my BABY jus now... Had been webcam with BABY jus now and accidently talked about my past and also about my unhappiness in the past... Saw BABY a bit not happy because I have been saying that I wish to drink alcohol to forget the unhappiness matter...
At the sudden, I felt so bad and gulity... I felt more that I am not a good girl at all... I really mean it... And he wan me to promise him not to drink when feeling sad, I felt so useless that I cannot promise him straight away...
I think I should change myself from tomorrow onward... I should reduce drinking alcohol.. And I wish BABY can be by my side always when I am feeling sad... And I hope that he can make me happy by using his hug or even his kiss...
I know I am a selfish girl... I jus can't change my selfishness away from me... And I will try to change to a better person...
Anyway, SORRY to my BABY to see you that I cried jus now in the webcam... I really dun wan to cry but I am not strong enough to hide.. How I wish that you can give me a HUG on that time to cheer me up and let me feel that I am not alone at all.. I still have YOU~
BABY I LOVE YOU lot.. Really happy to have you as my BOY and I wish to be with you FOREVER and ever..
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:31 AM
