Monday, September 21, 2009 ❤
21th of Sept... Yesterday I did cried... Saddness mood made me super tired and I am able to get into my sleep... Today morning went to Woodland to meet boyfriend to pass him the thumbdrive... He was late as usual and I was early... I did not eat my breakfast and rush out just to meet him only...
I really dun dare to wear the ring on my finger yet that why I wear it on my neck instead.. When a ring is wore on my neck, this mean to other that I still love this person a lot and I hope that we can get back together again... Though me and my boyfriend did not break at all but not contacting each other is really a torture to me... I will feel super lonely in this period without anyone talking to me...
But anyway, thank to boyfriend willing to send me back home... Sorry that I am in a rude tone when talking to boyfriend because my heart is in hurt and I am wearing those spikes to prevent I get hurt again... I really do not mean it... I did not really talk to him during the journey and never dare to touch him at all... Because I very very scared..
I still love him a lot a lot.. I wish to hug him tightly because I very very scared and worry that he might leave me... This is what I have been scared of...
But after seeing him, I sms-ed to him to tell him how I feel everything.. I finally tried not to being sad after received his SMS... This SMS does help me a lot.. At least I still know that boyfriend still love me and he does really need a rest without me...
From today onward, I will try to make myself busy and not to think about him till the time he get back to me.. I also must thank all the friends who really had MSN-ed me and concerned about me... This period I might still feel a bit hurt but I willing to try..
I even think of drinking up alcohol but in the end, I did not buy and drink because I know that boyfriend dun really love me to drink alcohol... That why I now seldom drink.. I reduce on my drinking... I also did promise to my boyfriend... I hope I can do it just for him... I dun wan to let him feel disappointed about me... I wan him to be happy...
To BOYFRIEND: Baby I love you a lot... Please dun take your break so long because I MISS YOU A LOT... The longer break the longer hurt I will have... I will wait for you...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠8:44 PM
