Monday, September 28, 2009 ❤
28th of Sept... Haiz.. Feeling so little disappointed about myself... Yesterday night I had a very very bad dream... I really hope that it will not be True... I know I dun have confident in myself anymore... I lost all of them dunno since when... I keep on blaming myself why am I so much useless...
Yesterday, I dreamt that I am really a failure girlfriend... My heart is in pain a little... Till now I still blaming myself... I know I can't control Baby's heart, I also can't decide who he love too... I just scared that the dream might just come true one day... I am really scared and worry...
Just now out to Changi Airport to accompany Baby for work... I studied at MacDonald Cafe while Baby went for work.. Studied for 2 hours plus... I did not realise that time really fly so fast...
Then accompanied Baby back to his office there.. And off we took train to Choa Chu Kang for dinner... I feel that Baby a little different.. I hope I not that over sensitive... I everytime tell myself not to think too much... But everytime see Baby not happy, I feel super disappointed about myself... I even keep on think what I have done that make Baby feel unhappy.. I just wan to find out about myself...
Just now Baby said he is not feeling well... Damn I really not a good girlfriend because I dunno how to make Baby feel comfortable.. I feel so disappointed again... I feel that I am useless... I see Baby feel so sick, I feel so heart pain... Yet I do nothing at the side...
Why am I so so a FAILURE person??
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:00 PM
