Wednesday, September 30, 2009 ❤
Back to blog... I keep on complaining at here that I missing Baby so so much... But in my mind, I have been thinking too much of things... I dunno which is right and wrong... Thinking about relationship... I dunno...
Thinking of Baby have been unhappy that make me feel so much disappointed about myself... Why I can't be like last time can make him smile easily?? This time I can't do it anymore... I give up... I tired... Have been sms-ing to Baby that if really got one day that he met a perfect girl at the sudden or feel regret to be with me, I really allow him to leave me... Though I feel so much hurt and pain about it but is worth a lot... Because I dun wish my Baby to be unhappy together with me...
I really sux to be someone girlfriend... Because I even dun know how to make myself happy what for make my love one to be happy... I totally a failure...
My relationship always end so early... And never have a long-term... I dunno why... I always wan to have a forever life relationship but I think this wish has become so far from me... Every sentence that Baby talk to me no longer like last time... It feels so cold and hurt to me... I dunno what to do... I only can bear with it in my heart and try not to cry in front of him...
I trying to be strong outside but inside my heart is crying and screaming for help.. I wan to be with you Baby... But I can't be selfish.. I wish you to be happy... I willing to let go if you wish to... I can't hold you any longer...
Bad dreams have been huanting me quite often which is concern about you... I even have not been sleeping quite well... Even when I am alone in room, I cry and cry... I dunno what to do to make you happy again...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠2:32 PM
