Monday, June 21, 2010 ❤
21th of Jun... Really Moody today... Totally feeling no strength... My legs having cramp after running yesterday... I have problem in walking down the stairs... Totally like cannot bend at all... Haiz... Need to be in this condition for about a few days so it will recover...
Anyway, I running again this coming Saturday... Hee heez... I know I need to exercise more in order not to get fatter and fatter... Because working in office, is easy to get fat than thinner...
Back to the main topic that I wan to say, regarding my Post in Facebook, everyone might wonder who is that SHE? I have to say that SHE is a female and is in aunty age... I dun wish to further explain... Just kinda of dun like the way she talk to me... I know I am young but is doesn't seem that is good to be like you are older and I must listen to you like this... I dun like this.. If you will in my shoes, how will you feel either..??
Another thing that from my post which give me a bad experience before, is my PREVIOUS workplace... I do have a very good buddy in work as well as like a couple... One time because I talked bad thing regarding on other staff to my this "buddy", in the end, the other staff know that I talked about her...
This "Buddy" said not she say wan and the staff very clever like whatever I say she will know... Hahaz... Kinda of joke... This "buddy" and that staff actually are very good friend also... They always talk on the phone very LONG LONG in the night like couple talking to each other... How can my matter can't be spread by this "BUDDY"??
I being stupid and trust her that she will not say out my case but in the end, this staff keep scolding me and one day gang up with another staff who is BIG size yet coward, shooting at me, scolding at me so loud in the work like wan to let the whole world know that I like to talk people bad things... I did not let out a single word as I dun wish to create trouble and I know I can't even had help from that workplace...
I called this "Buddy" to say everything out... Begging and crying for help... In the end, her reply was "Sorry I cannot do anything... I must not be bias to anyone..." Fuck sia... Is this called "BUDDY"?? When she need in help, I help her... I even help her to do bad things... I silly that I trust her so easily... I know I stupid either... I never always aware that danger around me that always make me so hurt till I had some kinda of mental problem...
After resigning from that work, I do have mental problem as in dunno who to believe in and scared of being backstab too... I even start cursing people easily in my brain... I just cannot stop thinking and relax my brain... Argh~
But after a few months, I started not to think about the past... Letting go of everything and have a new relationship and even drink beer or alcohol to freeze myself from thinking back... Or feel saddness...
This is why I will post the entry on my Facebook... I know I have been hiding things since I am as a child... I become so alien in the crowd... Just feel that no one wan to make friend with me either... I know I am coward in the past... But now I trying to change myself not to keep anything in heart... Try to share with my boyfriend or friends who are my girlfriends that do bother care about me...
I LOVE THEM~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:17 PM
