Sunday, November 28, 2010 ❤
I updating my blog once again... I dunno why I have the sudden to blog... Really kinda of disappointed and hurt... I dunno why am I feeling this right now... I am suppose have forget you since I break off with you for 2 weeks plus... BUT WHY I STILL CAN'T FORGET YOU??
I suddenly blog this because the girl comment made me hurt a lot though I am nothing from you... I dunno why the first day when I just broke off with you, she added me.. She seem really concern you a lot... Even ask me what happen and stand at your side help you... What is her, who has a boyfriend, to you??
Even all my friends all stand at my side trying to comfort me and happy for me to leave you as soon as possible... They also said I have made the RIGHT choice to leave you... I simply feel that this girl may have a sight feeling for you or else girl will not bother about you even is your friend... They will not even wan to try to step into the case of between the 2 of us...
This few period is really very important to me... I trying really hard as possible to heal myself.. But why I can't?? Telling everyone Ya I alright, please dun worry about me... But right in my heart, when night come, I keep on peeping on your Facebook profile to see any updates on you... I also do worry about you that you might feel sad because I have dump you.. But in the end, I dun think is the way I am thinking..
I have saw some comments you do still really playing that game when you free... As usual concentrating on that game so much... That hurt me a lot... I thought you might know the reason why I dump you... GAMES is all you concern..?? GAMES can give you good future..?? How about you feel when if one day you without the game??
In past, I keep trying hard to encourage you to study dun give up just for our future... But the answer you give me totally break my heart., and one day by another my love do fate or you... Because you seem doesn't care about future... I know is easy to talk but why dun you show your own action??
Been chat with your friends a while, realised more on your attitude in the past and now... You seem did not change at all... Asking you to study is not threatern you at all or giving you stress, is really for your own good... I also do not love to study but in the end., I still choose to study... I even force myself and blame myself when I not getting a good result and make my future life gonna be a failure...
I even suffer myself by skipping my own lunch and save up more money for our future in the past... But why you still never really feel it??
I know you have your own feeling and thinking... No one will really STOP you from doing anything... Even what I say to you in the past is also a mean of threaten to you either... But I only hope in future you will find a girlfriend who really can understand what your reason of being lazy and able to take care of the family with you.. I myself can't continue the journey with you any longer.. I really kinda of tired and stress after thinking the future with you... All the BEST... Hope after the cry, I will get better~
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠11:12 PM
