Saturday, May 21, 2011 ❤
21th of May~ Is just another boring day... Gonna stay at home for the whole day as usual... Today is Saturday... Later going to have my revision again... Hope I can really know what is going on in the study... Haiz... Sometimes maybe because of those chim chim words made me dun understand what is talking about... But at least try to understand and phrse it in my own words during exam... Exam is just 20 days... OMG~ So freaking near...
Put aside of those exam stuff because those exam stuffs do making me mad... I decided to earn more money by working and should stop continuing to study... The more I study I think I will gonna nut... Because of this coming exam of the theories I really have been feeling like throw temper and crying for no reason sometimes just feeling kinda of useless that those theories not getting into my brain... Feeling so stupid at the same time... Now I know why some teenagers might jump down to kill themselves from the stress of study... I understand their feelings now... I even one night being dreaming that I jumped down from my kitchen window, which is about 6th storey high, and being smashed badly onto those cars parked just below... And blood from my mouth flow out... Eyes was opened quite big... The flying feel was like you are free from all the stress at once and feel so happy on air... LOL~
Yup I know I cannot talk about this or else Bibi will kinda of angry or sad to see this... But no choice I already being felt that feeling once...
Next that on 29th of May, I will be going AKB48 2nd stage live concert... Kinda of excited... Bibi will be coming along too... Love him~ But I might scared he will dun like the feeling in the crowded place... Anyway, is my first time to the LIVE concert... I wonder how it will be... I want to keep on jumping when they are singing... OMG~ Wahaha~ About 1 week to their concert... I really excited... I am going to bring my camera along... Hope I am able to capture some of their photos... But I hope my camera work well in that place... Hope everything goes well...
Yup... Being thinking what hair to cut soon.... As my hair is getting back to the natural hair that I have in past... Is super damn ugly... I really hate that hair either... I think about 2 months or 1 I will rebond my hair and cut my hair too... Should be not changing any style... Cut back the same style of the hair that I have right now... Mmm...
Tomorrow shall be meeting Bibi... But still thinking should we go out or just staying at his house to slack... And because Monday is our monthly anniversary... Can't celebrate too... Haiz... Why do our monthly anniversary fall on weekdays..?? Why not weekend?? Whatever...
Signing out now... Guess today I have typed a lot... LOL~ So will be back soon if I am free... Hahaz...
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