Wednesday, September 07, 2011 ❤
7th of Sept... Back from all the laziness... I know this post might be very sensitive post or maybe might offence to other people... I am kinda of unhappy when I work longer in the current company... Is not about the work, it is about the attitude what people have given... It also does reflect about how the company people are...
Somehow, I feeling that there is xiao ren in this company... Like keep want to drag me into problems yet in first place that I even kinda of new of that things... Somehow, I do feel that I am just a slave to some people... And I dun wan to mention who the person is... What to do?? Temp staff is just an extra staff that those works that can't finish by permanet staff will then assign to temp staff... Sometimes permanet staffs can just outcast the temp staff too...
One thing that I learnt from my study, money rewards and the attitude in work do help to motive people in working... This wan I super strongly agree... Which people want to work in an environment where the managers just always being strict with you like police ordering the prisoners what cannot do and what can be do...
Right now I know I have no right to say anything either... Cause I know I just finish my job and get my pay... I dun care about any shit for this company either... Even if one day got anyone ask me have any interest of working in this company, I should just say NO right to the person face... This company seriously have given me a very bad impression in some ways... I dun feel the polite in some of the department through the emails... Since other people might want to be inpolite, I shall just play with them too... They also can't know who I am... And there goes I AM JUST A TEMPORARY STAFF, you can't do anything to me too.. I done my case and I dun bother about this shit in future... Hahaz...
Anyway, put aside of this fucking working problems... I realised that somehow I feeling abnormal for this few days... I dunno what really caused me... Maybe study... I have been losing out of my mind being posting lot of sensitive statues in my facebook wall... I really dunno why this stuffs thing just pop out...
After posting those, I immdietaly can just cry without any control... Trying hard enough to control my emotion... I know my attitude is very bad nowadays... Have been thinking what other ways to release this stress too... Haiz...
Sometimes I do think of Beer... I know beer can make myself feel relax for a day but after the days, the problems will still appear... It just can't avoid...
Recently I feel that I have been crying quite often too... I wish I can stop the crying... How I wish there is no stress in my life... All I know is that I have a unfair life... Haiz...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠10:23 AM
