Friday, February 24, 2012 ❤
24th of February.. I dunno why I have a sudden feeling that I want to update my blog.. Somehow I just can't take it anymore... Have been controlling my emotion and also one of the feeling inside me that making me feeling so horrible which I not sure how to say...
I actually dun feel happy at all.. I no longer can't ind anything that really do make me happy.. Somehow feeling that depression came back after a few years back.. Have been trying hard to control but in the end, I fail.. Feel like looking for a doctor for medicine..
I try using dancing to make myself feel happy but I dun think it is a success one... I try to open to everyone talk like nobody else... Behaving like another person but I feeling so horrible and I dun love it at all...
Whenever going out or going back home, I always choose to take bus because I wish to be alone and also I do not like to crowd with other people... When it is the time I am alone, I always do feel comfortable on myself... I feel sight happy and peace just with my music on and nothing to bother about...
I just want to have sometimes to heal myself back... The pain in my brain is somehow on and off from me... It is getting disturbing too... I know my aunty or either my father do have this problem so it is not rare for me to have this head pain too... I shall have rest now... Really feeling super not good... Tears just can't stop flowing out of my eyes...
☠❤Dead Jas❤☠1:05 AM
